Poem about my addiction

[StrawPipes]

Just like the title says.. Here it is, I hope you like

Mother
What is my condition? That causes my reticence to diminish?
This submissive behavior, forever in debt to the dominatrix
Mother are you there? Mother can you help me?
Help me change, help me maintain vigilance
I want it all, but I need to be phlegmatic

Uphold the sunshine by consuming my guilty pleasures
A waste, a stupid waste, a god damn waste
Mother can you hear me? Mother will you listen?
I sit mirthfully in my basement, imagining the perfect world
I know it’s fake, figments created by my own psychological perception

What is my reality? Mother can you tell me?
This apprehension perplexes my reticence to neglect consumption of this terrible animosity
It’s consuming me and though I try, I fail at its superiority
Mother where did you go? Mother will it ever end?
Give me that fix, let me experience perfection, let me feel like god

Just once mother? I promise I won’t hurt you
It’s time now mother, no more thinking lackadaisically
No more in debt to my cruel intentions, no more a slave
Purify me mother. Show me your love

 

[Angus_Khan]

not too bad and i definitely share some of the same sentiments. shouldn't have used "reticence" twice. All in all, pretty decent man. thanks. __________________ KhAn_____________-___

 

[Mehm]

the depths of addiction are truly a lonesome place. i hope you feel better soon