Hi guys.
On thursday november 4th i did ecstasy for the first time. I am not going to lie i rolled all night and it was a wonderful experience, had a great time at the local club. The pill i took was purple, round, and had what looked like a puppy on it. This was my first time taking e, and i only took one pill. I am 19 year old college student and i have 4.0. I have done lsd, i smoke pot on a regular basis, and i just wanted to try out ecstasy with a few friends.
Towards the end of my roll, i started to have a horrible comedown, i was not scared because i have heard that ecstasy has a bad comedown to it. I started to feel a tingly sensation a little above and to the left of my left eye. This freaked me out more than anything has ever freaked me out. I thought my brain was going numb and i was going to die. My girlfriend calmed me down and put me to sleep. In the morning i woke up perfect. I did not feel depressed, anxious, or anything abnormal. I still have no idea what that tingly numb sensation was but i got over it. This is not my problem but if anyone knows what that is id like to know more about it.
The really scary stuff started to happen a day later. On the second day, Saturday, after my roll, i started to feel a weird. I have this spaced out feeling which has not gotten any better. I smoked pot with my friends, like normal, and for some reason i got a horrible horrible feeling. For some reason i got even more spaced out and felt my heart going crazy. The crazy heart made my mind start going crazy, and i started panicking, my friends calmed me down made me some soup and i felt better when i was sober, still the same spaced out feeling i had before the pot.
Might i add i am a very heavy pot smoker and this has NEVER happened to me before. This spaced out feeling has not gone away and it has been a week now. Every time i smoke weed now i get the exact same thing, anxiety, panic, a racing heart. The feeling is horrible. I just hope this ex did not mess my brain up for life. If i could do anything in the world to take back that night and not take the e pill i would. I wish my body would just go back to normal. This spaced out feeling makes me feel like i am high all the time, and when i get stoned i get extremely fucked up.
Please tell me this is common and it will go away. I dont want to be permanently high anymore. I want to feel sober again. If there is anything i can do to make myself feel normal again please tell me, and if there is anyone out there who has experienced this that would really be amazing to know too. My friends all feel fine after the e, and they keep telling me its all in my head. But i know for a fact that this feeling i am having is not what normal sobriety is, i literally open my eyes and i am spaced out, i wake up spaced out, i hate this.
Please help me
Thank you for anybody who took the time to read all this shit, i appreciate your help and your time.
On thursday november 4th i did ecstasy for the first time. I am not going to lie i rolled all night and it was a wonderful experience, had a great time at the local club. The pill i took was purple, round, and had what looked like a puppy on it. This was my first time taking e, and i only took one pill. I am 19 year old college student and i have 4.0. I have done lsd, i smoke pot on a regular basis, and i just wanted to try out ecstasy with a few friends.
Towards the end of my roll, i started to have a horrible comedown, i was not scared because i have heard that ecstasy has a bad comedown to it. I started to feel a tingly sensation a little above and to the left of my left eye. This freaked me out more than anything has ever freaked me out. I thought my brain was going numb and i was going to die. My girlfriend calmed me down and put me to sleep. In the morning i woke up perfect. I did not feel depressed, anxious, or anything abnormal. I still have no idea what that tingly numb sensation was but i got over it. This is not my problem but if anyone knows what that is id like to know more about it.
The really scary stuff started to happen a day later. On the second day, Saturday, after my roll, i started to feel a weird. I have this spaced out feeling which has not gotten any better. I smoked pot with my friends, like normal, and for some reason i got a horrible horrible feeling. For some reason i got even more spaced out and felt my heart going crazy. The crazy heart made my mind start going crazy, and i started panicking, my friends calmed me down made me some soup and i felt better when i was sober, still the same spaced out feeling i had before the pot.
Might i add i am a very heavy pot smoker and this has NEVER happened to me before. This spaced out feeling has not gone away and it has been a week now. Every time i smoke weed now i get the exact same thing, anxiety, panic, a racing heart. The feeling is horrible. I just hope this ex did not mess my brain up for life. If i could do anything in the world to take back that night and not take the e pill i would. I wish my body would just go back to normal. This spaced out feeling makes me feel like i am high all the time, and when i get stoned i get extremely fucked up.
Please tell me this is common and it will go away. I dont want to be permanently high anymore. I want to feel sober again. If there is anything i can do to make myself feel normal again please tell me, and if there is anyone out there who has experienced this that would really be amazing to know too. My friends all feel fine after the e, and they keep telling me its all in my head. But i know for a fact that this feeling i am having is not what normal sobriety is, i literally open my eyes and i am spaced out, i wake up spaced out, i hate this.
Please help me
Thank you for anybody who took the time to read all this shit, i appreciate your help and your time.
