Please make an appt. with the receptionist on your way out

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Damn man If i didnt know any better I would say your writing about me man... I do the same things you are talking about. I too im fighting a adiction to benzo's for me it was xanax i had a docter giving me 4 s mg bars a day along with me being on pain killers mainly H. I have gotton clean of xanax and no take Subutex and i can relate to the mood being flat, and getting into the cycle of pitty. I to im like you and still im dealing with the fact that years of drug use has left me a shell of the person i used to be. I to im lazy and feel everything should be handed to me and i never used to be like that befor drugs. as my docter said its gonna take 1 to 2 years to gain back all the dopamine and for me longer because of subutex has shut down some receptors so I have to slowly get them working again with stimulation. anyways your blogs are amazing and reallly help me not to feel so alone.

 

Btw I'm the ALONE person of the group of people that all started using together that is still alive most of them died from fent. OD. and the one friend that is still alive is in for life for killing his dealer that had half a key of dope on him. Just wanted to let you know be thankfull for just being alive. I have been dead for 10 mins befor being brought back thanks to Naloxone so im thankfull every day to be alive and that is what keeps me going. IM SO FUCKING LUCKY!