I had all this shit that I wanted to write, just to get it the fuck out of my head for at least two seconds..
I don't think I was awake for any longer than five minutes before all my now normal bullshit started in again. I went out to smoke on the deck and couldn't stop crying, I was shaking so bad it took my dropping my lighter twice just to try and get the damned thing lit.
Thrown in the back seat of everyones lives, the few people I really thought thought I knew would be there for me can't even be bothered to make a call? Sure, someone I really care about told me that friends are there to lean on each other. So when they won't say more than two words to you, can't talk about whats been bothering them or why they can't....
you know this isn't what i wanted to write, but i can hardly see the screen and these tears are the only thing left to me..
*what if you've been falling for so long you want to hit the bottom and be done with
I don't think I was awake for any longer than five minutes before all my now normal bullshit started in again. I went out to smoke on the deck and couldn't stop crying, I was shaking so bad it took my dropping my lighter twice just to try and get the damned thing lit.
Thrown in the back seat of everyones lives, the few people I really thought thought I knew would be there for me can't even be bothered to make a call? Sure, someone I really care about told me that friends are there to lean on each other. So when they won't say more than two words to you, can't talk about whats been bothering them or why they can't....
you know this isn't what i wanted to write, but i can hardly see the screen and these tears are the only thing left to me..
*what if you've been falling for so long you want to hit the bottom and be done with