Yes it was lap all 3 times.. The lupron made me pass out and I'm not sure if u seen my whole message but one of the Surgery was for a hysterectomy.. everyone is different and just because something works for u don't mean it works for everyone.. maybe u are trying to help but I can't help but to feel like u'r being a little pushy..
I am sorry you feel as though I'm being pushy. I am only trying to help...because I have already been where you are.
I think you are reading too much into what I am saying. Throughout your initial post you refer to yourself as "stupid" and an "asshole" for allowing yourself to get back on the opioid merry-go-round. From that, I understood that you were unhappy and dissatisfied with your present situation. You wanted to know "what else you could do" to handle your situation. I was offering alternatives...that is all. And I was trying to offer alternatives that didn't involve using benzos on top of opioids. And I know your main concern is withdrawal, but if you found ways to handle the endometriosis without opioids, then withdrawal wouldn't be problem. I was trying to look at the bigger picture. Do you want to have to start taking benzos every time you run out of pain meds just so you can sort of manage your kids while you're going through withdrawal? Do you really want to add another addictive medication into the mix? It seems to me the better thing to do would be to not have the withdrawals...so you can enjoy your time with your children. Again, my tone is not self-righteous...I am seriously asking you to think about these questions.
As I said, when I was using, I always found a reason why any non-opioid treatment would not work for me. That way, I could justify to myself that using opioids were not only necessary, but the only option for me. I didn't want you to fall into that trap. And I suppose I risk pushiness by saying this, but it sounds as if you already have.
Also, I didn't say that Lupron worked for me...it didn't. Hence, the headaches. I get that it's a hardcore medication.
I suppose it doesn't matter at this point, but you mentioned having a hysterectomy as though that means you cannot take Lupron. I had a hysterectomy at 28 (they took my ovaries out as well) and then took Lupron. It still works post hysterectomy. However, like you, the risk of taking Lupron outweighed the benefit.
Listen, I'm not trying to be heavy-handed with you. I only say this because if you're still having pain from endometriosis, you still must be producing estrogen. This means that either you still have one (or both) ovaries or you have an ovarian remnant (this was my problem) which still produces estrogen. So all treatments that suppress the estrogen should work for you if endometriosis is truly the problem. Of course, I totally understand that a lot the treatments suck and have terrible side effects. All I wish to do is encourage to focus on resolving the problem instead of focusing on fixing the pain. I totally get that you also need to manage your pain in the mean time. Believe me, I get it. I was only trying to help you focus on long-term solutions.
In the short-term, I have tried kratom for pain. It worked so-so. But everyone is different, so it may work better for you. I have also had really good luck with Motrin 800 and Toradol (which is an injectable NSAID). Acupuncture also really helps my pain (when I can afford it). Also, you may consider buprenorphine. This is what I take now because I can't take any other opioids without developing a problem. Of course, nothing works as well as Dilaudid (my pain DOC), but Dilaudid led my down the garden path to hell. However, the longer I stay away from true opiates, the better my ability to deal with pain seems to become.
Good luck! And I'm sorry if I offended.
