Subliminal
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Apr 10, 2011
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- 13
Well let me set up what happened for you. Last night at a party with my girlfriend of six months(has been raped before). I told her i would never leave her side at this party and i broke the promise when she asked to go to the toilet, i asked her two times and she said she would be fine.
After about 10 minutes of her going i began to worry and my friend said i wasnt keeping the time properly and she just left us. so after a little while i said where is she she should be back. we went down to the toilet to have no trace of her at all we checked the dance floor, the fires and the cars(incase she was cheating on me). After that we had no trace of her again and decided to take it to the owners of the place to track down where she was. I was hanging back a little bit expecting her to be cheating on me and ready to leave and get the fuck out of there. I was sitting down and when my mate came up and told me she was raped, she was there in just her tights with nothing else on crying to herself.
The moment i was told i fell to the ground crying, and my breathing became really short and i felt like i was going to pass out and shaking all of my body kind of like a seizure but i was still aware of what i was doing. I began to start hitting my head agaisnt the ground in hope to wake up because i could feel nothing at the time i thought i would just wake up and get out of this hell i was in.
After i managed to calm myself down i went to the car where we drove to the hospital where she was treated (i was not aloud in) but her two friends where. When i saw her at the enterance all i said was i am sorry(i was speechless) i began crying and not showing her my face because i felt so bad. After this time we were transfered to another hospital where i was made to wait outside for 2 hours, when she was realeased she didnt want to talk to me or give me eye contact i just felt to empty inside. While i was waiting i saw i man which i had once met before for some reason i put my head to his chest and began to weep and hold onto him as tight as i could just because it made me feel like i was holding her or even just touching someone else made me emational, the harder i held him to worse i felt but i couldnt stop doing it.
We were taken home expecting them all to come home later but she was kept and her mum was asked to pick her up, i pretty much have had no sleep and she has deleted her facebook (no longer in a relationship? so facebook says) her mobile has been turned off and i rang her home phone which was on the answering machine, she has not said a word to me which i can't fucking deal with al all im not sure what is going on. This has happened twice i feel like i have failed i feel like i dont deserve to be here, i feel like it is my time, i cant deal with this stress i just don't think this world was meant for me. I am going to see friends because if i am alone i KNOW i will do something stupid please help me
After about 10 minutes of her going i began to worry and my friend said i wasnt keeping the time properly and she just left us. so after a little while i said where is she she should be back. we went down to the toilet to have no trace of her at all we checked the dance floor, the fires and the cars(incase she was cheating on me). After that we had no trace of her again and decided to take it to the owners of the place to track down where she was. I was hanging back a little bit expecting her to be cheating on me and ready to leave and get the fuck out of there. I was sitting down and when my mate came up and told me she was raped, she was there in just her tights with nothing else on crying to herself.
The moment i was told i fell to the ground crying, and my breathing became really short and i felt like i was going to pass out and shaking all of my body kind of like a seizure but i was still aware of what i was doing. I began to start hitting my head agaisnt the ground in hope to wake up because i could feel nothing at the time i thought i would just wake up and get out of this hell i was in.
After i managed to calm myself down i went to the car where we drove to the hospital where she was treated (i was not aloud in) but her two friends where. When i saw her at the enterance all i said was i am sorry(i was speechless) i began crying and not showing her my face because i felt so bad. After this time we were transfered to another hospital where i was made to wait outside for 2 hours, when she was realeased she didnt want to talk to me or give me eye contact i just felt to empty inside. While i was waiting i saw i man which i had once met before for some reason i put my head to his chest and began to weep and hold onto him as tight as i could just because it made me feel like i was holding her or even just touching someone else made me emational, the harder i held him to worse i felt but i couldnt stop doing it.
We were taken home expecting them all to come home later but she was kept and her mum was asked to pick her up, i pretty much have had no sleep and she has deleted her facebook (no longer in a relationship? so facebook says) her mobile has been turned off and i rang her home phone which was on the answering machine, she has not said a word to me which i can't fucking deal with al all im not sure what is going on. This has happened twice i feel like i have failed i feel like i dont deserve to be here, i feel like it is my time, i cant deal with this stress i just don't think this world was meant for me. I am going to see friends because if i am alone i KNOW i will do something stupid please help me
