I have one 40 Mg opana. Well, now I have 20 Mg cause I just took half. I do snort them because when I swallow them my stomach goes wild. I have 3 ulcers. One in my esophagus and 2 in my stomach. I know doing it this way causes a lot of addiction problems and I was taking up to 4 30's per day. I am prescribed these (only 2 /day) but always run out early because I they only last a couple hours at best. I am a cpp (i have duffuse scleroderma) but need to figure something else out. I am going to get the stuff for the Thomas recipe today and got lots of lope and 7 8mg suboxone. Since the formula for opana has changed and you cannot snort them, I do not want to even try the new ones. I am not a junkie but feel like one because the only way I could take these without folding over in gastro pain is snort them. I am SO scared of what is going to happen to me. I told my husband and he is super supportive and will help me through this. I want to try a different way to manage my pain. Something holistic. The only thing I worry about is the pain I will feel and that won't go away with the withdrawals. I need support and people I don't know to talk to about this. I am so worried and scared. I don't know if I should start taking the lope now or wait and I'm debating on weather these subs are worth it or not. I really need help. I have looked at this site for a while and just recently joined. I did use topix but the amount of assholes and junkies there is not who I want help from. If you have any advice to offer PLEASE do. I am scared shitless! Should I use the subs short term? Will I withdrawal from those if I just take them for a short time? I also take savalla, a med for fibromyalgia and I have a lot of ultram. I have klonopin that I take for anxiety and and 20 vicoden. How should I do this??? Thank you in advance for any help.
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