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ThatKronicKid

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I don't know what to do anymore. Pretty much everyone has just found out about me using drugs and no one will even talk to me anymore. It's like they hate me or shun me because of it. I plan on quitting (for the billionth time) pills but at the same time, because everyone seems to hate me, I feel like I should just end my life (If you read my other topic this is more in depth of what it was about.) I have a history of cutting, depression, and (failed) suicide but I just really feel like there's no one to talk to about this. I don't exactly like talking to new people about personal things either. I was planning on obtaining a bunch of Klonopin, vicodin, and heroin and just going out like that. I just...I don't know what to do anymore. It's not the fact that everyone knows about my drug use, it's the fact that no one will even look at me anymore..it just really gets to me. I guess I'm just asking for support or something. I don't really see any point in posting a thread about this. I just can't see a point in anything.
 
Hey KK and welcome to BL=D<3

So many shallow people need to look down on other people in order to make themselves feal worthy. I know its hard.. but who cares what they say.

Your an amazing person.. don't worry about the clowns who say otherwise.. if they were all that they wouldn't need to put others down and shun them <3

I am a drug addict.. I am an amazing loving person. I will put what I have against anyone in the world.. but I don't need to because I worked to a place where I love myself. so to hell with what the peanut gallery thinks.
 
Hey OP sorry to hear about your current pain and suffering. Unfortunately, most people in society are judgmental. Whenever drugs becomes a topic in any conversation, there's always going to be "righteous people" who thinks that drug users or drug addicts should be condemned.

These people who you say hate you, are they family members? friends? acquaintances? If these are friends, then they are not true friends who accepts you for what you are and will accept your flaws and imperfections. You should always be open to meeting new people because not everyone will judge you just because you have a liking on drugs.

I think that what you should focus on is you, your recovery and how you can fight everyday to kick off the addiction. Don't worry about everyone else, worry about yourself first. Goodluck hun <3
 
I had just written a few pages here and lost it. But you should be honest with yourself and everyone involved. Ask for help from those you love. Those who care about you will be happy you are seeking help. And rally by your side. There is no shame in wanting to get better.you must realize that you are lovable. Capable. And worthwhile. And surround yourself with people who believe the same. The people around you that are treating you poorly have no understanding of what you are going through. Yet they pass judgement. They are not your friends. They are hurting you and hindering you from achieving your goals. Tell everyone you know. Your an addict and need love and support. Not infantile judgement based on insufficient understanding. If you put it out there with nothing to hide. And let them know you want their support. You will quickly see who loves you. And the road ahead will look a lot less rocky. I hope you get the help you need or find happiness
 
TKK,

I agree with neversickanymore. Don't listen to these hypocrites. They stigmatize drug users then return to their miserable self-loathing lives where they are mired in in their own addictions such as porn, junk food, gambling, or whatever they are a slave to. I am a drug user too and I am no longer ashamed of it. These people can go screw themselves.
 
There is a whole world of chemical junkies out there for you to make friends if that if that is what you desire, don't be disheartened! There's also lots of perfectly reasonable straight people who will judge you on the strength of your character not your choice of intoxicants.

If these people are so close minded as to ostracise you for your drug taking then they're no loss to you and you should try not to be upset, see it as a motivator to widen your social circle and meet some new and sound people.
 
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Let your haters be your motivators. Show them your not the low life they think you are and kick the drugs and show them not all drug addicts are bad people. But I agree, if it's your "friends" doing this to you than they're not true friends. If it's your family than shame on them, you need the support and if anyone they're the ones who should be supporting you
 
They sound pretty ignorant, say you're going through a tough time or something. You shouldn't really care, your friends wouldn't judge you but only support you for the better.
 
Every few months or less depending on my current situation I become extremely depressed and fail to see any light to my current situation.

I'm bipolar and have been to some extremely dark places in my life. Currently I am in a fairly shitty living situation and last week was seriously contemplating suicide.

Here's what helps me. Today I feel good. I work my ass off to better myself. I don't give up.

Honestly you just need to take a step back and breathe. Sit it out, listen to some music, let some time pass.
Once you have calmed down a little bit make a resolution to face the next day head on, just make a resolution to do better than you have been doing.
No one is perfect, and furthermore you need to make that resolution to give the finger to all those who look down on you, shut you out, or shun you...to get better and get things together to show that you have the strength to face something they know nothing about and therefore would probably crumble and give up if they were dealt the hand you were.

I have faith in you. I have been to hell and back and god dammit I keep going and tough it out time and time again because I am a survivor and I don't give a fuck what anyone who is ignorant to he fact that this disease is stronger than anything they will ever know. Because if they did know it they would show some some compassion to those fighting it.

Prayers to you homie. You can do it
 
Hi everyone, just to get that first post introduction out of the way. I felt like I had to say something quickly. I really hope you come back to this forum Kronic. I've been more or less stalking these pages for years without making an account and posting a word. But throughout this time I have not only gained massive knowledge on how to take better care of myself, but I believe, more importantly I've learned how to walk strong with my issues. Everybody cares. Before I even considered a solution to my vices, just reading how much every body on this site cared about yours and my safety and how many people out there are suffering with such similar issues and are so willing to help struck me every single time. I owe BL a lot, personally. I'm young. I don't imagine I would have gotten far without a website that gave such amazing information and support.

I know I've signed up for a lot of accounts and only posted once is all I'm saying. I hope you come back, because people do care about you. I've noticed when they're closer to home though, their emotions, commonly their fears, get in the way. Leaving you, us, a lot of people, treated like shit. Family, friends, coworkers. They all have their own selfish reasons for not understanding your situation. I say that because, hey, I've treated others like they're shit. All of that, those insults, those foul attitudes, those absolute disregards for mankind. Loved ones and myself alike. That came from a long history of insecurities and fear and borderline abuse for me. You don't deserve to be treated like an outcast. They've never walked in your shoes. And it sounds like the shoes their walking in are somehow affecting their vision. I wish the best for you, Kronic.

Ah, I'm very aggravated. Your dilemma put me into tears, though that isn't unlike me. I really wish the best for you buddy. Life is worth it. If for nothing but the shear one shot at the experience. Good luck!
 
Hello guys (and gals)! I'm sorry for being so late to respond to my own thread but I was busy the past few days moving around things and making changes in my social circle, family, habits, and even mental/physical state. I have sorted things out with my family and they seem to have accepted the fact that I do use drugs and have been surprisingly okay with it. I have also re-evaluated the people I was/am associated with and basically told the ones who made me want to end it that I will not be wasting my time with them. I have began to work out (again lol) and have come to terms with the fact that using drugs doesn't mean I am some sort of evil person and that I am worth living for, if no one else, myself. I will begin to slowly come off of every drug I have been using for the past years. This was my own decision and not forced on me. I feel like I will use drugs on and off for a while though ( I am lucky in that I do not have a very addictive personality. It seems that I only get out of control when my depression tends to get out of hand and I have no one else who wants to actually listen at the moment.) Even after I cut off all drugs that I plan to, I will continue to use marijuana and psychedelics because they have helped me in so many ways. If it weren't for marijuana my seizures would not be controlled (I'm on medication for it though too.) If it were not for LSD I would not have the confidence to be able to make new friends and go out places, and if it were not for mushrooms I would not have been able to see that I do not need to care about others opinions. It is my life and no one else's. I'm living for myself and not anyone other than me. As long as I am happy I am going to be able to live content with myself. I do have moments where I get severely depressed (my depression will have moments where it will "spike") and I just completely forget that but in the back of my mind it's still there. I am proud to say I am still here and plan to be for quite a while :)

I would also like to thank everyone who responded in this thread, I read everyone of your responses and it helped me realize that there are people who support each other even if they've never met because we all have a common bond in one way or another.

Peace Love and Good Vibes <3
 
Such great news! You had a lot of us worried for you. <3 Is your family willing to help you quit the pills? Thanks so much for the update and again, I am so happy that things are looking up.
 
They are willing to help me quit. However it's up to me in the end and I told them I want to do this on my own but if I have cravings for them to help me distract myself from them. Also thanks! :)
 
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