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Please help me live

I know. It's complicated for some people. I believe the idea of a greater power show us that we are sometimes a drop in the ocean and we realize it's not only about us but everything together working in harmony. It does not have to be in a religious connotation.
 
Puhaha ! I'm sorry guys I never wanted to spark a religious debate between blue lighters . Honestly now I feel at a 98% . Yesterday I skipped the NA meetings cause I got lost in time talking to an old friend . He brought up my ex that I had an abortion with and then it clicked . I'm 21 but I didn't remember 4 years of my life trying to run away from the pain . And all the sudden my memories started to crash into me. I felt....human ? I decided to face why I started to iv heroin and get into xanx . Getting to the root of it all and why . when then conversation was over I felt so relived. Like a ton has been lifed off my shoulders . I've been forgiven for the unforgivable. But I finally can take that last step I needed badly to quit. Sounds stupid huh ?

And where I'm at its such a small town. In the NA meetings. I can't connect with anyone . One person is in there for weed...
 
And I'm sorry for keep posting on this about what's been happening. I guess you guys and this site help me cope with things more than my NA meetings. I think if I didn't post this that day I was going to relapse or worse . So thank you all for giving me some food for thought .
Finally im almost out of this hell hole cause of all of you. Thank you guys
 
inFamousB said:
And I'm sorry for keep posting on this about what's been happening. I guess you guys and this site help me cope with things more than my NA meetings. I think if I didn't post this that day I was going to relapse or worse . So thank you all for giving me some food for thought .
Finally im almost out of this hell hole cause of all of you. Thank you guys
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Hey mate!
I'm so glad you are doing better and the forum is helping you. Can I ask what country your from? If you are in the UK theres many charities out there who can help you and even give you a place to live for a while, whilst they work with you to sort your head out.

I'm not always on this forum, if you are in the UK, PM and I will reply on this thread with some support sites that truly helped me!

All the best! Remember you got it my friend!
 
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