So, I have no idea what to do.
I have been dating my boyfriend for about a year now and things are getting bad (definitely an understatement).
Before we met, he was addicted to heroine and was a constant ecstasy, Xanax, marijuana, mushroom user. (I know there are more but I'm not familiar with the other ones). However, I did not know this until we were a couple months into the relationship. But by then, he had been out of rehab and claimed that he only smoked weed.
Fast forward to today, I have attempted to break up with him twice now. Not only does he treat me like dirt (calling me a bitch in front of his friends to make them laugh, making me wait in his room when anyone comes over, making me pay for everything even though he makes 2x what i do, demeaning me, insulting me, accusing me of being a whore FOR NO REASON) but he's using again. I cant get one hour with him where he isnt stoned, drunk or buzzed. He's a completely different person when he is using or when hes around his friends and he scares me!
But everytime i leave him, he begs me to come back. I can deal with that, but what I cant deal with his when he threatens to go back to using heroine and implies that he's gonna kill himself. Every day i would wake up with these texts or voicemails and it has put me in a stage of depression that i cant even begin to describe. I hate what he's become but i still care so much for him.
Im not asking if i should stay with him or not because its obviously that i shouldnt. What im asking is if there's a way i can leave this situation for good with no chance of coming back out of guilt.
I have been dating my boyfriend for about a year now and things are getting bad (definitely an understatement).
Before we met, he was addicted to heroine and was a constant ecstasy, Xanax, marijuana, mushroom user. (I know there are more but I'm not familiar with the other ones). However, I did not know this until we were a couple months into the relationship. But by then, he had been out of rehab and claimed that he only smoked weed.
Fast forward to today, I have attempted to break up with him twice now. Not only does he treat me like dirt (calling me a bitch in front of his friends to make them laugh, making me wait in his room when anyone comes over, making me pay for everything even though he makes 2x what i do, demeaning me, insulting me, accusing me of being a whore FOR NO REASON) but he's using again. I cant get one hour with him where he isnt stoned, drunk or buzzed. He's a completely different person when he is using or when hes around his friends and he scares me!
But everytime i leave him, he begs me to come back. I can deal with that, but what I cant deal with his when he threatens to go back to using heroine and implies that he's gonna kill himself. Every day i would wake up with these texts or voicemails and it has put me in a stage of depression that i cant even begin to describe. I hate what he's become but i still care so much for him.
Im not asking if i should stay with him or not because its obviously that i shouldnt. What im asking is if there's a way i can leave this situation for good with no chance of coming back out of guilt.
