So i went to my doctor yesterday in hopes of getting a increase in my MScontin dose. I have been on 60mg's twice a day now for almost 2 years and the pain has been getting alot worse as of late. I had to go to the clinic last week because my nerve pain was killing me and even though all i got was a lousy shot of demerol it atleast knocked me out.
So given all this i figured my doctor would increase my dose as i have been taking more and more breakthrough meds as well. But no the cunt was having none of it
. And his reason for this? He said most of his patients where only on 30mg pills of MScontin 
. What a useless cunt of a bitches bastard. He bases my need for pain control and tolerance on the rest of his patients who probably have fuck all pain to begin with.
So what did i get? Another 30 lousy percocets and i have to go back and see his ugly cunt face again in a few weeks to get my MScontin. Fuckin hell! When i got outside i was raging. Even the percocets and clonazepam was not calming me down. I was just looking for someone to even give me a reason to punch their face in. But no noone was even looking my way. Most people myself included know not to attract the attension of someone who looks like they want to kick your head in. Im glad i didnt kick the shit out of anyone since i would have felt rather bad about taking my anger out on someone who didnt deserve it.
I went home and hit the weights hard which helped get out some of my frustration. Then i got high and tried to forget about it. Today im still abit riled up (mania maybe?) so after i work out i'll have to take some zyprexa if im not calmed the fuck down. No way can i handle family bullshit in this mood.
So given all this i figured my doctor would increase my dose as i have been taking more and more breakthrough meds as well. But no the cunt was having none of it
. And his reason for this? He said most of his patients where only on 30mg pills of MScontin . What a useless cunt of a bitches bastard. He bases my need for pain control and tolerance on the rest of his patients who probably have fuck all pain to begin with.So what did i get? Another 30 lousy percocets and i have to go back and see his ugly cunt face again in a few weeks to get my MScontin. Fuckin hell! When i got outside i was raging. Even the percocets and clonazepam was not calming me down. I was just looking for someone to even give me a reason to punch their face in. But no noone was even looking my way. Most people myself included know not to attract the attension of someone who looks like they want to kick your head in. Im glad i didnt kick the shit out of anyone since i would have felt rather bad about taking my anger out on someone who didnt deserve it.
I went home and hit the weights hard which helped get out some of my frustration. Then i got high and tried to forget about it. Today im still abit riled up (mania maybe?) so after i work out i'll have to take some zyprexa if im not calmed the fuck down. No way can i handle family bullshit in this mood.
