Pills and doctor situation

[samboran80]

Hello everyone! I have an interesting situation. Sometimes I feel like I hit the jackpot with this, but other times it's a curse. I like taking percocets for recreational use, but lately it just doesn't seem fun anymore. I go see my urgent care doctor every month for refills on Adderall, because federal law prohibits refills on it. I used to have major "female" pains, had surgery for it, and it's gotten much better. The doctor will ask if I need a refill on the percs also, and I always say yes. I used to take them for actual pain, and now mostly for recreational use. Lately I take them at work bc I work in a call center, and let's face it, customers suck! LOL After meditating on this for a while, I think I just need to get a better, more fulfilling job. I used to live in a dark place emotionally, but in the past 2 yrs I have been doing better. I found the man of my dreams and married him, and now I've got a great home life. I don't want to keep including this stuff in my life anymore, but since I still work in a very stressful environment, the pills help the day go by faster and I don't care so much if someone is yelling at me for something that is not my fault.

I'm not sure where this post goes, and just wanted to get this off my chest. Please feel free to post any thoughts. Thanks!

 

[T. Calderone]

It's good that you recognize that you're using them as a means to cope with work stressors. I imagine after taking them at work every day, you may be physically dependent on the pills. Is it possible for you to slowly wean yourself off them?

 

[gr33n3y3z]

Yes I was going to a slow tapper, you need to be willing first then set yourself a quit date then do the tapper. Good luck girl, don't let pills control you, your mind is stronger than you think.

 

[Allein]

Ive had to be on opiate pain killers the last 2 years and whilst opiates have never been an issue for me it is very hard when the pills relive the pain, ultimately that is reward and pleasure.

Ive rarely exceeded my daily dose eve though at times Ive saved them until late in the day and taken most in one shot, 2 years in I'm on 60mg of SR morphine with a short term script for oramorph. Every couple of months I CT for 2 days just so I have some idea how deep Im in, IMO not that far.

Ive discussed my concerns about addiction with my doc who knows Ive had drug dependence issues in the past, and he has been good about it, he switched me from 30/500 codeine APAP on request as I dont get much from APAP and I kinda hinted I could just CWE them anyhow.

Dont rush yourself and dont leave yourself with no alternative treatment for your ailments, alternative therapies, exercise meditation etc could all help, research your condition and check some things out, even placebo is a powerful tool.

 

[samboran80]

I used to be physically dependent a long time ago when I was in a dark place in my life, and I did the slow wean and I've done the cold turkey. He doesn't give me enough to become physically dependent on them. They will last me about 6 days and then I will go without them for a week or two, and I will be fine physically. So, I should be able to easily walk away from this, and it will be much easier if I could get out of this work rut I'm in. I am applying for other jobs with the company, as well as actively searching for things elsewhere. I just need to build up my will power in the meantime. Remember all the great things going on in my life now and I don't want to lose any of it. Thanks for the help!