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laCster

laCster

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Fuck me I relapsed pretty hard and now I am back at a halfway house. Now I am scared I might have hep c and I feel really vulnerable and anxious.

And now I'm worried I have hep c :( could things really get any worse???
 
When did this happen? I knew someone who worked at a hospital who accidently got stuck and they gave her an injection. I don't know if you're able to do this now but it's an idea. Get yourself checked and you will have to do it again after three months. Even if you do come up positive, Hep C is treatable.

I know you must feel a huge weight on your shoulders right now. The hard part is not knowing which makes the worrying so much worse. But you're doing the right thing going back to the halfway house. You can't undo what's done only try to move ahead and take care of yourself. Sorry this happened. <3
 
ya man, it can be worse. just think about that for a minute. you could be dead like i almost was. thats alot worse
 
What triggers your relapse, lac? And when do you think you contracted hep c?
 
I accidentally got poked and it drew blood last week around valentines day. I went to a doctor and there is nothing she could give me besides getting tested next week . She said it can take 2weeks -6months to come back positive . So next week I'm getting tested and I pray that I don't have it. It doesn't matter about being scared or worried now because that won't change the past.

I have about a week sober and I'm in a joke of a halfway house. It's literally ridiculous lmao. There are too many things wrong with this place . But I am sober and I am checking out another halfway house today which actually has certifications and standards.

Idk what triggered my relapse. Maybe I started my 4th step to quickly, and I wanted to see if there was anything still left in the drug world for me that I was missing. I know now that drugs only lead to dead ends. I only have to do 3 months in a halfway house and then my parents will let me move out and go to Colorado or stay in Georgia and go back to school. Idk all I know is that I need just 3 months.
 
Sorry to hear things are rough, man. Like I said in your OD thread, obviously make sure you get tested to know for sure about the hep.

And as for the relapse... they happen, man. You can't beat yourself up about it. It's never over, man. If you're still alive, you can still fight.

PM me if you wanna talk, man.
 
^^ Yeah like Scag said, don't be hard on yourself - relapses happen! It took dozens of relapses before I was finally broken down enough to do whatever i needed to stay sober. Do you have a plan for when you leave the halfway house? Even if you move to a different state or city like you mentioned, have a plan for once you get there. The problem isn't the drugs, it's you - and wherever you go, there you are. Don't get me wrong, changing people places and things in your life will be a huge help - but somebody who wants to get high WILL find drugs, no matter where they are.


Don't trip about the Hep C too much - obviously get yourself tested every few months for a while - but don't freak out. As mentioned above it's treatable, actually quite treatable these days - it's not a death sentence and it won't cause huge problems if properly treated. Plus theres a very good chance you don't have it. ;)

Try to stay positive man. Life on life's terms. Shit happens - the only tragedy when somebody relapses is if they refuse to get back up and learn from their mistakes.
 
laCster said:
I accidentally got poked and it drew blood last week around valentines day. I went to a doctor and there is nothing she could give me besides getting tested next week . She said it can take 2weeks -6months to come back positive . So next week I'm getting tested and I pray that I don't have it. It doesn't matter about being scared or worried now because that won't change the past.

I have about a week sober and I'm in a joke of a halfway house. It's literally ridiculous lmao. There are too many things wrong with this place . But I am sober and I am checking out another halfway house today which actually has certifications and standards.

Idk what triggered my relapse. Maybe I started my 4th step to quickly, and I wanted to see if there was anything still left in the drug world for me that I was missing. I know now that drugs only lead to dead ends. I only have to do 3 months in a halfway house and then my parents will let me move out and go to Colorado or stay in Georgia and go back to school. Idk all I know is that I need just 3 months.
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laCster said:
I know now that drugs only lead to dead ends.
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At least you are learning this, that drugs and alcohol only lead to dead ends. I also learned this as have many other people here on bluelight, and in the world.

I hope you do not have HIV or Hep C. I do know of people who were exposed via blood to both diseases, and were not infected.

Do not think of this as a failure it's a learning experience. I personally have never been though a halfawy house/sober living residency but if the place you are in is a joke and people are using drugs or alcohol there then find a different place.

Yes sometimes moving can help you get away from people or places that compell you to use. Good luck. I am not sure where you are in Georgia but there are some good schools in ATL and some even have online programs or a way you can take classes online while working and you go into the physical class and take exams or meet with the professor if you have to. A friend of mine got his MBA this way.
 
^^ Thats true, exposure does not mean guaranteed transmission. Hope is not lost but regular testing is a must, just in case.
 
i don't know where geographically you are,but there are always options.
edit:sorry,re read,you're in Georgia,US.
caseface has it right.in AA it's called "pulling a geographic".wherever u go,there u are.

there is no escape from self until it's really over.you kinda have to deal.

a halfway house which is CLEAN,no craziness,no madness seems like a good idea.

and relapses happen every second,don't feel guilty.

i thought i had hep c for the longest time.i don't think i do.
it's a treatment called INTERFERON.
i don't know much about it but my friend is doing it and it's painful(everything is)but it gets rid of the hep c.
might be something to look into.
 
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