RagingPlatypus
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Hey everyone,
I started using phenibut hcl once a week for about year. I figured that I was safe spacing my doses out this much so I could avoid addiction and tolerance. My doses ranged from 6-9 grams over the course of one day every week.
I had been experiencing pretty regular anxiety symptoms also all that time also. It's like it was subtle to begin with, but intensified with time. I still didnt attribute this to phenibut use though. Soon, I started having strange symptoms like my hands feeling weird. Touching them together felt strange and uncomfortable.
Most of the time, I would have harsh bouts of anxious thinking, much like pure o ocd that caused me great mental distress. I experienced very little relief from these symptoms. Thoughts would pop into my head and make my gut flip, like existential thoughts, i.e. "what if life is an illusion, what if i'm dreaming, is there a god, things look wrong, it's hard to look at the world around me." I was in constant distress about this, but over all, it was just difficult to exist with this mental condition. I was sure my brain was damaged.
I decided to quit using phenibut, and everything else i used on occasion (kratom and benzos were used very sparingly, at the most once a week.
I've been phenibut free for six months now and I still have these disturbing feelings every once in a while, but they have been getting more and more subtle each day. The sensitivity in my hands has stopped. I'll be walking in the super market and feel very weird, like deep down I know something is wrong. It's like I'm triggered into remembering how awful I could potentially feel, and I internally panic slightly and my mood starts to go down hill. I'm often constantly analyzing my environment, seeing if it distresses me or not.
So, I guess I want to know, was this the phenibut withdraw? Can the withdraws really impact me six months later, or am I just experiencing some weird disorder? I seem to be getting better everyday, what can I do to ensure I recover.
Thanks for reading, any input is appreciated.
I started using phenibut hcl once a week for about year. I figured that I was safe spacing my doses out this much so I could avoid addiction and tolerance. My doses ranged from 6-9 grams over the course of one day every week.
I had been experiencing pretty regular anxiety symptoms also all that time also. It's like it was subtle to begin with, but intensified with time. I still didnt attribute this to phenibut use though. Soon, I started having strange symptoms like my hands feeling weird. Touching them together felt strange and uncomfortable.
Most of the time, I would have harsh bouts of anxious thinking, much like pure o ocd that caused me great mental distress. I experienced very little relief from these symptoms. Thoughts would pop into my head and make my gut flip, like existential thoughts, i.e. "what if life is an illusion, what if i'm dreaming, is there a god, things look wrong, it's hard to look at the world around me." I was in constant distress about this, but over all, it was just difficult to exist with this mental condition. I was sure my brain was damaged.
I decided to quit using phenibut, and everything else i used on occasion (kratom and benzos were used very sparingly, at the most once a week.
I've been phenibut free for six months now and I still have these disturbing feelings every once in a while, but they have been getting more and more subtle each day. The sensitivity in my hands has stopped. I'll be walking in the super market and feel very weird, like deep down I know something is wrong. It's like I'm triggered into remembering how awful I could potentially feel, and I internally panic slightly and my mood starts to go down hill. I'm often constantly analyzing my environment, seeing if it distresses me or not.
So, I guess I want to know, was this the phenibut withdraw? Can the withdraws really impact me six months later, or am I just experiencing some weird disorder? I seem to be getting better everyday, what can I do to ensure I recover.
Thanks for reading, any input is appreciated.