Boognish said:
To me, ego death is an internal scenario of having fear of actual death and fighting to hold on to life, which can force a catatonic-time-loop-state. The letting go, is just letting go of the fear and just saying fuck it what happens, happens; and if it's my time, then it's my time - then you'll come out on the other side. Thats the best way I can put it into words. DMT & 5-MEO-DMT are two chemicals that have forced me into ego death, you can learn a lot about yourself though, thats for sure. There's nothing like the primitive-survival mode that is ego death, to put your soul in check.
so right! i agree with every word you are saying-
try dmt, 5-meo-dmt and salvinorin A all in one pipe...
i literally blew into a million pieces...... when i came to, i was in a corner of the room, i had moved and luckily not hurt myself, lying there, and speaking my name as i regained the ability to control my body, and to make utterances, I spoke my own name, and then I thought of who I was, and I cried, and I gave myself a hug, and as I did so, I thought of my Mum and dad, and then I thought of my wife, and I uttered her name... nsd I realised, for some wondrous reason, while i was out there I did not die, or if I did, I was reborn as me, the same old me, a tad wiser but still me. My time to go had not come yet, the universe has obviously got another time of physical death in store for me- this was not it, though it surprised me that, when i came to, i was still in my body, and I still knew my name, that i wasn't a newborn baby crying "waaaaaah" ... and as I lay there still being me, realising I am meant to be here still, I understood what a precious opportunity I do have with my life, and how much more wisely I could be using this time opportunity, to grow, to develop my compassion and my lovingkindness, first and foremost for myself.... when i was out there and saw how terrified I was, i realised what a long way I have to go, still, in that department. I have come a long way, but I need to come much further. in the face of things as they really are, it's the only thing thatbhas any meaning.
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