This will be short, and not very descriptive as I, though I can remenber it fully, cannot even comprehend putting it into words with a huge amount of detail.
So yesterday, after my parents were at work, I read some reports on Erowid 'bout people 'huffing' gasoline, or petrol. It got me curious, very curious. Probably due to me being down, and wanting a cheap, quick and easily accessible trip.
So, I got into the shed, and get out a 5 litre petrol cannister, that's probably like 1/5 full, so it has roughly a litre in it. It's been there for months, perhaps close to a year so, the fumes inside there are seriously built up.
I unscrew the lid, put my mouth over it, while leaving a tiny gap at the side so I can actually inhale, and breathe in as deep as I can. I repeat this roughly 5-6 times, until I`m out of breath, and put the cannister down, while walking up and down my garden.
Immediately I notice a rush, a crazy burst of a euphoric sense, a massive tingling in my feet. Almost instantly after feeling this, it's like the tingly feeling shoots straight up to my head. I could actually feel it going through my body. It was like a was a prong, and somebody tapped my feet, and the vibration shot through me.
The vibration was immense. Like, unbelievably immense. Almost instantly after feeling that, I started to trip out. My vision started flickering, but only the side of it. Then it all started. What i`ll describe now will probably make no sense but, here goes.
I sort of went into third person mode. Like, I couldnt actually see the back of my head but, it was like I was watching through somebody elses eyes, kinda hard to explain. Then, I start hearing these sounds, and it was like my sister, brother and a girl I knew from work kept saying 'DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA', over and over again. But the noise was coming from left to right. Like when you watch Formula 1, and the cars zip past and make a noise, then the noise wears off as they get past you.
This carried on throughout the whole trip. While this is happening, I keep seeing their faces to the extreme right of my vision, like, I can actually see their faces, but I can't look that way. I keep huffing, then I start to get thought, movement and uncontrollable loop action. Like, I`ll huff some, while hearing my sister, brother and this girl saying 'DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA', and seeing their faces. Then i`ll walk down my garden and back up, and keep repeating. But everytime I do, it's like im seeing it from the next level. Example:
I`ll huff some, while hearing these voices/seeing these people, walk up and down my garden, then go back to the cannister. Then i`ll go into third person mode, and do the same. Then i`ll go into third person mode, of that third person mode that I've just done, and do the same. The next time it`ll be like I`m in 5th person mode, the time after`ll be like i`m in 6th person mode, etcetcetc, so fucked up.
It's like I know what I`m going to do before I do it. The worst part is, I didn't know what reality was. I was unsure whether these thought/action loops was my life, like I was going to be stuck doing this forever, or whether there was something else. It's as if my whole life was 'bout this moment, and trying to do something else but just ending up doing this. I genuinely didn't know anything out of these actions. This was all I could think 'bout.
Another thing, I kept having some weird flashbacks. No movement though, just images. Of a park I used to live near, and this felt like it was linked to what I was doing at the time. It was as if I was searching for an outing, and this seemed like my way out. If that makes sense.
Mannn, there's so much more to it than what I've just explained. It's so much more intense that anybody that has never experienced anything like this couldn't even comprehend what it was like.
The worst part is, it's now 3am, I should be tired but I`m not. I have, within the last 30 minutes, started hearing these voices again. It's horrific, and instead of seeing the faces, I feel like a force is pulling on my right shoulder. Not physically, just mentally. Along with these voices, I feel like I can hear a girl, in her teens, talking to me.. but it's like she's trapped inside the bottom of my jaw, that's where the noise feels like it's coming from.
Right now, at this moment in time, I`m not going to lie, I am fucking terrified. I daren't leave my room, I`m hearing these voices again, which is VERY nearly bringing the trip back on, and I just feel fearful of everything. Like there's a massive force of fear all around me.
I am going to play some video games some more, until it gets light and, if I still feel the same, I`m going to wake my parents and talk to them.
If anybody is thinking, or has thought 'bout huffing petrol at extreme amount, then I am fucking tell you now, don't. The guys who made reports at Erowid rate it above any psychadelic they've ever taken and, even if you don't react to it like I did, it'll fuck you up.
Please refrain from calling me an idiot for doing this, as it is harmful, both mentally and physically. I know this, I knew it before I did it, and I know it now. I am fully paying the consequences.
Moderator's Note:
Inhaling gasoline can cause sudden death or permanent brain damage from one use. Inhalants are without doubt the most dangerous recreational chemicals in existence.
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So yesterday, after my parents were at work, I read some reports on Erowid 'bout people 'huffing' gasoline, or petrol. It got me curious, very curious. Probably due to me being down, and wanting a cheap, quick and easily accessible trip.
So, I got into the shed, and get out a 5 litre petrol cannister, that's probably like 1/5 full, so it has roughly a litre in it. It's been there for months, perhaps close to a year so, the fumes inside there are seriously built up.
I unscrew the lid, put my mouth over it, while leaving a tiny gap at the side so I can actually inhale, and breathe in as deep as I can. I repeat this roughly 5-6 times, until I`m out of breath, and put the cannister down, while walking up and down my garden.
Immediately I notice a rush, a crazy burst of a euphoric sense, a massive tingling in my feet. Almost instantly after feeling this, it's like the tingly feeling shoots straight up to my head. I could actually feel it going through my body. It was like a was a prong, and somebody tapped my feet, and the vibration shot through me.
The vibration was immense. Like, unbelievably immense. Almost instantly after feeling that, I started to trip out. My vision started flickering, but only the side of it. Then it all started. What i`ll describe now will probably make no sense but, here goes.
I sort of went into third person mode. Like, I couldnt actually see the back of my head but, it was like I was watching through somebody elses eyes, kinda hard to explain. Then, I start hearing these sounds, and it was like my sister, brother and a girl I knew from work kept saying 'DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA', over and over again. But the noise was coming from left to right. Like when you watch Formula 1, and the cars zip past and make a noise, then the noise wears off as they get past you.
This carried on throughout the whole trip. While this is happening, I keep seeing their faces to the extreme right of my vision, like, I can actually see their faces, but I can't look that way. I keep huffing, then I start to get thought, movement and uncontrollable loop action. Like, I`ll huff some, while hearing my sister, brother and this girl saying 'DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA, DO YA', and seeing their faces. Then i`ll walk down my garden and back up, and keep repeating. But everytime I do, it's like im seeing it from the next level. Example:
I`ll huff some, while hearing these voices/seeing these people, walk up and down my garden, then go back to the cannister. Then i`ll go into third person mode, and do the same. Then i`ll go into third person mode, of that third person mode that I've just done, and do the same. The next time it`ll be like I`m in 5th person mode, the time after`ll be like i`m in 6th person mode, etcetcetc, so fucked up.
It's like I know what I`m going to do before I do it. The worst part is, I didn't know what reality was. I was unsure whether these thought/action loops was my life, like I was going to be stuck doing this forever, or whether there was something else. It's as if my whole life was 'bout this moment, and trying to do something else but just ending up doing this. I genuinely didn't know anything out of these actions. This was all I could think 'bout.
Another thing, I kept having some weird flashbacks. No movement though, just images. Of a park I used to live near, and this felt like it was linked to what I was doing at the time. It was as if I was searching for an outing, and this seemed like my way out. If that makes sense.
Mannn, there's so much more to it than what I've just explained. It's so much more intense that anybody that has never experienced anything like this couldn't even comprehend what it was like.
The worst part is, it's now 3am, I should be tired but I`m not. I have, within the last 30 minutes, started hearing these voices again. It's horrific, and instead of seeing the faces, I feel like a force is pulling on my right shoulder. Not physically, just mentally. Along with these voices, I feel like I can hear a girl, in her teens, talking to me.. but it's like she's trapped inside the bottom of my jaw, that's where the noise feels like it's coming from.
Right now, at this moment in time, I`m not going to lie, I am fucking terrified. I daren't leave my room, I`m hearing these voices again, which is VERY nearly bringing the trip back on, and I just feel fearful of everything. Like there's a massive force of fear all around me.
I am going to play some video games some more, until it gets light and, if I still feel the same, I`m going to wake my parents and talk to them.
If anybody is thinking, or has thought 'bout huffing petrol at extreme amount, then I am fucking tell you now, don't. The guys who made reports at Erowid rate it above any psychadelic they've ever taken and, even if you don't react to it like I did, it'll fuck you up.
Please refrain from calling me an idiot for doing this, as it is harmful, both mentally and physically. I know this, I knew it before I did it, and I know it now. I am fully paying the consequences.
Moderator's Note:
Inhaling gasoline can cause sudden death or permanent brain damage from one use. Inhalants are without doubt the most dangerous recreational chemicals in existence.
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And for the record, this isn't jenkem. Perhaps you were kidding but I wanted to put in a disclaimer anyway for others]
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