^^^^ My suggestions:
* Ring your friend straight, appologise, and fix the problem. 99% of relationship problems are a ring and an honest, straight forward talk away.
* Second best option (only if totally unable to do the first) take *a little* meth and do the same
* Third best option (only if totally weak but have an outlook to change that) take half a pill and do it
On the subject of your dissatisfaction with pills, it seems BT missed an obvious conclusion to your delema. You obviously haven't lost the magic since you haven't taken many pills at all. The one pill you claim was a good one out of ten was a speed bomb. All MDMA pills will "mong" you out - remember, it is you that is calling it that, its not the pill. Most people would describe these feeling as the best ever even when taking a seat for a whileis more than an option. If a white mitsi mongs you out, I'd like to hear what you would have said when blue domes were around. You obviously do not enjoy the effects of MDMA that much - everyone is different and different drugs are for different people.
To me it sounds like meth would be your drug of choice for sure.
And now for the final and most important advice: until you do what I've said at the start of this post FORGET doing ANY drugs of this nature because you'll just end up hurting yourself at least emotionally. Remember, all problems where you've possibly been the cause are 99% of times a few words away from being resolved.