The God
Greenlighter
Hello. I'm new to this part of the forum, so if I post this in the wrong section, my excuses.
I'm worried.
I'll start off by saying I've been on risperidone for 2 years. I've also been on seroquel, zyprexa, lithium.
From what I understood is that receptor density can increase during the "treatment". (I prefer the term chemical lobotomy) It has been said that anti-psychotics can cause hallucinations and delusions in previously "healthy" patients, when discontinuing treatment. I've experienced this myself when my doc switched me from zyprexa to risperidone.
Anyways, as I call it chemical lobotomy, this might be unrespectful. I know there are people whos lives have improved by taking anti-psychotics, but this doesn't apply to everyone who is labeled as mentally ill. But this is another discussion.
So here's my question: I felt as if my mind was numbed. Emotions are blunted, there's a constant mental fog, you are tired and in a sense depressed, IQ and EQ seem to be lowered. (This is what I experience(d))
Are any of these effects permanent?
I mean, there are studies that show that AP's cause brain shrinkage. Risperidone is known for its permanent or rather irreversable blockage of the 5-HT7 receptor. As any other anti-psychotic there's a risk of tardive dyskinesia. I believe there's no such thing as either having TD or not having it. It's not like an on/off switch, right? So in a sense there's always brain damage to some extent? Do these medications "rewire" or "fry" your brain?
Since quitting these medications, I'm having trouble understanding who I really am, or who I was before any AP. I really feel as if I'll never be the same as before, and it's really a depressing thought. I was a rather emotional, sensitive person, but in a good way. I was passionate, had lot's of interests, a girlfriend, a high sex drive and a firm body. It seems as if I lost these things, even though I'm not on any AP atm. Do these things ever FULLY return? I feel mentally raped by the psychopharmaca I was forced to take. I'm sure I'm not the only one who is going or went through this.
Please share your honest opinion on this subject, I'm really looking for answers. Most Google searches on this subject lead me to an anti-psychiatry site, which isn't the kind of objective information I'm looking for.
Thanks.
I'm worried.
I'll start off by saying I've been on risperidone for 2 years. I've also been on seroquel, zyprexa, lithium.
From what I understood is that receptor density can increase during the "treatment". (I prefer the term chemical lobotomy) It has been said that anti-psychotics can cause hallucinations and delusions in previously "healthy" patients, when discontinuing treatment. I've experienced this myself when my doc switched me from zyprexa to risperidone.
Anyways, as I call it chemical lobotomy, this might be unrespectful. I know there are people whos lives have improved by taking anti-psychotics, but this doesn't apply to everyone who is labeled as mentally ill. But this is another discussion.
So here's my question: I felt as if my mind was numbed. Emotions are blunted, there's a constant mental fog, you are tired and in a sense depressed, IQ and EQ seem to be lowered. (This is what I experience(d))
Are any of these effects permanent?
I mean, there are studies that show that AP's cause brain shrinkage. Risperidone is known for its permanent or rather irreversable blockage of the 5-HT7 receptor. As any other anti-psychotic there's a risk of tardive dyskinesia. I believe there's no such thing as either having TD or not having it. It's not like an on/off switch, right? So in a sense there's always brain damage to some extent? Do these medications "rewire" or "fry" your brain?
Since quitting these medications, I'm having trouble understanding who I really am, or who I was before any AP. I really feel as if I'll never be the same as before, and it's really a depressing thought. I was a rather emotional, sensitive person, but in a good way. I was passionate, had lot's of interests, a girlfriend, a high sex drive and a firm body. It seems as if I lost these things, even though I'm not on any AP atm. Do these things ever FULLY return? I feel mentally raped by the psychopharmaca I was forced to take. I'm sure I'm not the only one who is going or went through this.
Please share your honest opinion on this subject, I'm really looking for answers. Most Google searches on this subject lead me to an anti-psychiatry site, which isn't the kind of objective information I'm looking for.
Thanks.
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