JohnBoy2000
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Basically long history of depressive'esque symptoms, mainly fatigue.
But always managed that fairly fine and recovery has been a journey, interesting and thought provoking.
I always stayed positive about it cause it was always confined to mental health, not physical.
Some years ago I made the incredibly absent minded mistake of getting some old mercury fillings drilled out and replaced, as there was unsubstantiated claims mercury was poison to the body and mind (which it's not re fillings, they're safe and effective).
Then I didn't go for a dental screening for four years after as my teeth are normally great and I take good care of them (or so I thought).
When I went recently, I had a massive cavity in one tooth where the mercury filling was replaced.
Turns out the dentist reshaped that tooth and it began to trap food where it hadn't before, and formed a huge cavity.
........
Worst timing: this happened right when I was suffering from a period of impulsivity, and so I ran to the nearest dental clinic to get it filled paying no attention to their qualifications or legitimacy.
Turns out those dentists weren't even qualified in this country, and they messed it up.
Now I need a root canal treatment and crown, total cost about three G's.
.........
For someone who is OCD and perfectionist, especially about health and appearance, this positively sent me over the edge.
I crashed into a heavy depression about four months ago (immediately upon realizing the series of mistakes made) and haven't recovered yet, depending on family to assist me daily with occupation and emotional support.
The other part of the depression is I still have a high level of dental pain, as
1) I had to wait for the period of impulsivity to pass before I could schedule further dental treatment
2) therefore I'm still awaiting root canal treatment to alleviate the pain, hopefully it's happening in just over two weeks from now.
........
Been using super low dose mirtazapine (3.75 mg) at night to sleep through the pain, and high dose ritalin daytime to boost mood (nothing else works) and assist with pain alleviation.
To a normal person, a dental cavity is nothing, they do it in between finishing work and yoga class. To me (perfectionist/OCD type) it's absolutely shaken my world.
I keep telling myself, "when you get treatment, everything will be fine", but the majority of the time I basically ruminate on being such an absolute fuck up in between fucking with perfect teeth in the first place (replacing the fillings), then not going for check ups, then getting the emergent problem seen to by some incompetent and not a legit reputable dentist.
But always managed that fairly fine and recovery has been a journey, interesting and thought provoking.
I always stayed positive about it cause it was always confined to mental health, not physical.
Some years ago I made the incredibly absent minded mistake of getting some old mercury fillings drilled out and replaced, as there was unsubstantiated claims mercury was poison to the body and mind (which it's not re fillings, they're safe and effective).
Then I didn't go for a dental screening for four years after as my teeth are normally great and I take good care of them (or so I thought).
When I went recently, I had a massive cavity in one tooth where the mercury filling was replaced.
Turns out the dentist reshaped that tooth and it began to trap food where it hadn't before, and formed a huge cavity.
........
Worst timing: this happened right when I was suffering from a period of impulsivity, and so I ran to the nearest dental clinic to get it filled paying no attention to their qualifications or legitimacy.
Turns out those dentists weren't even qualified in this country, and they messed it up.
Now I need a root canal treatment and crown, total cost about three G's.
.........
For someone who is OCD and perfectionist, especially about health and appearance, this positively sent me over the edge.
I crashed into a heavy depression about four months ago (immediately upon realizing the series of mistakes made) and haven't recovered yet, depending on family to assist me daily with occupation and emotional support.
The other part of the depression is I still have a high level of dental pain, as
1) I had to wait for the period of impulsivity to pass before I could schedule further dental treatment
2) therefore I'm still awaiting root canal treatment to alleviate the pain, hopefully it's happening in just over two weeks from now.
........
Been using super low dose mirtazapine (3.75 mg) at night to sleep through the pain, and high dose ritalin daytime to boost mood (nothing else works) and assist with pain alleviation.
To a normal person, a dental cavity is nothing, they do it in between finishing work and yoga class. To me (perfectionist/OCD type) it's absolutely shaken my world.
I keep telling myself, "when you get treatment, everything will be fine", but the majority of the time I basically ruminate on being such an absolute fuck up in between fucking with perfect teeth in the first place (replacing the fillings), then not going for check ups, then getting the emergent problem seen to by some incompetent and not a legit reputable dentist.
