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mj1945

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I'm sure this question has been asked before but I haven't seen it on here yet. Basically I lost the magic awhile ago and am now on a good break to try and regain it. I've come to accept that nothing will come close to the first time but I think I can get back to the first 5 to 10 times. So for those who have lost the magic and regained it I would like to know:
1) What was your usage like that caused you to lose the magic?
2)How long of a break did you take until you regained the magic? and lastly
3)How good did it feel when you did?

I know this is a controversial topic here. For some they would use a different term than magic, others think that set and setting is the cause. I think they all play a little role as well as times between use but one thing for certain is that mdma can really lose its appeal and pretty quick. The more you use the less positives and more negatives, the first time and first few are so mind blowing you can't even wrap your head around it. I'd say my weekly usage for awhile caused my loss of magic. That includes the intensity, amount of love for everything, the orgasmic touchy feeling, feeling of openess have all decreased a good amount. Only thing that hasn't dropped off much is that insane body high. However I haven't rolled in a good 3 and a half months and plan to roll next on halloween which would be ten months. Depending on the answers I get I might consider going on a few years break.
 
I lost it about 8 months in after using once a week or more for that time. I took about a 2 month break and my next roll felt like an average "good" experience. trying to get to the same feeling of you first roll...or even #5 through 10 is dangerous retoric. I would have thought that someone who abused to the point of "losing the magic" would understand that but...:\

you can't get back there. people who have quit for years say that once they try it again it is awesome but nothing like the first time. Just forget about it...it can't be done and trying to get there is the same dangerous road that got you to this point in the first place.
 
matt2012 said:
I lost it about 8 months in after using once a week or more for that time. I took about a 2 month break and my next roll felt like an average "good" experience. trying to get to the same feeling of you first roll...or even #5 through 10 is dangerous retoric. I would have thought that someone who abused to the point of "losing the magic" would understand that but...:\

you can't get back there. people who have quit for years say that once they try it again it is awesome but nothing like the first time. Just forget about it...it can't be done and trying to get there is the same dangerous road that got you to this point in the first place.
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I know the first time will never come back but the first few is a legit hope. Regardless I have controlled my use the last year or so, and am going a long break. MDMA is now a once a year type thing for me, think it's best that way.
 
Dont worry about the "magic". Its still fun today, I probably lost the magic almost 15 years ago.

The "magic" comes from an experience you've never had before. Once you have that experience, your first time is over. You're now familiar with that feeling. Think of your first kiss, or first date. First day at a new job. After a while you'll just stop expecting the magic and enjoy the experience anyway.

Theres also the cliff I guess you can call it... where you roll SO much so often that rolling is hardly even fun anymore. You fall off the cliff. I remember a long time ago being at a rave, rolling my balls off and frankly being bored and even sort of annoyed. It was the same thing I did the weekend before, and before and before. It had just become so routine any hopes of novelty had worn off. THAT you can get away from and get back to having amazing and fun experiences again, only after a significant break.

You'll really burn out once you start fascinating on the drug and making life plans for rolling months down the line. The drug really isnt worth much effort, try to put it far out of your mind and just enjoy it on occasions without allowing it to be such a big deal.
 
The "magic" comes from an experience you've never had before. Once you have that experience, your first time is over. You're now familiar with that feeling. Think of your first kiss, or first date. First day at a new job. After a while you'll just stop expecting the magic and enjoy the experience anyway.
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very good analogies funkay :)
i agree, what kids claim to be or perceive to be magic is a combination of experience and expectation. plus magic sounds cool as a marketing ploy.

1. monthly and often weekly and some times up to three times a week. i would mostly redose numerous times throughout to chase that initial peak and flush of lovely neuro chems.
2. 9 month break dropped 150mg of different rock and had full effects. 3 months later i dropped 200mg of personal stash and had sore teeth and mouth for a week.
3. it felt as good as it could, taking into consideration i knew exactly what to expect. i experienced full effects.
 
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Wait until you dont really know where you're going when droppin, u know it feels good but dont remember "how" it is
that should make it magic enough, beleive me
 
Exstazy said:
Wait until you dont really know where you're going when droppin, u know it feels good but dont remember "how" it is
that should make it magic enough, beleive me
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Yeah that actually sounds like a really good idea. It will kinda be like the first cause you mostly forgot what it feels like since its been so long. I have actually already kind of got to that point and i havnt rolled in about a year now. This should be a decent 1 in theory.
 
FunkayRavin said:
Dont worry about the "magic". Its still fun today, I probably lost the magic almost 15 years ago.

The "magic" comes from an experience you've never had before. Once you have that experience, your first time is over. You're now familiar with that feeling. Think of your first kiss, or first date. First day at a new job. After a while you'll just stop expecting the magic and enjoy the experience anyway.
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THIS all day long. I´m on a break since NYE, but I used about 25 times last year. The effects are still strong after all that. It´s just not so overwhelming like it used to be, because you know what to expect. You still get euphoria, feel great overall, talk alot, and so on. I dont get much energy off it anymore like the first times. But that´s because the feeling isnt new and therefore not exiting anymore.

When I was a young teen, beer would get me sooo exited, me and my friends would run around, jump up and down..all that stupid stuff you did when you started drinking. You still get an energy-boost off beer? No. Did you lose the beer-magic? Aha.

Take a long break. Switch to other drups or don´t do drugs at all. The magic will be back, when you have forgotten how MDMA feels. More or less.

I kinda changed the way I roll. I dont make it all about the drug anymore. I rather take a small or medium dose late into the night, when I´m very buzzed and the party peaked. I love to enjoy the rest of the party with a nice roll, not to intense. My favorite part is walking home while still trippin when the sun goes up. Or having sex an a slight roll in the early morning.
 
hell, think of the first few times you got drunk as a kid. now when you drink it isnt nearly the same.. same goes for mdma or any drug as well.
 
FunkayRavin said:
The "magic" comes from an experience you've never had before. Once you have that experience, your first time is over. You're now familiar with that feeling. Think of your first kiss, or first date. First day at a new job. After a while you'll just stop expecting the magic and enjoy the experience anyway.
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I really have to disagree with that... after abusing the SHIT out of MDMA, I started researching it thoroughly. Now I'm even a mod, when I take drug I, for the most part, know exactly how they will affect me.

Yet, I've had better experiences lately than I EVER had back in the day. Even my first rolls pale in comparison... someone said it like this. "If you take a long break off MDMA and dose, it can be even better than your first time because you are already experienced and know exactly what to do". Not a direct quote, but I agree with what is said there.




Really though, the thing that brought back the "magic" undeniably for me was.... wait for it, more drugs! A light dose of 2C-B and a fat dose of MDMA is the most "magical" roll you can get..




There were a few rolls after my abuse that made me think I had lost the magic, but that was just mainly due to mis-dosing due to unreliable product. Another few month break after that and I was rolling BALLS humping my massage chair
 
Folley said:
I really have to disagree with that... after abusing the SHIT out of MDMA, I started researching it thoroughly. Now I'm even a mod, when I take drug I, for the most part, know exactly how they will affect me.

Yet, I've had better experiences lately than I EVER had back in the day. Even my first rolls pale in comparison... someone said it like this. "If you take a long break off MDMA and dose, it can be even better than your first time because you are already experienced and know exactly what to do". Not a direct quote, but I agree with what is said there.




Really though, the thing that brought back the "magic" undeniably for me was.... wait for it, more drugs! A light dose of 2C-B and a fat dose of MDMA is the most "magical" roll you can get..




There were a few rolls after my abuse that made me think I had lost the magic, but that was just mainly due to mis-dosing due to unreliable product. Another few month break after that and I was rolling BALLS humping my massage chair
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LOL well that gives me hope in regaining the "Magic" too. I think i jus needed a break from ALL drugs for a cool minute.
 
You can still develop a tolerance without abusing.. I dropped 165mg followed by a 110mg redose expecting to roll balls after a 14 week break and i only rolled for 3 hours where i usually roll for 5 hours AND i didn't roll as hard.. (this is all from the same tested batch)

So i guess i just need more to get the same effects.. 2 months time i plan on dropping a whole (tested) partyflock with two halves for a possible redose..
That should do the trick :D


PS. My friend and i always roll together (same dose and batch) and have always taken the same breaks and he rolled balls for 4 hours without redosing after the same break i had.. So i guess it depends on the individual.
 
Ok anyone here that's totally lost any effect from mdma and got it back. My situation is that upon taking any mdma I turn into a total zombie. The part where I'm coming up is all fine then as soon as it fully hits I'm out if the game. No feelings of empathy euphoria etc and I don't remember a thing until I come down. I only do mdma twice or three times a year, and then it's only 120-150mg in a session. Used mdma regularly, monthly at times from 1996 to 2000 and then had a break for a good 6 years.
First time taking any recreational drugs, a mix of mdma and mephedrone over a night was ok, no blacking out but since then it's been a waste. Im not looking for a first timr experience but just to stop the blacking out - Any ideas?
 
I started rolling in 1996 and quit in 2002. I took a lot of pills. 100s even. Keep it up and you will lose the magic.

You know the magic is gone when you take a decent dose and your eyes don't dilate anymore and of course you barely feel it. The last time I took it, my eyes were very dilated (meaning I was very high) but I wasn't all that euphoric and although we went to a club, I didn't feel like dancing any.

Is the loss of magic reversible after long term abstinence? This is a matter of debate. Some say yes and some say no. If I run across it again, I'll let you know.
 
I wonder for those people who did indeed ''lost the magic'' here when did they start to notice this kind of loss? like i wouldn't call it symptoms but if people notice they aren't going like they used to do. Why take more? Kinda curious how it started and then spread out to really losing the magic.
 
It took a couple of years of chronic use and was a gradual process. You could feel it happening dose after dose. Once your eyes quit dilating, either you've got bunk stuff or you're screwed.
 
You can certainly 'regain the magic'. My post only meant to say that you can never recapture that new feeling, when you've no idea what to expect, and you can't believe anything could make you feel so utterly and impossibly wonderful.
 
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