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Way different man, but the same spirit is there.
I will forever hold up that it is one of the most recreational drugs ever, a game changer in fun, if you ever get the chance....
 
mdx92129 said:
That's one issue that could become apparent in psychedelic psychotherapy is self-affirmation and ego-inflation. I hear people continuously purport that narcissistic and megalomaniac personalities should try psychedelics for their ego-dissolving effects, yet the very opposite could occur, an anti-ego death, where the individual is filled with self-grandiosity as opposed to being humbled by the experience. I would say self-grandiosity appears to be a psychoactive feature more akin to the ingestion of arylcyclohexylamines, but it certainly happens in the serotonergic psychedelics too.
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Yeah this could potentially occur i suppose. No offense to any heavy psychedelic users, but ive notice in some heavy users a unique sort of self-centeredness/ego inflation. A similar (yet somewhat different) phenomenon is apparent sometimes in heavy marijuana users (those who use all day and the dab or die crowd) which manifests in a sort of irritability, ego inflation and close mindedness. THC can have profound ego enhancing effects (too much of which is rarely a positive thing in the long run).
 
4 weeks with no psychedelics. Though i wish i skipped that alcohol still feeling a bit slow from it.

Self inquiry is giving alot more insights than lsd now. If im doing mantras and meditating with eyes closed sometimes i feel like my body dissolve almost like a 300 ug acid trip with some intense visuals as my awareness expands to fill the room.
 
nah turns out really no need for a laptop. Really only first day of classes today. Finally found out they forgot to give me a supervisor for a research paper i was wondering what was going on so hoping to sort that today. Just been doing pre class work and some classes are just pre recorded lectures which is a shame. and barley any practical work like wtf. O well that is that state of NZ education. Just reading alot of research articles atm for analytical chemistry.

Sadly they don't do organic chemistry at this university at post grad like wtf lmao. O well i hope things are more fun next term where i will be doing green chemistry and biochemistry. And i hope we at least get some lab time.


Europe and america is way leagues ahead in acutally teaching you stuff at university.

At least it gives me something to do for a year though instead of sitting around bored doing endless drugs or working some shitty soul sucking job.
 
negrogesic said:
Yeah this could potentially occur i suppose. No offense to any heavy psychedelic users, but ive notice in some heavy users a unique sort of self-centeredness/ego inflation. A similar (yet somewhat different) phenomenon is apparent sometimes in heavy marijuana users (those who use all day and the dab or die crowd) which manifests in a sort of irritability, ego inflation and close mindedness. THC can have profound ego enhancing effects (too much of which is rarely a positive thing in the long run).
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I always felt that in ways the mere thought of or aspiration towards ACHIEVING ego death, like it’s a plaque or halo to carry forever, is incongruous with the whole concept of it. I think I simply try to embrace my ego, keep it in balance but allow it to swing around a bit instead of trying to keep it firmly in one space, or deny it’s existence or see it as a dark shadow of shame and weakness which I must escape.
 
better way to look at it the ego never existed its just another illusion within concepts aswell the self - limiting mind. Simply just be in total presence and the present moment will be a fucking trip itself.
 
"simply be in total presence"
wish I could, I've been hypomanic for over two months now, in all my euphoria I miss so much things and do way too much ego tripping, while I should just be looking for a job, instead of being awake at 4am due to some ridiculous DOB plan
 
One thing that worries me from my past year of psychedelic drug abuse is that i can simply now close my eyes and have intense visuals far beyond just any old 100 ug trip. Sometimes I get this swishy open eye effect idk how to describe it but its like reality starts glitching like the matrix and everything moves sometimes. Its another level to the hppd i had.

For now this year is dedicated to achieving something recovery and trying to embody non duality.

I remember been manic a few years ago truly believed at one point i was the second messiah reincarnated and promptly ignored everybody around me because it was the first time i had felt really fucking good and not depressed before my sanity came to a crashing point and i was left to try pick the pieces of whatever was left. I still feel a bit embarrassed but i simply try avoid talking to those people who were around at that point in life i just dont have the balls to show my face.

I wish i did not abuse LSD. But ketamine was really bad for me the week after i did not realize itself but looking back i was a bit on another world feeling so good and believing myself to be in a matrix and intense de ja vu.

I do want to try DOB one day to see whats it like compared to DOM. And 2C-E.

If things do not work out this year though im going to renounce the world get a loin coth and camp out on the street sitting there in samadhi hopefully. Is it illegal to just wear a loin cloth and be homeless on the street?. For sure would make a news worthy story. Man who believes he is enlightened now sits in the main street of the capital wearing only a loin cloth and eating out of the bin.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
I wish i did not abuse LSD.
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Can you describe what you mean by LSD out of curiosity's sake? Definitely seems to be one of the more abusable psychedelics due to its stimulant and dopaminergic effects. Just curious what you mean by abuse.
 
negrogesic said:
Can you describe what you mean by LSD out of curiosity's sake? Definitely seems to be one of the more abusable psychedelics due to its stimulant and dopaminergic effects. Just curious what you mean by abuse.
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By taking it nearly every week or two weeks most the time to have fun and escape. Over the years. instead of using it as a proper tool i abused it and developed hppd and feel a bit lost still even when i take breaks from it. Also by pushing the doses really high aswell it dissolves the mind until you no longer can see the ground and have to take a break or risk acutally going crazy.

within a years period i must of taken psychedelics 35 + times lsd about 25 times shroom 10 times dmt a few times last year. LSD should usually have a one month break to retain itself as a proper tool for development.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
If things do not work out this year though im going to renounce the world get a loin coth and camp out on the street sitting there in samadhi hopefully. Is it illegal to just wear a loin cloth and be homeless on the street?. For sure would make a news worthy story. Man who believes he is enlightened now sits in the main street of the capital wearing only a loin cloth and eating out of the bin.
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Hahah, I don't think so man. Chemistry does seem like the more attractive option
 
negrogesic said:
Can you describe what you mean by LSD out of curiosity's sake? Definitely seems to be one of the more abusable psychedelics due to its stimulant and dopaminergic effects. Just curious what you mean by abuse.
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I think it's mostly due to LSDs headspace, it seems somewhat easy to shield yourself from certain things and go very deep into things you want to go into, and there's often this underlying feeling of enlightenment reinforcing it. This lends itself to some sort of escapism, and it's also just an amazingly fun drug.
 
I can definitely empathise with the feeling of remorse abusing LSD, or simply- overusing basically.

i did have a fantastic trip from midnight Saturday, the initial comeup on 1000 ug was insane. Real traces and trails. And strangely it was easier to slide into the trip than it is when I take 50 to 300 ug doses and usually do not like the first several hours of intensity.

The 1000 ug bolted me past that. Plugging 400 ug at 6 am Sunday hit me right back up to the moon.
My heavy trips often take different phases. Like. 3 segments. After 12 hours tripping there’s a middle section where fatigue, just getting my witts together takes over fo a while.

It takes some work but I usually turn it back around again and can access the best part of the trip, like a second wave, the other side of the mid-abyss.

it took a hot shower Sunday afternoon after a friend visited (don’t tell Boris Johnson though, shit’s illegal lol) and I orally reposed the final 200 ug before my shower.

I came up very much on that. It kept me right up in the stratosphere all day and night. Thought loops, everything, but was in a pretty good mood.

Lots of cannabis vaporised and 2 big edible doses, usual kava, successfully ate a proper meal finally.

It is when I first awake after an initial deep post trip sleep, from 3 am to 11 am today, that I really struggle with lately.

I woke this morning feeling well and truly, utterly crazy. Head spinning with thoughts still scarily buzzing on acid, no way to just calm and quieten my mind, no mind over matter option available. Just time to pass, patience and feeble self assurance.

I’ve been there so many times recently. 103 tabs in about 30 days.

They- the 60’s hippies, used to say “acid burns”.

Because it really is playing with fire in a sense. I have gotten a little burnt but am hopeful time will continue to be the great healer it is. I can’t handle that crazy feeling in my head in the immediate waking aftermath anymore.

I think of Syd Barrett and it scares me. Nowhere to turn, nobody to bail me out or lend assurance. Just having to take the hit.

This is where the benzos come in. My trips are as intense and deep as ever, the benzos are not noticeably nullifying anything, just enabling me to not go mental and get calm back. LSD overuse and benzo addiction actually go hand in hand IMO. It becomes a necessary evil.

The initial intense craziness did ease off, I slept until 3 pm but feared getting up to face reality, physical conditions and pain when so nuts still, and the post LSD fatigue has always been a killer for me even in my fit and prime youth, more than any other drug even insane MDMA overuse.

So....on with the show now I guess. I’m going to give myself 7 days now, trusting this time next week I can feel together again.

I felt equally scrambled numerous times last 30 days after silly high doses trips, and I did get it pretty much all back together again.

Hppd has not been troubling me. Sure I’m still tripping now, as I should expect, and if I vaporize or eat weed today I will be uncomfortably sky high again. But that will settle off too over coming days.

What stays with me is my mind frame, consciousness and hyper awareness of everything going on around me.
 
What should I use to take my DMT orally I was thinking about getting some Syrian Rue Seeds. Was thinking I could watch my diet for a week and then take couple grams of the seeds few hours before dosing 150mgs of DMT orally. Does this sound like a workable ratio, anybody have any other Suggestion im trying to make a pharmauasca type potion. Im assuming it maybe tricky getting Moclobemide or Selegiline without a prescription but would it be worth hunting those down or would the Syrian Rue Seeds substitute well enough...
 
tired of crap said:
@Shadow Cat look into “easy cappi extraction”, rue can be hard on the stomach when eaten whole. The tek is easy. Just leave the seeds whole
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Alright so I should get some b. Cappi then im glad you mentioned that about the S. Rue cuz I have pretty bad stomach problems and its onw of the reasons I havent tried Ayauasca yet but im guessing since I just have to take the MAOi now and I have extracted DMT it should be easier on me. Im imagining it to be incredible cuz just smoking DMT is epic if I start taking it in heavy oral dosages im sure a whole new world will open up to me.
 
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