Thorns Have Roses
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TAC, that was lovely. 

Last night I took a bit of MXE with 4-HO-MiPT, and I did it via IM in my quad muscle. Didn't use a filter as there were none, I'm feeling dumb about that now. The injection site today is tender, which has never happened before but all I've IMed before is MXE, which doesn't burn at all, whereas this burned a bit going in. I've started psyching myself out now though. Needles just creep me out (always have), I feel like it's worth it to IM things occasionally, maybe, but I really hate doing it. Now I feel creeped out at the sensation of soreness/tenderness in my leg.![]()
Hey peoples, for anyone who is still interested, I finally got an update from my friend who took the 40 mg of 4-HO-MPT. [...]
Xorkoth said:IM in the quad
Sounds like a potentially deep and difficult but rewarding chem. The sort of thing that irresistibly prods my curiosity.![]()
Sorry to interrupt the swirly talk, but HR talk. Please don't do this, and if you do it, know what you're doing and your anatomical landmarks. Due to associated risks, I don't like doing this (to others) and I'm a medical professional, although sometimes it's necessary, i.e. in psychiatric patients who have been forcibly medicated so many times that abscesses/fibrosis/other nastiness starts to occur at the other four preferred sites. Stick to the glutes (better to have someone do it for you) and delts. Not only does injection into the vastus lateralis (the only site you should be using) tend to really hurt significantly more than other sites but there are nerves, arteries, etc there. Soreness/tenderness is probably benign and can be expected unless it's red, hot, tingling, you develop febrile symptoms or if at the moment of administration it'd obviously gone arterial or venous. Also it is important to use proper syringes. Please never inject anything into your lower extremities again.
I should thank you for distilling my wall of text into that tl;dr.LostAtomsk, it sounds to me as though what is really giving you trouble is just the fact that you are discovering a world which is different from the one that you were always told was out there.
It's true, I tend to shy away from pills unless my health absolutely requires it (I won't be popping painkillers for a mild headeache, is what I mean), because they make me feel miserable and I do realize that "Big pharma" is an industry. Like there are so many industries completely divorced from humanity.Most people who use drugs can relate to this because most people in general are told that drugs are bad when they're growing up. This is despite the fact that we are all taught to be excited to try alcohol for the first time when we're old enough, even though it is worse for you than nearly every other recreational drug in existence. We have also developed enormous industries for selling stimulants disguised as drinks with teenagers being one of the primary markets. And, if anyone still thinks there's anything wrong with you, they'll happily recommend an endless list of mostly untested drugs that your doctor will hand out like candy, while at the same time throwing you in prison for life because you sought the same sort of relief from something you bought on the streets.
Yes and no. There's no easy answer for me.Tell me, from your brief period of experience, do you think that there is anything inherently wrong or contemptible about drug use? Do you think that this state of the world is right?
That is simply ridiculous. I didn't know that, no. I can't imagine why?And do you realize that in many places you will be locked up longer for having LSD than you would for having cocaine or heroin?
Well I only put in ~8mg of 4-HO-MiPT, and the MXE was also very low (about the same - in the case of the MXE, it was all there was). I took some 4-HO-DPT also which was my main trial, I was just interested in a little "primer" for it. We tried to get that into solution for IM as well, but after quite a lot of heating and stirring, only maybe 5mg dissolved. So my friend IMed that and I snorted 32mg (I dried the remaining 4-HO-DPT out and recovered it). It all came on at about the same time (I snorted right after I IMed). Slowly the character of 4-HO-DPT made itself known to me. We were listening to music and talking, and I started to notice a warm fuzz descend over me. It was different to any feeling I've felt from a psychedelic before (I have not done DPT yet but I would guess it would have some of these unique characteristics and feeling). I felt that it was a little difficult to talk, and I didn't want to do anything but sit there. I felt good physically, quite good actually, and serene/calm, but there was something slightly edgy about my state as well. At first it was really just this fuzzy feeling and a feeling of being off in some ways. But at some point the peak hit (my sense of time was quite off, as was my friend's, so not sure how long that took) and it started to become something more. Oh I remember, actually we smoked a hitter of good weed and that kicked it up, it combined very well. The fuzzy feeling increased greatly and seemed centered in my head. It was causing me to unfocus my vision a lot and the fuzzy feeling would increase until it felt like I could just dissolve up into the aether through the top of my head. This feeling was wonderful and profound but also slightly edgy in some way I can't and couldn't really determine. Although there was little to no open eyed visual distortion (which is something I often don't get as strongly as most people), when I closed my eyes there was a lot of imagery and activity, stronger than I usually get on stronger doses of most things. I never explored it though as I was hanging out with my friend. I think next I will take it at 50mg nasally by itself and close my eyes with headphones. My sense of musical understanding and perception were increased substantially and this led to a greatly increased enjoyment as well. At one point we started listening to something by Popul Vuh, "I'm making a mirror", and I conceptualized it, due to the directional quality of the sound, as building a monumental architectural sphere around me with the sound, and that this architecture of vibrations was tweaking me in some way internally/energetically. I felt that I was understanding sound in some new ways, though I can't really fully recall what those were. I felt really good. The edginess faded to barely perceptible as time went on. The state reminds me somewhat of mescaline and a bit of AMT. Not really psilocin at all, maybe something related to DMT but not very much like it. Along with something very unique and intriguing.
Slowly I regained my ability to confidently speak and my friend and I started having really interesting discussions about various topics, while still listening to music. As the night went on the effects slowly faded. Actually the whole thing only lasted about 3 hours, but it seemed like a long time. Afterwards however, for the rest of the night I still felt that lifty/fuzzy feeling and my words and thought were colored by the experience. At some point I drank about half a beer, and I felt the feeling suddenly dissipate by about half. This was a disappointment to me, and it made me think about why I even had the beer... it was just habit, chillin and having a beer, but I vastly preferred the feeling of the 4-HO-DPT and it seems that to some degree they are mutually exclusive. I would guess alcohol doesn't go so well with this. I find that to be true with mescaline too, but I enjoy alcohol on the plateau/come-down of most tryptamines and phenethylamines, and the lysergamides as well.
It feels like 4-HO-DPT is going deep for sure. During the trip I kept thinking about how primal and root-level it seemed, but I wasn't quite sure why then or now. There's a lot I can't really explain about this experience, nothing major but I feel like my words are lacking a lot when I try to describe it. I'm looking forward to trying it at a fuller dose in a different setting.
I should thank you for distilling my wall of text into that tl;dr.![]()
But, in broad sense, that.
It's true, I tend to shy away from pills unless my health absolutely requires it (I won't be popping painkillers for a mild headeache, is what I mean), because they make me feel miserable and I do realize that "Big pharma" is an industry. Like there are so many industries completely divorced from humanity.
What you say is also generally true for most people: drugs are bad (mmmkay)and alcohol is OK because the TV says so. What troubles me is that I find myself a hypocrite, because I've more or less seen the drug abusers and the damage they do. I've never ever once had a lecture from my father, I didn't need to, the arguments were apparent and dragged from police vans in all kinds of states. At a tender age, that always left an impression on me. At a later age, I saw the impression it left on my father.
Yes and no. There's no easy answer for me.
No: I've only recently started and I'm 29 and have a limited bit of experience to know when to stop and where to draw the lines. I'm not claiming I own the wisdom of a full life.
Yes: Despite keeping myself in check, I catch myself very easily thinking to myself "Well, I can handle LSD, I'm sure I could try candyflipping (who invented that word? Drug culture has more inane terminology than IT), but that lands me with MDMA. I still firmly believe in inherent safeties that prohibit a person to lose control and drugs is simply too alluring to ignore those safeties.
That is simply ridiculous. I didn't know that, no. I can't imagine why?
Visually beautiful, intellectual, music is great, but long-DOC
Incredibly underrated, visual, lucid, better in high doses or i.m., one of my favorites, would be a great introductory psychedelic or even for clinical use-2C-D
Overlong and overrated but kinda interesting, meh.-2C-P
Never had-4-FA
Crap-Methylone
Gently rinsing
past and future,
present through and through.
So convincing
is the sun
to light the world anew.
Something's missing
lost, or trapped!
How can I atone?
Nothing's missing;
trees are apt
to grow their roots alone.
Of the following substances, which do y'all find to be the most worthwhile (if you've done multiple):
-DOC
-2C-D
-2C-P
-4-FA
-Methylone