Man benzos are the fucking devil.
I'm working at imprinting this into my brain, and you guys are helping greatly. I was close to making an order, but I think I'll pass. I also think a less addictive, milder substitute can be found in Kava. I used to like it quite a bit; the 2g parachutes can be a bit big, but it does work.
Heck yeah, it's really up in the air for the whole race. You might gain a lead, only to end up like Jacobellis. The Czech girl was great, kicking the snow and I was going to say screaming, but roaring might be more accurate. The lady snowboarders all seem really positive, and have wonderful camaraderie.
Yeah, they're pretty cool chicks
I find the introduction of extreme sports to be the best thing to happen to the olympics. The complete unpredictability makes them a blast to watch.
I've actually been slunking away in shame. Our medal count appears to be falling behind. I'm thinking the hockey events will bring in some gold. We gotten some slightly bad views from Europe for the way we play hockey. We tend to bottle up all of our violent rage from real life and unleash it on the hockey rink.
It makes me think of Kevin Pollock when he's watching a hockey game in "Canadian Bacon"; "my god those Canadians are violent." :D
Anyway, I've been considering what I ought to do with myself, and most importantly, being an unskilled laborer sucks, and only leads to a life of poverty. I don't think I have the patience or discipline to manage pursuing a degree at present (and academia is bad for my mental health). So going to a vocational/trade school (I don't know the terminology, you know what I mean) seems like the best option, as I can positively affect the rest of my life within a reasonable period of time. There's nothing I find particularly interesting, so if anyone has any suggestions, I'm all ears.
Going from 'unskilled' to 'skilled' in the trades isn't like four years of uni. A bit or trade school or apprenticeship is all it takes. A friend of mine who's the same age as me; has been working for much longer because he didn't spend much time in school, makes more than 70k. I'll be lucky to make that at some point in time. Now it's piss up a rope if you don't know how to budget; which he cannot; and I always seem to have more money than him.. somehow.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Academia fucked over my mental health; I feel ya on that one.
We're not alone either; a quarter of students up here are mentally ill. Twenty-five percent is a massive proportion; I'm not sure what it is, but something's amiss.
How did all of us in PD wind up being (seemingly) troubled souls? Was it the psychedelics or the forum? I blame bluelight for all of my troubles without a doubt.
I think it's because the world fucked us all over.
On a more accurate note; I think we were fucked over (in some way), and sought psychedelics as a possible treatment. I also think that's why so many of us also fall into opies and benzos.
I've been on bupropion for a while now; and I find the law of diminishing returns applies there too. The mild stimulant effect is mostly just tension now, so I stopped a couple days ago. Unlike SSRI's it has the benefit that it has effect on the first dose, it doesn't have to build up to work. I don't feel like I need to be on something all the time, I just need a lift now and then when I get depressed/tired.
On a secondary motivation for quitting which may sound dumb; the DA reuptake effect blocks more recreational stimulants. I foresee that I will desire to take amp now and then, especially when outdoors, and in the near future; while snowboarding. When I'm snowboarding on my own; it just breeds a bit of a playful, sharper edge. As I found out a couple weeks ago, it blocks the psychological effects, and increasing doses just add to physical side-effects.
Ah shit; caught myself. That's actually the primary motivation. Either way, I don't feel daily meds to be the right way to go.
My choice for hottest olympian; Justine Dufour-Lapointe.
Mmmmm, dayummmmmm.
Post more hot olympians pls.
edit; I think she's happy:
So captivating.. can't stop searching pictures. Her single tear at the medals ceremony during the anthem brought me to tear.
