Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I haven't gotten any mail but two spam letters for a week, and it's starting to concern me... the paranoids are starting to settle in around me, aghhhhhh!!!!
I remember one time I was tripping on L and I had some revelation that you can't "transcend sexuality", and it was utterly miserable to realize. No matter what, we can't push past our biological imperatives. I think about sex all damn day long, all I want is to stop thinking about sex.... I thought psychs could help me potentially push past that, but... so far, no luck. In fact, the last time I did L it made my sex drive seem stronger and even more primal... God help me. How can one stop thinking about procreation all the time when they're surrounded by gorgeous women on a daily basis??! You can't escape them, they're everywhere!
Sucks when you're not having sex with someone and you get surrounded by sexy... Find someone to have sex with! Ok Cupid has done well for me. Sex is a fundamental part of being human, it's unlikely to disappear I think.
Fortunately the person I'm having sex with will be back really soon. I was starting to get back to that place you describe, just thinking about it a lot, to an unpleasant degree.
It's hard to say whether or not the powdery DOC and the crystally DOC I've tried had differences in effects. All I know is that attempting to eyeball my crystal dose for flying lotus ended up with me being on what felt like ~5-7mg DOC, taking the edge off with ~2mg of Etizolam, and then doing probably over 100mg of MXE like a crazy asshole and having to get carried out of the show by my friends. Luckily I felt amazing the entire next day in stead of feeling wiped out or anything like that. I definitely fumbled my words a bit but I was glowing %)
DOC is probably the most sexual psychedelic I've taken, not sure if anyone else feels the same way lol 8(
I've only had sex on LSD and Mushrooms though. I hope to have sex on DOC one day! lol
First time I took DOC I remember saying something along the lines of "if I were somehow like back in the dark ages and I felt like this I would probably just be running through town naked"
and after sitting up from the initial peak and deciding to smoke a bowl, "I feel like I just came-- for like, an hour" lol
edit: I'm prayin for ya thorns!
DOC is very sexual for me after the peak... Before that it can be a little dicey.