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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: N-Dimensional Funhouse of Possibilities

That's the dream isn't it... what's helped me tremendously lately is to eliminate things from my life that cause me to experience cognitive dissonance. Namely, opiate addiction and my ex-relationship, and the dishonest life I was leading because of both. Mostly now I feel at peace with myself but it was a hard battle. You've got to identify things in your life that are causing you to feel this way, and work to eliminate them. Usually it's behaviors, but sometimes it's people or situations as well. For example, my ex has no job and isn't contributing anything to society. This makes her feel useless. The solution is for her to get out there and make something happen for herself rather than live off of me, and then after we split, her mom (even though she hasn't done that yet), hence providing her with a feeling of personal value and accomplishment. And another example was the way I was in my relationship. I didn't realize until after it was over, but the incredible level of repression and frustration I felt because of it was causing my life to fall apart in many areas because of the extreme internal conflict. My behaviors were something I felt very bad about, but when the situation ended, the behaviors stopped because the source of the internal conflict was gone.
 
I decided to have a little cookout, just me and myself. Drinking a few beers, grilled two .4 pound burgers and an ear of corn, about to eat the shit out of them. While they were cooking I smoked a little rolled tobacco and went around my yard collecting raspberries and blackberries. Good times... :)
 
i miss SKL :(

somewhere i have a small square of paper w/ his address on it, i've been looking for it everywhere. if i find it i'll write him a letter and tell him PD social misses the fuck out of him

i know i didn't throw it out, so it has to be here somewhere
 
Roger&Me said:
i miss SKL :(

somewhere i have a small square of paper w/ his address on it, i've been looking for it everywhere. if i find it i'll write him a letter and tell him PD social misses the fuck out of him

i know i didn't throw it out, so it has to be here somewhere
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Me too. He actually came to Asheville while I lived here but somehow I missed it. He's one of those people I really want to meet. I miss being able to chat with him online too. Great guy.

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I spent the day floating in the ocean stairing at the clouds while on 3-MeO-PCP. Simply amazing.
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I did that on DOC last summer while camping at the beach. Watched the whole sunset, which was gloriously colorful, nearly tear-inducingly so, just floating, watching the clouds slowly morph. I also watched the night clouds on MXE and mescaline a month or so ago. They'd stay in one formation for the longest time and then all of a sudden they'd rapidly swirl and change configuration, as if my perception of their movement was on a tremendous lag that would occasionally catch up, but it seemed like more than that. MXE is crazy.

I've been having really intense dreams every night, every single night, dreams that are almost lucid. Normally when I dream (since not being a kid anymore) it's like I remember them when I wake up, as if watching a movie almost, it's not like I consciously participated. But ever since ibogaine, my dreams have been so much more lucid. I experience them during the dream, in real time, and I make decisions and have thoughts like when I'm awake. Last night my dreams were all about my ex. I hadn't been dreaming about her for a while, to my relief, and then last week I told my therapist I had stopped dreaming about her and since then like half my nights I dream about her. Last night it was a dream that we were together, had gotten back together and were happy. When I woke up, I thought it was real for a while and my thought was "shit, why did I do that, I KNOW this is a bad idea". Then I realized it wasn't real, and I felt a mixture of relief, and, to my surprise, disappointment/sadness. Sigh...
 
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Guys just popped in to send some loving vibes your way. Got my hands on some Mephedrone for the first time since my last day in England in March 2010.. I only got 300mg, but the stuff is pre-ban quality and I haven't touched any stim or empathogen in months so my tolerance is 0.. just 40mg of this stuff had me flying as high as a full dose of MDMA. I'm now up to my 5th line, only doing 30mg lines or so at the moment, and oh god am I so high.

If you PDers love me, or even like me in the slightest, please send some great tunes my way, I'm looking for things in the following areas: 90s rave bangers, modern trap or dubstep, some really banging hardstyle to dance to.. anything Meph or MDMA themed works too.. just anything that you'd like on MDMA, 6-APB, 5-APB, Mephedrone, or any of that sort of thing.

PM is preferable since my attention span is all over the place and I'm talking in a million places at once and might forget to come back to this post for a bit.

Also if you folks want to be even more lovely, drop me a PM and I'll give you my IM details, I'd love to talk to some of you PD regulars over IM. (don't want to post my deets here publicly though) <3

Either way, I'm sending all of this love and happiness I'm feeling to you guys, PD, you guys helped me cure my social anxiety (not to mention you Jinux! and AMT - you did the hard work!) and have made my life so much better. There were many times when things were tough and I wanted to give up, but the positive loving environment here in PD and the lovely people here kept me going.

I want to dedicate this night of partying to Neil (Sepher) - I never got to know him very well, but the little I did know of him he was a lovely amazing guy, and without him I wouldn't have my current job.. he got me out of a huge rut, and I wouldn't be where I am today without him. I wish I could thank him in person. Neil, if you're up there partying in the cosmos, do a line of Meph and party it up with me tonight, I miss you and I owe you everything for how much you've helped me out.

I also want to thank Transform, Atara, Xorkoth, Solipsis, Any Major Dude for keeping the forum tight while I've been quite lazy lately.. and I want to thank each and every person who reads this for being the awesome person you are. If any person reading this is feeling upset or down right now, send me a PM and I'll do everything I can to cheer you up, you deserve the happiness, all of you do after how happy you guys have made me.

Tonight is for Neil, and tonight is for Bluelight, tonight is for PD, for EADD, for my loving parents who have to put up with my bullshit constantly and still love me (god knows why!), for my friends who are there when I need them, and for this beautiful universe for allowing such incredible experiences to exist.

I love life. I love all.

As one of your moderators, I order all of you to go and tell your spouse, or mother, or father, or best friend, or someone close to you that you love them and how much they mean to you. Give them that giddy happy feeling inside. Spread the positivity. Or I'll ban the lot of ya ;)
 
Haha, right on man. <3 I got a little bit of your euphoria through the Internet. Isn't it amazing that we discovered how to organize electrons in such a fantabulously complex fashion as to allow this to exist? What a crazy world.

I'd send music but none of those types are any that I have any knowledge about whatsoever.
 
Thank you people <3 You guys really are awesome. Yknow, I hope BL survives the ages, because even if when I'm in my 50s with kids and at least boring enough to only have the odd beer or maybe a sneaky joint when my wife and kids are out I still want this place to be my home. I've gone through many a forum in my time on the internet but I've never felt as welcome as I do here.

Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry Be Happy (Jamin Nimjah Jungle Remix) Listen and smile.

Also, I meant what I said about telling someone close to you how you feel about them, seriously, if all of you do that tonight for me I'll be super happy. I never got to tell a couple of people real close to me before it was too late and I'll always regret that, and when those family members, friends, loved ones, or co-workers or whoever of yours hear those kind words from you it'll really make their night, and you know that shit spreads too. If you make your brother happy and he's heading out with his friends he's going to be more smiley, positive, and he's going to make his friends happier too, and they're going to make the people around them happier too... Just like all bad things can spread pretty fast, so can the good ones.

If you're not in a position to do what I asked, or feel uncomfortable with it for whatever reason, then here's another idea for you guys, especially the PD regulars. You guys see anyone in PD you like the posts of and admire, but you've never spoken to them in person? Drop them a PM right now - you can link them to this post of mine if you need an excuse. If you're wondering why.. well as I said I'm dedicating this night to Neil (Sepher), and I admired his posts for years, I wanted to get to know him but I never thought to drop him a PM, so I only got to know him shortly before his passing in the end.. had I spoken to him before I'd have made a good friend. You might make a good friend or several tonight if you just PM a few people whose posts you admire/respect.

Don't feel silly/embarassed about it either, anyone would take that as a compliment for sure. :D
 
Shit, I think I'm becoming old people now. Ooooooone little week of amphetamine abuse, followed by my first roll in years on 240mg of very pure molly, followed by a series of eyeballed oral and smoked 5-MeO-MIPT doses and some kratom for good measure when I didn't feel like going to sleep after my roll... And all of a sudden, I wind up not feeling great for a day or two. Spent a good 12 hours lying in bed watching Colbert reruns, but now I'm up and ready for my time tested cure-all: vanilla pudding and copious amounts of weed.
 
240mgs of MDMA joined with other drugs can have a tendency to do that to you for a couple of days.
 
That it will. Totes worth it, though. I think it was really more the fucked up sleep schedule and late night kratom than the molly and moxy; I used to wake up with the same dizzy/nauseous feeling during my hydrocodone abuse phase. I think I've got a bit of a molly afterglow buried under these physical symptoms; that dizzy cloud around my head is gradually fading into a pleasant fog, one Volcano bag at a time ;) Still gonna take a few days off the adderall, though... My neuroreceptors deserve a vacation.
 
https://soundcloud.com/mr_carmack/djsliink-putyabackinitcarmack

Jesusgreen please listen to every carmack track ever for me lol I'm fucking obsessed with the man. Hope you have a lovely meph roll <3

I tried phenibut the other day since it arrived in the mail. I started with 2 grams, then my girlfriend was all like 'it's not doing anything' so we did another 2, then another 2 after that just to see how it would be at that level and I got way too fucked up haha. I also did the magnolia extract at 200mg and it was honestly what I imagine a high dose of xanax to be like if you could remember it. I fell asleep pretty quick though because I was taking dabs, however when I woke up I was incredibly high and actually ended up throwing up after a while. It sucked throwing up because I then felt like shit until my body was able to handle food again. Unlike alcohol, after eating food I actually got really high on phenibut again and felt very euphoric and able to drive lol

just did some mxe, so i'm rockin out too jesusgreen
 
solistus said:
Shit, I think I'm becoming old people now. Ooooooone little week of amphetamine abuse, followed by my first roll in years on 240mg of very pure molly, followed by a series of eyeballed oral and smoked 5-MeO-MIPT doses and some kratom for good measure when I didn't feel like going to sleep after my roll... And all of a sudden, I wind up not feeling great for a day or two. Spent a good 12 hours lying in bed watching Colbert reruns, but now I'm up and ready for my time tested cure-all: vanilla pudding and copious amounts of weed.
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You didn't try to solve your problems with more amp? You are getting old.
 
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Thorns Have Roses said:
You didn't try to solve your problems with more amp? You are getting old.
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Haha, only for lack of amp ;) I just got my Rx bumped up to 25mg/day, and burned through half a script in the first week. Gotta take a few days off over the next 2 1/2 weeks till I can refill. Shit's crazy expensive from... unofficial sources these days.
 
Yeah, it was originally going to be 150mg... Then I decided to weigh out a 50mg booster as well, but I ended up with 160/40 and didn't feel like potentially spilling powder to adjust the gelcaps. Then, as I was coming up and about to take my booster, I figured a 40mg booster would be a waste and talked myself into measuring out 40 more. That seemed a bit excessive in retrospect, so I figured throwing in some psychedelics would give my serotonin receptors something else to play with as my 5HT reserves dried up. And apparently, kratom is the only anti-oxidant I have around, so throwing that in was really just responsible post-roll supplementing! Good decision-making all around, lulz.
 
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