Been a weird week. Accidentally took the entire 60mg solution of etizolam I had just made at the end of a mxe, 4 aco dmt, dpt trip last friday. Slept about 20 hours straight and woke up like "wtf". Of course that was the last of the etizolam I had and I have been taking 1-3mg a day for the last few months. Wasn't too horrible, but I definatly couldn't order some more fast enough.
Have been using marijuana again for about two weeks. Mostly with vape juice or dabs. Vape does not seem to burn me out as much as smoking used too, but the high definatly seems a bit different. I like it as far as being able to drive around and be out and public and give no fucks though.
I am not sure how I feel about it though. I was trying to avoid goin back to being an every day smoker. I am pretty tired of spending all day feeling misreble and fantasizing about suicide as well though. The past two weeks have been pretty free of that, so fuck it.
Weirdest thing though, it seems my appetite has actually decreased. I am not sure if it's because I have stopped using mxe near as much (daily, getting 2-4 hours of sleep usually). I've been getting 6-8 hours average now, and I always seem less hungry when I get more sleep. Woken up with the 3am munchies like twice, but mostly my appetite seems way down. Weird.
Really want to try the MDA I have been having tonight. Would probably end up taking some MDMA, and probably a tryptamine or whatnot as well. Who knows where that would end up, and I really can't afford to be cracked out or hungover tommorrow. Then I started thinking about taking some 2ct-7 again. Until I read what I wrote about my last/first trip with it in the 2ct-7 thread. Took a pretty good amount, and my idea for a new starting dose is rather high. Think I will leave that one for another day as well.
Will probably end up with some mxe/4 aco dmt here in a minute. Really want to take some LSD, but I much more enjoy it outside than inside. I guess i will save it

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Saw some escaline for sale prettttty cheap. I kinda wanna give it a shot. It would have to replace one of my outside LSD trips soon though, and I am not sure how it would turn out. Too much/not enough/ nasuea/ etc etc. Whereas I know I will have a great time with the LSD.
Well, PD, happy friday nighting, get yer freak on.