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🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 PD Social Thread 2022-2025 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

Scratch that well i just holed so hard it was mindblowing, guess it all came togther and hit me at once. Really beautiful just now and an extended stay due too due memantines duration and the FXE synergy goodnesss this is the first hole ive had in like maybe 10 days ive been kinda skirting around it at this point. Physically i feel okay right now, the WD symptoms arent so troubling.
 
Buzz Lightbeer said:
Sunday has a feel but this is not it imo ;)
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Thanks!

And well, you know me lol. It's just got that old fashioned domestic & neighbourhood vibe. Have kipper an hr to 1.5 couple times deep stoned so could also be factor as I feel so damn mellow after waking.

Could easy more sleep round. Getting higher on weed atm.
 
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Bought this beautiful Orchid the other day, its in full bloom. My precious little baby, im actually gonna buy two more of them this week so i will have three in different colors on my window sill. Its quite lovely to have them around me, brings me happiness.
 
cosmic charlie said:
70mgs of Memantine
500mgs of Fluorexetamine

This is how i get outta bed these days it seems, that kinda dose would throw most people into the deepest of holes. Im seriously contemplating starting to just use dissos intravenously and taking the next step. Have to think long and hard about this. My girlfriend isnt to keen on watching me slam drugs.

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sorry for being a buzz kill but disso binging hasn't turned out well for you in the past, hasn't it? maybe you should avoid going that route again...
 
Just another sleepless night. I've been up since 5am; now it's almost 3am and I'm showing no signs of slowing down. 6 beers and 4mg. of Klonopin have done absolutely nothing. Thank God for Bluelight or else I'd be climbing the walls right now. It's very therapeutic for me to vent on here and get so much support from you all. Being bipolar sux.
 
I'm getting to know DMT. Did my third proper vaped trial and was impressed and amazed by the rapid yet vivid transition into a charming blend of blissful oneness and sinister confusion. This is of course just a feeble attempt at describing an ever-present mystery for the billionth time. I don't think i quite reached "breakthrough" in the sense of complete displacement of reality by inner vision, but i went through complete dissolution and reconstruction of reality. It could be as simple as shutting my eyes next time.

It has a unique character indeed. Beyond that, it's hard to deny the value of a short condensed experience. It allows great depth with very low risk of anxiety simply owing to the brief and constantly evolving nature of it. Much like being in a fun-ride. I think there's something to the effect itself that enhances this time dynamic aspect aswell. It feels more like home, yet more alien. So heavy and serious, yet so fast and light and gentle. Other psychedelics feel more fitting as a low dose platform setting the tone, with this as a climax.

I went through so many levels and layers of tripping balls on the way back.

I would describe the experience as very intense, highly neutral and a great deal of rewarding work. I was in an excited state for a while after the main effects had subsided.

Next thing is MAOI with spice combined.
 
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sorry for being a buzz kill but disso binging hasn't turned out well for you in the past, hasn't it? maybe you should avoid going that route again...
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Yeah i know, ive gone off the rails a few times over the years. But it was mainly with the PCP analogs cuz i would have these mobile blackouts and do all sorts of bizarre shit in public. With Ketamine and MXE like drugs im actually able to keep it togther pretty damn well. To the extent most people cant even tell im blasted, i just probably seem kinda slow or something.

Just feel so fucking sick these days without dissos its awful, is honestly rather be coming off Heroin at this point. The duration of the withdrawals is maddening and when you think its weeks more of this to go it starts to wear on you mentally.



This is legit one of the worse things ever gone through and ive been addicted to god knows how many different drugs. Ive been forced back on it and im taking literally the smallest fraction of a pill every couple days and i will try and ease back off the dissos once i stabilize. Really thought i had it this time, its so depressing i just wanna take acid again, seriously fuck my life.

I have this enormous stash of drugs and i cant even use most of them, its maddening. But collecting is still fun for me. Only have like 25g's of FXE left im gonna order another batch next week, cuz im probably gonna go thru the bag of Ketamine in a week or so. Im gonna make the nasal spray bottle of Ket and share it with my girl and my best friend (ex-fiance).

The three of us are all going to the park for the day in a few weeks and and im gonna give the two of them Mushrooms to eat and im just gonna be doing Ketamine all day long. But when they are nice and trippy imma let them have a few squirts in the schnoze to go for the deep dive. Someday i will get to take other drugs too but for the time being, its just me on my disso island.

Its pretty cool how my girlfriend and the woman i was gonna marry are friends now. Shows they have good taste in men obviously 😉
 
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Yeah i know, ive gone off the rails a few times over the years. But it was mainly with the PCP analogs cuz i would have these mobile blackouts and do all sorts of bizarre shit in public. With Ketamine and MXE like drugs im actually able to keep it togther pretty damn well. To the extent most people cant even tell im blasted, i just probably seem kinda slow or something.

Just feel so fucking sick these days without dissos its awful, is honestly rather be coming off Heroin at this point. The duration of the withdrawals is maddening and when you think its weeks more of this to go it starts to wear on you mentally.



This is legit one of the worse things ever gone through and ive been addicted to god knows how many different drugs. Ive been forced back on it and im taking literally the smallest fraction of a pill every couple days and i will try and ease back off the dissos once i stabilize. Really thought i had it this time, its so depressing i just wanna take acid again, seriously fuck my life.

I have this enormous stash of drugs and i cant even use most of them, its maddening. But collecting is still fun for me. Only have like 25g's of FXE left im gonna order another batch next week, cuz im probably gonna go thru the bag of Ketamine in a week or so. Im gonna make the nasal spray bottle of Ket and share it with my girl and my best friend (ex-fiance).

The three of us are all going to the park for the day in a few weeks and and im gonna give the two of them Mushrooms to eat and im just gonna be doing Ketamine all day long. But when they are nice and trippy imma let them have a few squirts in the schnoze to go for the deep dive. Someday i will get to take other drugs too but for the time being, its just me on my disso island.

Its pretty cool how my girlfriend and the woman i was gonna marry are friends now. Shows they have good taste in men obviously 😉
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It does sound so harsh Charlie. Is why I knowingly decidedly postpone it myself cos, you already know how crazily bad I have been abusing pure benzo powder like, 30 mg's Bromazolam yesterday, 26/25 the 2 previous.

And average of over 20 mg's Etiz then Brom for over 18 months ev single day.


In drug encyclopedia it's debatable the biggest firm...No No right! On paper.


I'm a believer in the seeming impossible also miracles, I've seen, performed that real ESP stuff I swear.


And what I call "hacks".


But you need a multifaceted approach in my mind to securely undergo & ride through a harsh taper.


Life situations aligned. Emotional state balanced, good support & understanding and decent base physical well-being goes miles towards healing, easing the agony too.



Also "stressors". So vital to practically eliminate IME.


Back to why I seem oblivious to the depth of pit I'm in myself. Ignorant of it's perils.


It's far more dangerous if I exerted pressure until I'm in a safer predictable more relaxed place in life, physically healed & with access to sounding board support too.



Anyway @CosmiI never took PCP. Only a 2012 legal LL research chemical homologue, MK-801. Horrible drug IME.

unlike real pure Ketamine as you say. Poor bladder casualties aside. So bizarrely functional, secure. Never lost myself on that I think gained it instead and the best thing ever too on LSD.


I haven't taken a % different variety of psychedelics you have I bet but regardless I know we share that propensity to absolutely hammer ourselves lol.
 
cosmic charlie said:
Yeah i know, ive gone off the rails a few times over the years. But it was mainly with the PCP analogs cuz i would have these mobile blackouts and do all sorts of bizarre shit in public. With Ketamine and MXE like drugs im actually able to keep it togther pretty damn well. To the extent most people cant even tell im blasted, i just probably seem kinda slow or something.

Just feel so fucking sick these days without dissos its awful, is honestly rather be coming off Heroin at this point. The duration of the withdrawals is maddening and when you think its weeks more of this to go it starts to wear on you mentally.



This is legit one of the worse things ever gone through and ive been addicted to god knows how many different drugs. Ive been forced back on it and im taking literally the smallest fraction of a pill every couple days and i will try and ease back off the dissos once i stabilize. Really thought i had it this time, its so depressing i just wanna take acid again, seriously fuck my life.

I have this enormous stash of drugs and i cant even use most of them, its maddening. But collecting is still fun for me. Only have like 25g's of FXE left im gonna order another batch next week, cuz im probably gonna go thru the bag of Ketamine in a week or so. Im gonna make the nasal spray bottle of Ket and share it with my girl and my best friend (ex-fiance).

The three of us are all going to the park for the day in a few weeks and and im gonna give the two of them Mushrooms to eat and im just gonna be doing Ketamine all day long. But when they are nice and trippy imma let them have a few squirts in the schnoze to go for the deep dive. Someday i will get to take other drugs too but for the time being, its just me on my disso island.

Its pretty cool how my girlfriend and the woman i was gonna marry are friends now. Shows they have good taste in men obviously 😉
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Sorry to hear how hard this is for you. I had a similar experience with pregabalin. After withdrawal from multiple opioids and benzos, I was absolutely sucker punched by pregabalin. In the end, I sought help and did a medically supervised slow taper and made it out (sort of at least). Ime, certain drugs simply need to be tapered as much as that is a form of slow agony. I was eating multiple grams a day for months and tried cold turkey many times with pregabs and just absolutely couldn't hack it in an indescribably awful way. I got off though. You may need to seriously rethink how you're managing this stuff though cos from where I'm sitting, what you're doing now doesn't seem to be working. ❤️
 
I agree Charlie and I hope you can see that we aren't trying to "gang up" on you or anything. But you seem to be getting deeper and deeper into the FXE, in a dark way. "This is how I wake up" "seriously contemplating injection"...
Being in the halfway house (or regardless of it. Actually im not sure if that is still your situation), isn't there someone you can reach out to for help getting off your prescription?
I fear that you are going to trade one addiction for another, and while dissociatives might be the lesser of two evils....you are on track for a massive dependence on them. Just maybe chill with the needles at the very least?
 
Yeah I would too like to see another way out of the olanzapine for CC. Staying off benzos mixed with dissociatves is a good thing though. That is a big leg up. I honestly wish these AD's and AP's blocked dissociatives but not regular psychedelics.

Not a bad thing to remind CC. A little tender loving care is needed to stay afloat and out of trouble. Nobody is ganging up, just gentle reminding. You got this while still in control CC. Wise decisions going forward are a must. Thanks for trusting us enough to fill us in. Maybe it does not come off as getting on you then. It must appear like loving advice. :) (we hope)
 
Well im going to have to go for a more precise tactic. Im gonna be crushing Zyprexa pills into powder and figuring out the actual weight of the active compound. And then im gonna use my scale to weigh out capsules and i will start doing a taper with as perfect accuracy as i can get. Just trying to break off small pieces and taking them on random days based on symptom relief isnt working. Its time to get more scientific in this bitch...
 
Thank you guys for all your support, im gonna be slowing down on the Dissos as i become stabilized on the Olanzapine again. And im not gonna start shooting stuff up that is just not the right move for many reasons, taking the FXE sublingually will just have to do. With the Ketamine i have nasal spray bottles and i will be dissolving it in distilled water.

Im still using ot daily, have a little under a gram in me right now. Tommorow im gonna try and do some less and then when im off Saturday spending the day with my girlfriend im only gonna use some Pregabalin. Need to get back to using Dissos as a treat when im off work again, not as a daily crutch. Im living in an apartment now as well Pork, things have improved quite a bit regards to my living situation.
 
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Well my 3-Me-PCPy arrived today which i am super excited about, will be tucking this one away for the future. Have some months of urine testing left so i cant take the risk of having a positive result. This could quite possibly give a false positive for PCP im thinking, its a little too close for comfort to gamble..

But what i am planning is an adventure to the metropolitan museum of art when i decide to go on my first foray with the compound. Probably gonna go with 15mgs orally, will be an exciting day im sure 😌
 
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