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🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 PD Social Thread 2022-2025 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

Dude that is terrible, im sorry you had to go through that. And then ontop of it they give you a god damn Fioricet. They used to give me them for my headaches back in the day and were barely effective for that honestly. Sucks about your car do you know if insurance is gonna cover it?

Also the way they give out drugs in the US now is just sickening. They make it seem like your just a bad person if you take anything. And honestly during that so called pill mill epidemic i can guarantee you that way less people died than compared to nowadays. Which makes the whole suing Purdue shit nonesense in my eyes. People are never gonna stop using drugs, and a kid/adult will pick up everyday for their first time regardless of the legality.

Safe source is the only option that is gonna actually work, and sure people are gonna get high off there ass and some people will die, but its their own choice. If i wanna shoot Heroin all day long its my own damn business. And when someone starts trying to tell me how to live my life and whats right or wrong i dont take it very well. Ive been on Opioids for twenty five years now and there is a good chance i will be on them for life.

Will probably be going on Bupe again within the next month, im gonna get some O-DSMT and Etonitazepyne eventually to use when i want a full agonist and that sweet relief. But if Heroin were legal id deff be sticking that and Hydromorphone, cuz both of those IV cover all the bases for me. If i had a constant supply of pure Heroin i would never stop using it for the rest of my life. Maybe snort it primarily and just shoot up once in awhile, for a treat cuz im such a good boi.
 
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No we don't take it very well when people tell us how to live our life. But fact is we're harvesting a homeostatic system.. which is at least what the nervous system it is to most people, and creatures. It isn't some sort of exploitable top soil to everyone. One must ask why. Why, ffs.

I've had a terrible day today. It's as if I were hungover. I did drink the entire previous week.. mostly just drinking the cold away, I don't have heating. But the days after were fine. Yet today, second day sober, I feel discombobulated to the point of nausea, and slight headache.

I know what's wrong. I know what events can cause nausea through no means other than appropriate emotional reaction. But sadly that's beyond the scope of bluelight. I've seen people break down similarly on here without anyone batting an eye.. cuz we're here for drugs, drug camaraderie, even drug misery.. but only limited plain human misery. That's ignored, or delegated away.

I don't regret the dissociatives. At least not always. Because they bought me time. They allowed me to postpone facing a towering heap of injustice acutely impinging itself onto my being. And a special shoutout to DXM for teaching me the perfect form of breathing, better than any human teacher could ever have. But otherwise there's no measurable positive result. (I could argue positives, but not render them objective.)

I'm not telling you how to live your life, I mean I've done my part to support the dissociative dream. In the end though, I can't see it work. For emergencies? Sure. For something to normalize across the board, as a wise investment? Sorry, I'm out. It's as if accepting physical damage in exchange for ecstasy is a way to enable and further the actions of everyone who has ever tried to, and succeeded in, hurt/ing us. Yes, we do harm reduction. But one can't do harm reduction without the initial act of self-harm.

That doesn't come from a soapbox. I'm three heavy beers in, skipping on obligations just to for fuck's sake just stop feeling. But if my sober(ing) looks upon the mind are any like yours, then there's something else waiting to be looked at, quite unrelated to the psychopharmacological level. And you might not look at it, I might not look at it.. but I just don't want to pretend anymore it's not there.
 
Merry Christmas you lovely people! ♥️ My siblings have their own kids now, so they had their nuclear family Christmases today and my brother and his wife and kids are coming over in a couple of hours. We have a tradition of staying up all night and drinking ad hanging out on Christmas Eve so we're doing that tonight. Then tomorrow morning my sister and her husband are coming over, ad we're going to do Christmas Day, a day late. Presents, hanging out, yummy dinner.
 
Oh wow, congratulations man! That's so great! ♥️ I also think marriage is old-fashioned but it is very meaningful to make the declaration that you want to be lifelong partners with someone, and also proclaim it to the world. And there is a special feeling that it produces, too.

Merry Christmas, PD fam! I had family Christmas a day late, everyone went home yesterday. In an hour or so I'm going to my brother's house though, to spend the rest of the day/night with him and my sister in law and two nephews. Gonna spend the night, stay until brunch tomorrow, then come back and spend one more night with my mom, and then start making the journey home.
 
^Not to mention the tax breaks! My wife and I would be earning at least 8% less annually if we weren’t married. That’s a huge chunk of cash!

Hope everyone had a good holiday. My family gatherings were fun but I felt subdued. I spent about two months straight from October till about a week ago taking O-DSMT daily to cope with life stressors. Low doses mostly, 5-20mg per day.

Anyways, about four days ago I CT’d off it, wasn’t too hard since the doses were low. But still, it has been rough. And tomorrow, my wife and I are moving to our new home. It’s an old but cute house; its age is showing and there’s lots to do. I imagine I’ll be very busy for the next year or so working on fixing up the siding, repairing damaged drywall and ductwork, etc.

It’s nice to say “we own a house” but suddenly the extreme stress of home ownership is weighing down upon us and my wife and I have been fighting a lot. I hope it stops once the move is over.
 
Home ownership can be stressful, but it's also very freeing, in a different way. You'll learn a lot of skills as you handle the repairs, and personally I find very few things more satisfying than putting work into my home, it gives m a unique feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment.
 
I've been enjoying work, I've been pretty much the only programmer there during the holidays so I've got some time to do some changes that I've wanted to do for a while, without anyone -including my crazy impulsive boss- bothering me. I like the CEO but he's not fit for the role and he doesn't realize all that's wrong with some of the platforms/projects. And he just keeps on taking on projects or coming up with features. I'm like 99% sure he's got ADHD.

I've improved so much since the other engineer left, I'm happy with how I've been doing things, just wish I had a good senior programmer to learn from. No stress either, mountains of work, but I work and then I'm out.
 
Nice, glad you're enjoying your job and getting to do things your way. Basically how I advanced in my career was just doing what I saw needed to be done, without anyone asking me to, and then showing everyone how it is a improvement/more efficient/whatever. Before long I was recognized as essential, and then I was able to convince them that I should be in charge of decisions because my ideas improve things.

The professional world of programming is a lot different from the academic. Personally I really enjoy applying the things I learned to solving real-world problems.
 
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