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Xorkoth, everything you said is exactly me :P Every girl I've been with since I got good at it with my first girlfriend has told me it's the best they've ever had, a few never even having orgasm-ed from it before. It's such a fantastic thing, I really love it. To a certain degree I actually enjoy it more than intercourse, there's just something about using your mouth, and in a way kissing, a woman and having her go crazy that makes me go crazy. It's unlike anything else in my opinion.

I really appreciate the advice and warnings regarding the whole situation guys, thank you. Fortunately she just got out of a serious relationship a few months ago so she's not looking for anything serious either, which is great as I've never been in a position where it's almost guaranteed that neither side will develop feelings for the other that are unrequited. About the whole not wanting to be in a relationship because she's not as spiritual/emotional/etc as me, I understand completely where you're coming from Gravy but I can promise you, there's no emotional connection that would be neglected by my not being interested in more. One of the biggest issues is exactly that, that she's not a very emotionally deep person and there really isn't much of a connection in that way. She doesn't seem to be able to be truly intimate whether emotionally or sexually. Like I said above, our interactions are just light hearted, full of laughter, joking, and talking about school. Not much more than that.

I ended up texting her, she replied once I was in bed already, and so will now be coming over this evening!

Whitefox, emptied!
 
i got my L for friday night on saturday. im goin to a show and im gonna eat 3 tabs before i go in. shit is gonna be live but i cant have my chick find out im trippin. should be interesting but i should be fine
 
Nothing against your relationship but I could never imagine being in one where I should hide my drug use or anything really. The best thing about my new relationship is communication and openness.
 
LSDMDMA&AMP said:
i got my L for friday night on saturday. im goin to a show and im gonna eat 3 tabs before i go in. shit is gonna be live but i cant have my chick find out im trippin. should be interesting but i should be fine
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That is a SUCH a terrible idea dude, holy shit. Not only is there a 99% chance of that ending badly short term, you are dooming your relationship from the start if you are anything but honest and open with her.

Priorities. Would you rather do LSD at the show or have a loving relationship with a girl that you as you've said really care for and never want to hurt? It sure sounds like you were lying when you said you would never hurt her if you're willing to not only lie to her about drug use but attempt to go to a show WITH HER and take not only drugs she doesn't know about, but acid, and at that three hits.

I'm sorry but that is the opposite of loving and you can whether sooner or later kiss your relationship goodbye if you're going to be acting in that way.
 
LSDMDMA&13830682 said:
i got my L for friday night on saturday. im goin to a show and im gonna eat 3 tabs before i go in. shit is gonna be live but i cant have my chick find out im trippin. should be interesting but i should be fine
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This is a bad idea, trust me. Honestly, if you're dishonest about drug use in a relationship, it's going to eventually destroy it. Hiding a part of your life from someone is a betrayal of trust, even if it doesn't seem that way to you. It will definitely seem that way to her, and there is no way you'll be able to hide it forever. And it's very unlikely that she won't notice something is up with you on 3 hits of acid. It's almost certain she will think you're acting strange, and that will probably weird you out and make the whole thing worse. But even if you pull it off, even if you just take 1 hit or something which is much more likely to be able to be hidden, it's basically poisoning your relationship. If she thinks you don't do drugs and you do behind her back, it will catch up to you. I used to hide psychedelics from my ex-wife, I kept it hidden for almost 10 years, and then it all came to a head and things were never the same, the relationship only lasted a little longer after that. And in the process I did a lot of damage to myself, the effects of living a double life are not good on your mind and sense of self-esteem. It was, in all honesty, the most selfish decision I have ever made, to think that it was appropriate or possible to hide drug use from my partner. And I actually did try to share it with her at first, but she treated me with scorn and asked me to never do them again. That was my reason for doing it anyway, I felt she had no right to treat me that way, which was true, but what I should have done was broken up with her because it was indicative of the way she would treat me throughout our relationship. Despite the fact that we shouldn't have been together anyway, I still made a bad mistake in hiding my drug use from her and I regret it. If I had thought she was amazing and we had a great relationship and I was the cause of it ending because of hiding my drug use, that would have been horrible and I would be in a very different place today than I am. In my case I do regret that I did it because it was wrong, but I am also glad that it ended up driving us apart. I would imagine that the feelings of guilt and regret and sadness would be intense for me otherwise.

Just some words of advice from someone who's been there... you gotta consider what you value more, drugs or your girlfriend. Have you talked to her about drugs? Do you know for sure she is against them? If not, you should. If she expresses that she wouldn't want you using drugs, then if you keep using drugs, you're going to be leading a double life. If she says she's okay with it, then you should be honest about what you're doing. Like if you want to take acid at a club with her, you should tell her you're doing that. Otherwise it's gonna explode in your face at some point. I actually believed I was going to be able to always hide it from my ex, because I was really, really good at doing it (a bit disturbingly good when I look back on it). We lived together nearly the whole time, and I still did it. And then, I slipped, and my relationship exploded.

I learned a lot about myself and grew a lot from the experience, but it was painful and more importantly it caused pain and betrayal to someone I loved, it really was a very shitty thing for me to do, regardless of how I rationalized it. It would have been better for me not to ever do that, and it will be better for you too.
 
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^Listen to these guys. I left 3-MeO-PCP behind for her as much as for myself. Even when she didn't ask me to.
 
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im not gonna do it because she isnt ok with it. I asked. Im going to sell the tabs i have. Shes worth it.
 
Nice man, good choice. :)

3-MeO-PCP is a really good drug for writing, it always seems to put me into a particularly thoughtful wordy state. I just a little break from hours of writing because my girlfriend's best friend came by to pick something up. She had never been to my house before so I got to show her the house and she got to meet my cats, who she's been hearing about for about 2 years. She's a cool girl, loves to smoke weed and she's pretty entertaining and really into herbs and very knowledgeable about them. She has had a number of bad experiences with men and she doesn't trust many of them, but she trusts me and really likes me which is cool, I try to be a good example of my gender for her. We decided we're going to hang out soon, I'll cook dinner (it's a thing, lots of time when my girl and I go to her house to hang out, I cook dinner with the food she gets from her CSA, she doesn't cook much and food always goes to waste unless I cook it for her. We're gonna make a cardboard cutout of my girlfriend and pretend she's there because we both really miss her (not really obviously but it's an amusing idea).
 
LSDMDMA&AMP said:
im not gonna do it because she isnt ok with it. I asked. Im going to sell the tabs i have. Shes worth it.
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She's not okay with you doing it at all? Or just, the concept of her going with you while you're strange?

My girlfriend is okay with me doing most drugs but she dislikes the way I act when I get too far on anything, so I try not to let my use come into contact with her.
 
im not entirely sure. I wasnt trying to push the issue when i called. It was just it would make her uncomfortable and i stopped as soon as she said that.
 
Cool, yeah you'll be able to get to the bottom of it. As you get to know her better you'll find out more about each other and have more conversations.

My girlfriend knows about psychedelics, we talk about my experiences sometimes, in fact our first date I told her all about my ibogaine experience that got me off opiates, and stuff, I got really in-depth, I guess I just figured, coming out of the relationship before that where I lied about drugs, that I should just get it all out in the open. It kinda helped that I wasn't sure if I was into her yet so I didn't feel like I had anything to lose, but I'm glad I did because it set a precedent. She has tripped with me once, and wants to take LSD with me, and she smokes once a week or more (sometimes daily for a while). She just doesn't do drugs very often but she knows that I do. She thinks it's cool, but I don't generally do it around her, just because it's nicer if we're both on the same level. Sometimes I take a little bit of a psychedelic for a hike and she finds that fun. She did express to me that I shouldn't be too crazy while she's gone so I know there is some amount of worry for me in there so I try not to worry her because I think I probably do more drugs than she is used to seeing in someone... she has commented that she doesn't know how I manage to do it.

She has this desire to have a breakthrough psychedelic experience because she's never had anything profound happen on them, except one time when she was younger and she used MDMA and had an emotional breakthrough and it helped her with some PTSD-related stuff and being able to open up and forgive. She still has some PTSD from her childhood and she really wants to find a way through it but she's really cautious about it too. I have this vision of the two of us taking LSD together and her having a revelatory sort of experience, I really think it could happen and be beautiful but I don't in any way want to force it, whenever she's ready for that I'll be there with it.
 
Well done llama I think I managed stuff in a similar way with my previous girlfriend.. if you're pretty much in the same situation IMO tripping on an occasion when she is not there doesn't affect her so it should be alright.

Of course, psychedelics are a little special because unlike narcotics, the capacity to fuck your life through dependency type stuff is pretty low. In relatively rare cases people can get too hung up on psychedelics and for example come to find their weekdays meaningless for some reason and only trippy time in the weekend is special. Still not as gripping as an opioid addiction of course.

A lot of people probably don't understand or have patience for this 'special status' of psychedelics especially with a history of addictions... so it may boil down to a sense of trust between you two.

My prev girlfriend was very scared of it herself but I tripped around her once on AL-LAD and was just my regular self or maybe just a bit more of a jolly prankster, but I can easily imagine a partner who just isn't willing to entertain the whole expeditioning on principle.
It was truly shitty, but it wasn't difficult for me to not trip for a whole long while in the sense that life can be difficult without narcotics or alcohol making you feel better at least a little bit - for me.
 
I told pretty much everything about myself to my girlfriend when we first met. Taking 3meopcp together really helped in that regard but I was already in pretty manic state when I met her so I would have opened up anyways. It helped her to really open up though. She loves that I'm so open.
 
Yeah I think my girlfriend was taken aback by how open I was, I revealed a lot of stuff, about my ex and our situation, etc. Told her I was still technically married, all that stuff. Probably if I had wanted to ask advice from someone about it, they would have told me not to be so open at first but it seemed right to me, and it was right because we have a really solid foundation with no hiding or lies. I knew I had made the right choice when I was all ready to go home after a long day/night of hanging out on our first date, and she asked me if I wanted to go to bed instead. %)
 
I need a new hobby to get through this long winter without abusing too much drugs! The first snow came today. Had to drive very slowly with my very old summer car tires lol.

I want to try snowboarding this winter.
 
I like skiing myself, it's loads of fun. Most people I know who do snow sports board, but I never had an interest in it. My parents taught me to ski at a young age and in the 90s snowboarding wasn't as big of a thing if I remember it right. Either way, I dislike the concept of having both my feet strapped to the same board haha.
 
So in 2014 I opened up an official small business selling my art. I made some money at it up through the start of 2015, but I never actually reported anything, I meant to at the end of 2014 but I had already given up on the business by then and I sort of forgot. I started getting noticed, but every time I went to work on it I got confused and it just sort of slipped my mind. However it's been hanging over my head in some form or another for over 2 years. Well, today I realized that damn, it's been almost to the 3 year point and I've heard that they will come after you after 3 years. So I opened the latest notice and called the department. I eventually talked to the collections agent that was assigned to me (yikes!), she was really nice. She entered in 0 reported sales for 2015 on and closed the business for me, and told me exactly where to go to file the 4 quarters of 2014 where I did make some money. I just finished doing that and paying, I only owed ~$36. And now it's all done. Finally! I didn't even realize how much of a load off that would be... I feel silly for not sitting down and calling them 2 years ago. Anyway, it's all good now, the state is happy with me again. :)

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I like skiing myself, it's loads of fun. Most people I know who do snow sports board, but I never had an interest in it. My parents taught me to ski at a young age and in the 90s snowboarding wasn't as big of a thing if I remember it right. Either way, I dislike the concept of have both my feet strapped to the same board haha.
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The first time I skiied, I was too young to remember it. I've been skiing my whole life, although I rarely get to do it anymore. it's so much fun, I've gotta do it again soon. One year my family and I went out to Colorado, when I was like 14 or something, and spent a week skiing at Breckenridge. That was so much fun...
 
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