swilow
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TAC said:
How do you use drugs "properly"?
Pharmakos said:
I am fed up and tired of this existence to be honest.
Hmm.
How are you?
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How do you use drugs "properly"?
I am fed up and tired of this existence to be honest.
Hmm.
How are you?
Crashing
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Xork lemme know if you'll be around this week , got into the airport with the kratom just fine. Gonna be in asheville soon. My girl and i are thinking of moving here so it'd be real neat to meet someone who knows the place even if just for a quick chat! Note - All the 3 is out of my system so no chance I'll be in psychosis!
Xorkoth
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Haha, nice. I'll PM you.
TheAppleCore
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That's a really thought-provoking question, and I'm honestly not 100% sure how to answer it.
I like to compare drugs to food. I trust my body to know what it needs for proper nutrition, and similarly, I trust my instincts about drugs. When I crave a food, I eat it; when I crave a drug, I take it. So far, this has worked for me.
I also want to say that "proper" usage of drugs entirely depends on your purpose. Are you trying to treat cluster headaches, or are you trying to discover your own self-nature? Or are you treating insomnia? Maybe you don't really have a purpose, and that's fine too?
No you're not; otherwise, you wouldn't be here.
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yepyepwoah
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Getting into skydiving has seriously taken away from my psych purchasing. All I can think about is jumping out of airplanes.
Altough I feel a hankering for a nIce DPT/Ketamine trip soon.
Altough I feel a hankering for a nIce DPT/Ketamine trip soon.
polymath
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I had a job interview today and it's very likely that I will get an engineering physics researcher position. 
I think my work performance will be a lot better than it was in my previous job, now that my endocrine disorders (hyperprolactinemia) have been treated appropriately and I don't feel a constant huge fatigue anymore.
I think my work performance will be a lot better than it was in my previous job, now that my endocrine disorders (hyperprolactinemia) have been treated appropriately and I don't feel a constant huge fatigue anymore.
yepyepwoah
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Just for one jump? Thats ridiculous. I paid $300 total (could be ~$450 without paying in advance or discounts) for two tandem jumps. Now its $150 each for 16 solo trainong jumps. After that its $25 lift ticket and $25 to rent gear if you dont have your own.
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I guess the course is 600 or something and when you have done that its something similar that you said. I just checked quickly
Xorkoth
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I got my new loop pedal in, I can't fucking wait til work is done so I can get over and play with it! I have so much stuff I want to try and also to record. I have a light work load right now and I'm feeling ADD about getting ahead at work, I've practices like 4 hours today so far. I can really see such a difference since I took my old keyboard home, I practice at least an hour every day if not more, the rate of improvement increase is significant.
So inspired today, I gotta put that to use!
So inspired today, I gotta put that to use!
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yepyepwoah
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You are rich now xammy, give it a shot. Either youll love it and get addicted or be like "meh, maybe once a year"
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It certainly doesn't look like my cup of tea. If I'm gonna go fast, I like to be closer to the ground.
I got my new loop pedal in, I can't fucking wait til work is done so I can get over and play with it! I have so much stuff I want to try and also to record. I have a light work load right now and I'm feeling ADD about getting ahead at work, I've practices like 4 hours today so far. I can really see such a difference since I took my old keyboard home, I practice at least an hour every day if not more, the rate of improvement increase is significant.
So inspired today, I gotta put that to use!
Weeeeee new toys :D This reminds me, I've been meaning to ask Xorky. What do you recommend for learning keys? I've had a midi keyboard for around two years now, a decently nice Arturia The Laboratory, and finally want to actually learn learn. I have a basic understanding of chords, scales, how many keys to move up or down to go where I want in a melody, etc etc. When I was on MXE a year ago I could bang out some amazing stuff, and the other night on 3-meo-pcp got 20 minutes of really great stuff - albeit timing off and wrong keys hit occasionally. So basically what I'm saying is, I have the musical part down pretty well, just not the technique? Or knowing all the scales. But yea, how would you recommend I learn to really truly play?
Xorkoth
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The first thing you should do is learn all the scales. Understand the major/minor relationship. Learn the major scales, and then you will know the minor scales because the relative minor of a major key is the same scale except 3 half-steps down. Once you know the scales, just play as much as you can. Play along to stuff. Play by yourself. Play with other people. This way you will solidify what you know and develop your voice, and the technique will come with hours behind the wheel.
swilow
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Hmm. For me, taking a drug I crave has lead me deep into darkness. But I see what you mean.
No objective purpose, but there usually is some intent behind use. But the addctive stuff, I feel compelled to take it everyy dew days.
For me, I've been experiencing pretty weird mental health issues for at least the last 2 years. I almost feel like I am about to totally lose myself, huge pressure building that will either result in the destruction of the relatively settled, mundane life I've built or the death of my actual life. Of course, I want neither and at times taking opiates seems to be the safe option. At least I feel less suicidal. I'm quite depressed and have delusional thoughts but I really don't want to go down the psychiatric-route again. I don't want the junkie route either. I just want something to bodily pick me up from my life and freeze it so I can't fuck it up anymore. Put me back when I am stable.
In the past, my drug use was semi-limited by lack of money, but that is totally not an issue. I can afford to take drugs everyday, even not work if I wanted to. Inheriting money hasn't really been so great given my lack of self-control. At least I can afford good quality treatment should I desire it. But I don't want rehab again.
I had 10 days of no hard drugs, just weed. Felt great. I stumbled upon some temazepam, methadone and decided to binge for a few days. Threw in some MXE. Bit of codeine. Well, a week went buy and I had finished my binge and ended up in mild benzo withdrawal and slightly-less-mild opiate withdrawal. That is the part of my life I am deeply, angrily tired off. It fucking sucks that you have to pay the piper so to speak.
Ahhhh, life.
What do you think about this band TAC and PD in general? I seem to post their music a lot. They are Wardruna, a Norwegian 'neo-folk' group that create shamanic, percussive droning Skaldic ambient. Made up of some members of black metal bands. This music is mystical and ancient sounding, though it apparently is not in direct linage with 'true' nordic folk music. It is dark and weighty stuff, purely drums, drones, and vocals. Some of their music was featured on the show Vikings.
This song is great:
Xorkoth
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I had been thinking scales, scales, scales already, wonderful! I really appreciate it man
Yeah if you know your scales inside and out, you can always know a note to go to that will sound good. And then as you get more hours in, especially playing with other people or with existing music, you'll start to play good notes without even thinking and that's when you can start to develop a lot. You'll start thinking of things in terms of shapes. A piano keyboard is basically a musical number line, it very visually represents the relationship between different notes.
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