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Xorkoth that was also a very beautiful stream of feelings in your last post. Relationships can damage people with deep cuts to the mind and spirit that require years to heal, and while the memories fade, they will always be there, for good reason, to learn from and be reminded not to let oneself repeat the dark aspects of their past.
On a lighter note, it sounds like you need a t-shirt, like a souvenir from the gift shop of your past life, that says 'I was in a spirit-crushing emotionally damaging marriage, and all I have to show for it is an electric piano and these decent headphones'.

Seriously though, you are clearly stronger and wiser having gone through those trials, and you persevered and now are in a successful relationship bound by true and mutual love, you are flying with your music and band, have a great community of real-life friends as well as a fulfilling position as a moderator in this well of comradre, expression and compassion that is Bluelight.
 
Thursday I took half a blotter of DOC at about 1pm, just a few hours after waking up and eating breakfast. I knew I wanted some stimulation and energy because I was going to chill and party with my university subject association. I had been using 3-MeO-PCP for a few nights before that, last night 10mg or something so I was a little worried how I would react to DOC even if it was such a small dose. About an hour to two later I was starting to peak, vaporized some sativa and listened to music, talked with my friends on Mumble and after that I had to lie down for a few minutes and enjoy the come up. Such a small dose DOC comeup isn't that harsh but still I felt like I needed to chill down a bit.

After a few minutes I went back to my PC and played some CSGO with my friends and this girl who I like as she plays the same game and likes psychedelics too. It was pretty easy but I think 3-MeO-PCP is even better for gaming, we won easily as usual and I was carrying pretty hard if I recall correct.

After that I was waiting for my friend to come over and decided to take some 3-MeO-PCP. I think I took about 3-4mg. I was getting pretty restless because of DOC and 3meo chilled me down almost instantly. Finally my friend came over and brought some beer!
He was visiting my place for the first time and I showed him some PC setup and my headphones and stuff as we drank some beers. He haven't tried anything else than cannabis and was pretty surprised I was so lucid while on psychedelics. It seems like people who don't know about psychedelics often think they make you go crazy and stuff. But I was on just a little over 1mg of DOC so shouldn't be surprise that I was very lucid. I didn't say him anything about 3meo I think.

Then we went outside, to the place where our student friends were chilling and drinking. It was a checkpoint where new university students had to do all kind of stupid shit. It was fun to watch. I was feeling very social and pretty manic too. I chatted with this girl friend who I've known for a few years and had great time teasing her. I didn't bring any alcohol with me but she gave me beer and wine. I chatted with many student friends and girls easily in this god-alpha mode that DOC+3-MeO-PCP+alcohol produced. Lots of laughter and good vibes everywhere, everyone having a good time. It was so easy to talk with hot girls I didn't even know that well. At one point the girl I teased came to sit on my lap and was very close almost the whole time.

Hours went by and I got free alcohol anytime I asked. At one point this guy who knows about drugs and stuff, smokes weed and so came so I showed him my vaporizer and vaporized some weed. They had this big speaker and were playing pretty shit radio hits so I put on some Gramatik. I was feeling amazing, watching girls dancing with Gramatik playing loud. At one point this young extremely beautiful girl came to ask who I was, we chatted and she told me that she's a second year student on the same subject as I and we had been in same high school. I really liked her and at one point I just grabbed her and gave her a kiss :).

After it was like 9pm people started to go into downtown and bar, I bicycled to my friends' place, he and his roommate were on 3-MeO-PCP and we had a great time for an hour or two. I took some 3-meo too, maybe 3mg again and we vaporized weed. This one guy told how he had taken too much 3-meo a while ago, like 20mg and lost himself for a while in a bar. Fortunately he had some friends who helped him but he told it was pretty fucked up situation. I had just told these guys to be careful with 3-meo-pcp because it's so potent and these guys don't have much previous experience with dissos. Now they sure will be, that's good.

At about 11pm we left with my friend to the bar where my student friends were partying. We didn't have to queue at that point because everyone were in already. We were both pretty high, there were TONS of people and music was too loud. It didn't really matter after we got used to it and finally got to order some water because I was sweating like a motherfucker.


We went to the table with my student friends and I had a long convo with a friend about drugs - my psychedelic use and weed etc. He hadn't tried even weed so I told him I'd offer him some someday. I didn't bring my vaporizer with me and he was drunk so I smoking/vaping weed while drunk for the first time would certainly be a bad idea. He was very hyped up about everything I told him. I also saw one of my old friends, he had gotten into the same university as I and was very happy. It was fun to see him after such a long time. After a while me and my friend went into another bar because my friend told me this girl was there and I wanted to see her. It was a disappointment because she was dancing with this other guy, wasted as hell. Anyway I saw some other old friends and had fun for the rest of the night! Great day in every way.
 
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much love to xorkoth and (especially) Help?!. life is often difficult, but this is what makes us grow as people and spirits... <3

just received some fillipino kratom and this is probably the most potent strain I had yet. sweet :). combine that with an epic weekend vistiing close family and having a barbecue, I feel pretty good right now. might get some turkish fast food (kebap) in a bit as well
 
Just getting back for a bit after my moms funeral. That was shitty, not suprisingly....:( I want some dissociatives to numb my mind!

I'm sorry man, I didn't realize she had passed. <3 Though I remember you seemed to think it would be soon. Much love. <3

Xorkoth that was also a very beautiful stream of feelings in your last post. Relationships can damage people with deep cuts to the mind and spirit that require years to heal, and while the memories fade, they will always be there, for good reason, to learn from and be reminded not to let oneself repeat the dark aspects of their past.
On a lighter note, it sounds like you need a t-shirt, like a souvenir from the gift shop of your past life, that says 'I was in a spirit-crushing emotionally damaging marriage, and all I have to show for it is an electric piano and these decent headphones'.

Seriously though, you are clearly stronger and wiser having gone through those trials, and you persevered and now are in a successful relationship bound by true and mutual love, you are flying with your music and band, have a great community of real-life friends as well as a fulfilling position as a moderator in this well of comradre, expression and compassion that is Bluelight.

Beautiful.

Thanks guys. I was tripping lightly that morning and it was a pretty intense/thoughtful day. I felt extremely inspired to write something artistic about it, getting it out was really cathartic (actually the music playing was cathertic, and the words were the result of that). I felt inspired the rest of the day, and yesterday, what a great day yesterday. I did a bit of 3-MeO yesterday and it was probably the very best 3-MeO day I've ever had, and I only had 3-4mg, one time.

Except I found out my last grandparent, the one I've always been the closest with, who is 90 years old, fell and broke her hip yesterday. :\

I don't really think about my ex that often, nor do I feel damaged by the experience, I just occasionally have things surface that make me realize I have some residual feelings about it to work through still. I was pretty quickly able to partition that version of myself off as a past version. My amazing girlfriend helped a lot because she does not do any of that stuff at all, and anyway I never thought like, everyone is going to do this to me. I knew what it was. I think the ibogaine, which happened 2 months after it was all over, helped me so much in that area too. It basically seemed to reset my personality, or viewpoint, or something. I came out of it feeling fresh and powerful, like I had woken up from a long, 12 year dream where I largely became someone different, or at least forgotten who I was. So when I came out of it, it was sort of like waking up, affected by the remnants of the dream, with feelings to work through about it, but not stuck in that same place at all. It was really a critical experience for me, and it happened at exactly the right time. Easily by far the most transformative experience of my life. In the span of a week I went from opiate addicted for 10 years, crushed down, sad, confused, to powerful, content, happy and I've never wanted to touch an opiate again. Amazing, I'm really thankful. <3
 
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Hope you're gonna be fine, Help?!, that's pretty rough. Stand tall in times like this <3
 
"Yo Cream, wassup?" sounds much better than "Yo 240sx, waddup?" Much easier name to shorten up.
 
As someone who has a problem with Drugs, I would highly recommend taking heed to those warning signs. I've found it hard to stop even after going to jail a few times . My Dog Scooby is high on MDMA right now and I'm sure it won't be the last time either even though I want it to be. I believe in God and that's the main reason I want to quit Being that I want to be a better Christian . I was sober for a little over a year on drugs and drinking about 6 months . All due to jail and a little bit of will but eventually I caved in and now I've been getting drunk just about every day and I picked up Molly for the first time in a year and it feels great right now but I know I'm disappointing God . Sorry to go on a rant but I just hope it doesn't affect your life like it did mine.
 
"Yo Cream, wassup?" sounds much better than "Yo 240sx, waddup?" Much easier name to shorten up.
I agree, although I think I'd prefer it shortened to 'Gravy' hahahah

As someone who has a problem with Drugs, I would highly recommend taking heed to those warning signs. I've found it hard to stop even after going to jail a few times . My Dog Scooby is high on MDMA right now and I'm sure it won't be the last time either even though I want it to be. I believe in God and that's the main reason I want to quit Being that I want to be a better Christian . I was sober for a little over a year on drugs and drinking about 6 months . All due to jail and a little bit of will but eventually I caved in and now I've been getting drunk just about every day and I picked up Molly for the first time in a year and it feels great right now but I know I'm disappointing God . Sorry to go on a rant but I just hope it doesn't affect your life like it did mine.

Lol at 'disappointing God' hahahahah

This is what somewhat often bothers me about organized religions; they're used as a pretense for the suppression of original thought and personal freedoms. Now, your having been to jail for it and all, and apparently having an issue controlling your intake of alcohol, I'm sure you need to watch your use... but as willow said, God doesn't care if you do drugs man hahahahah!
 
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Xammy your adventures are sounding really epic, like you are swimming in the synchronicity and making a party of it by circulating the energy with other people. We can inspire a lot of people and create some really positive ripples, potentially, when we harness it with good intentions.
I'm glad you are digging Gramatik and sharing it with friends. Anytime you need to re-up the hot tunes give me a shout.

As for the 'dissapointing God' for doing MDMA, I'm not saying there is nothing to it, but I think what matters is how you utilize the 'light' that MDMA or other drugs can offer. If it is used to cast shadows then I feel that would be a reason for any God to be disappointed. And also, obviously if those tools are overused and not respected, the karmic blowback can be very real, whether due to the science perspective of hurting your serotonin receptors, or explained as God giving you a hard lesson to learn.
 
Thanks guys, it means a lot!<3 When it rains it pours. First one of my best friends, then my mom, and now my leopard gecko I've had for fifteen plus years died yesterday.:(

Should have some GHB, 1-ethynyl-cyclohexanol, and kratom. Have some fluro phenibut right now. Soon it will be time to numb the pain in a bad way but oh well. It's easier for me to get this stuff then psychedelics and dissociatives unfortunately. I'd rather have them but it's not that fesible currently...


I also never understood why people think some God would care about drug use. Seems pretty lackluster to me.

Edit: Forgot to add this. Such a great song. [video]https://youtu.be/JTeKpWp8Psw[/video] If you like that check out "The only thing" as well.
 
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And also, obviously if those tools are overused and not respected, the karmic blowback can be very real, whether due to the science perspective of hurting your serotonin receptors, or explained as God giving you a hard lesson to learn.

We live in a reality of symbols and representation. There's not a single road to the Truth, because there is not only one Truth.


When it rains it pours. First one of my best friends, then my mom, and now my leopard gecko I've had for fifteen plus years died yesterday.:(

Wow Help, sounds rough ... My best wishes for the time to come. Stay strong !
 
So much death lately...

So I wanted to get something off my chest that's been bothering me. Last night a good friend of mine came to me/us crying. She went to a Trump rally, as an anti-Trump person, and went dressed in a Muslim outfit with a camera with the purpose of trying to bring to light the hatred and prejudice that Muslims in America are facing, and in particular from the Trump people/that sort of "political" leaning (I use quotes because it's not really a political thing, it's an ideology thing that has been associated with a political party). Well she was treated as expected more or less, except it was scarier for her than she expectedr. People were screaming "terrorist! Get out of our country!" and the like at her, and being really aggressive, spitting on her even or shoving her. One big guy grabbed her arm really hard and tried to push her down the stairs when she tried entering the area. She stumbled partway down without falling and then someone else caught her. But then the security guards and police came over. Instead of throwing the guy out or arresting him for assault (on a woman no less), they told her she needed to leave if she didn't take off her head scarf. She refused on the grounds of religious freedom, and they told her if she didn't let herself get escorted out by them now, they'd arrest her. So she left obviously. She kept asking them why she had to leave, and they wouldn't answer. Outside, she got interviewed by the local news and told them the story, which is basically exactly what she wanted, because now it'll be reported. Apparently she actually was briefly shown on a clip on CNN, not the throwing down the stairs part though.

Anyway that shook her up, obviously, but then when she got home, she found out her best friend is basically not wanting to be close to her anymore because of it, and it really crushed her. She used my friend's phone and signed into her facebook and forgot to sign out, and so my friend saw her messages flashing on her screen. She was talking to another of my friend's friends, and they were saying, basically, that they don't want to associate with her anymore because since she dressed like a muslim, it means she's insensitive and racist. They said, "she's white so she has no privilege to do such a thing". This is a close friend of 3 years who my friend has really been there for through a bunch of intense shit. It really pisses me off the more I think about it. Her friend is kind of a sheep about it, she's into the whole social justice warrior thing and has expressed views before that basically suggest to me that she thinks if you're white, any imitation of or any tiny step "out of line" regarding race means you're a racist, and are "destroying the sovereignty of their culture". They espouse getting rid of racism but constantly separate people into racial groups and make a big deal out of it. If she thought about it for half a second instead of reacting from the back of a bandwagon, she'd see that what my friend did was a ballsy thing, and was trying to help the same cause she believes she is helping. What my friend did was not racist or insensitive. She was trying to expose racist and hateful people who are the problem you're railing against. It was a bold thing to do and I respect that, people need to be doing stuff like that. We have to get rid of racism, not perpetuate it. So now she won't return her calls and seems to be cutting her out. My friend made a Facebook post about her Trump rally experiment and she had 3 people express indignation, including those 2 friends. All white people. Meanwhile, she got a bunch of messages from others including muslim Americans telling her thank you for doing that.

I just hate that PC bullshit. It's like, as long as you fit into these specific guidelines, you're good, but if you fall outside them, then you're racist/wrong/whatever regardless of the subtext of what you're saying. And you can say the correct words/etc but mean something different, but that's okay because you did the "right thing". It's incredibly asanine and damaging to culture and personal freedom. It perpetuates divisions, it doesn't remove them. At least at this point in history. Come on already people, let's move past the divisions. Get mad at the dude that pushed her down the stairs and all the people calling all Muslims terrorists and wanting to deport them all or worse. Don't get mad at the girl who's trying to help and dresses like a Muslim at a Trump rally to try to shed light on the problem. For fuck's sake.

As someone who has a problem with Drugs, I would highly recommend taking heed to those warning signs. I've found it hard to stop even after going to jail a few times . My Dog Scooby is high on MDMA right now and I'm sure it won't be the last time either even though I want it to be. I believe in God and that's the main reason I want to quit Being that I want to be a better Christian . I was sober for a little over a year on drugs and drinking about 6 months . All due to jail and a little bit of will but eventually I caved in and now I've been getting drunk just about every day and I picked up Molly for the first time in a year and it feels great right now but I know I'm disappointing God . Sorry to go on a rant but I just hope it doesn't affect your life like it did mine.

Don't worry about god... but it's smart to realize whether you have issues with overuse of substances, because it's bad for your body and mind. The Bible doesn't prohibit drug use, there's nowhere it says that. I believe it does reference not overindulging, but Jesus drank wine, you know? Using a drug once in a while for fun or otherwise is not abuse of drugs. The church organization is a social control structure, you can be religious/spiritual without that, it's about a personal relationship. The anti-drug agenda has used religion as a means of getting people to not use drugs.

I guess I'm just saying, if you want to quit drugs for your own reasons, that's cool. But don't let the fear that they use to control people affect you like that, it's not healthy.

Hey guys, I changed my username. Formerly 240sxLover

Nice =D
 
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So much death lately...

So I wanted to get something off my chest that's been bothering me. Last night a good friend of mine came to me/us crying. She went to a Trump rally, as an anti-Trump person, and went dressed in a Muslim outfit with a camera with the purpose of trying to bring to light the hatred and prejudice that Muslims in America are facing, and in particular from the Trump people/that sort of "political" leaning (I use quotes because it's not really a political thing, it's an ideology thing that has been associated with a political party). Well she was treated as expected more or less, except it was scarier for her than she expectedr. People were screaming "terrorist! Get out of our country!" and the like at her, and being really aggressive, spitting on her even or shoving her. One big guy grabbed her arm really hard and tried to push her down the stairs when she tried entering the area. She stumbled partway down without falling and then someone else caught her. But then the security guards and police came over. Instead of throwing the guy out or arresting him for assault (on a woman no less), they told her she needed to leave if she didn't take off her head scarf. She refused on the grounds of religious freedom, and they told her if she didn't let herself get escorted out by them now, they'd arrest her. So she left obviously. She kept asking them why she had to leave, and they wouldn't answer. Outside, she got interviewed by the local news and told them the story, which is basically exactly what she wanted, because now it'll be reported. Apparently she actually was briefly shown on a clip on CNN, not the throwing down the stairs part though.

Anyway that shook her up, obviously, but then when she got home, she found out her best friend is basically not wanting to be close to her anymore because of it, and it really crushed her. She used my friend's phone and signed into her facebook and forgot to sign out, and so my friend saw her messages flashing on her screen. She was talking to another of my friend's friends, and they were saying, basically, that they don't want to associate with her anymore because since she dressed like a muslim, it means she's insensitive and racist. They said, "she's white so she has no privilege to do such a thing". This is a close friend of 3 years who my friend has really been there for through a bunch of intense shit. It really pisses me off the more I think about it. Her friend is kind of a sheep about it, she's into the whole social justice warrior thing and has expressed views before that basically suggest to me that she thinks if you're white, any imitation of or any tiny step "out of line" regarding race means you're a racist, and are "destroying the sovereignty of their culture". They espouse getting rid of racism but constantly separate people into racial groups and make a big deal out of it. If she thought about it for half a second instead of reacting from the back of a bandwagon, she'd see that what my friend did was a ballsy thing, and was trying to help the same cause she believes she is helping. What my friend did was not racist or insensitive. She was trying to expose racist and hateful people who are the problem you're railing against. It was a bold thing to do and I respect that, people need to be doing stuff like that. We have to get rid of racism, not perpetuate it. So now she won't return her calls and seems to be cutting her out. My friend made a Facebook post about it and she had 3 people express indignation, including those 2 friends. All white people. Meanwhile, she got a bunch of messages from others including muslim Americans telling her thank you for doing that.

I just hate that PC bullshit. It's like, as long as you fit into these specific guidelines, you're good, but if you fall outside them, then you're racist/wrong/whatever regardless of the subtext of what you're saying. And you can say the correct words/etc but mean something different, but that's okay because you did the "right thing". It's incredibly asanine and damaging to culture and personal freedom. It perpetuates divisions, it doesn't remove them. At least at this point in history. Come on already people, let's move past the divisions. Get mad at the dude that pushed her down the stairs and all the people calling all Muslims terrorists and wanting to deport them all or worse. Don't get mad at the girl who's trying to help and dresses like a Muslim at a Trump rally to try to shed light on the problem. For fuck's sake.
wtf? insanity!

well the reaction she got at the trump rally doesn't surprise me a bit, allthough it of course makes me angry. but the reaction of her friend? maybe people like that one day realize how ignorant and foolish they actually are... :(
 
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