TheAppleCore
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I don't think it's too surprising. Psychedelics exacerbate irrational thinking.
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I don't think it's too surprising. Psychedelics exacerbate irrational thinking.
Xorkoth
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Yeah I'd say if anything psychedelics would increase the chances of people getting into that sort of thinking, if they were going to already. In 2006-2009 I was super into the whole 2012 global ascension thing, and I was doing psychedelics the most of any point in my life then.
Wow the crypto market is crazy right now. I've learned a ton. I've turned $1100 into $2000 so far, of course yesterday it was worth $2500 and if BTC was still at its high, it would be ~$3000. Not big money but I'm getting the hang of it and the higher your investment amount, the more you gain as long as you play it smart. What I mostly learned is, you gotta make a decision and then stick with it unless you're a pro and really understand how to read the market... you'll lose money day trading otherwise. For example, if I had kept my 25k Verge coins I bought for $250 earlier this month, instead of selling them for small gains because I got nervous and then buying back in after it kept rising (twice), they'd be worth over $6000 now. If I had kept the 250,000 Einsteinium coins I bought ~8 months ago (also for about $200) and then cashed in for a failed startup crypto instead of holding, they'd be worth $250,000 right now... or if I had sold them at their peak a week or so ago, it would have been over half a million. Hard lessons to learn, but I've learned them; I had a feeling about something, and let the crazy volatility cloud my judgment. I feel good about what I've got now and I'm keeping my eye out for more promising startups to invest small amounts in and hold for maybe even years, and stick with my guns with the ones I do have. I'm still way up from my initial investment so I'm happy to just hold.
Wow the crypto market is crazy right now. I've learned a ton. I've turned $1100 into $2000 so far, of course yesterday it was worth $2500 and if BTC was still at its high, it would be ~$3000. Not big money but I'm getting the hang of it and the higher your investment amount, the more you gain as long as you play it smart. What I mostly learned is, you gotta make a decision and then stick with it unless you're a pro and really understand how to read the market... you'll lose money day trading otherwise. For example, if I had kept my 25k Verge coins I bought for $250 earlier this month, instead of selling them for small gains because I got nervous and then buying back in after it kept rising (twice), they'd be worth over $6000 now. If I had kept the 250,000 Einsteinium coins I bought ~8 months ago (also for about $200) and then cashed in for a failed startup crypto instead of holding, they'd be worth $250,000 right now... or if I had sold them at their peak a week or so ago, it would have been over half a million. Hard lessons to learn, but I've learned them; I had a feeling about something, and let the crazy volatility cloud my judgment. I feel good about what I've got now and I'm keeping my eye out for more promising startups to invest small amounts in and hold for maybe even years, and stick with my guns with the ones I do have. I'm still way up from my initial investment so I'm happy to just hold.
yepyepwoah
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Xorkoth I for rel thought you were getting on with that verge and einsteinium coin shit. (maybe I've been watching like 2-3 hours of Futurama a night and that sounds like something Farnsworth would say. Looked em up and they were legit. Sucks you ain’t semi rich now. Booooo.
Man Im calling this fishery place In Alaska tomorrow. It’s a shit job of”processing” fish 12-18 hours a day ( there goes my vegetarianism). You basically apply and go to one of the 6-7 cities they interview in. I assume it’s pretty much just “bring your papers and you are hired” I dunno. Who the fuck would want to do that work? Its min wage which is 9.75 or so. With overtime its still not much. I’m just hoping I can do it, and actually make it. Being able to wake up and see the beauty that is Alaska everyday for four months. I buckskin hate the cold. SO much. That will put me out of my comfort zone who knows what I could do when I came back.
Its a good way to save money. Meet people in the industry. Get better jobs. Some dudes clear $50-60k working 6 months a year.
I could be a skydiver instructor in my spare time. Live in Latin Countries. If I can only make it through a few months of hell a year
I have done all the dissociative I have that even remotely resemble mxe (whether because they were made their own drug, or the 2015-2016 shit storm that was “mxe”. Hahaha so many bags I have no clue what they were.
I got so depressed this summer I did my last 5.5g stash cuz…. Well better do it than dead.
Bout at the same point Found ~600mg of the purest crystaly shardishness…. I thinnk I’m going to take 100-120mg by itself.. I kind really wanna add some 2cc or 2cd, and I might. I just want the emptiness of the whole adding some 2cc could color it and guide it in a positive setting tho… hrm.
Its… just like I have plans If I have to, I can get a job in my city But its TIME TO GET THE FUCK OUT for me ya dig? I gotta try shit. I gotta live life. If I end up back here in 5 years well… then good. Cuz this is the closest Ive really felt to killing myself ever and I have to run from it.
Also been on Indeed and Craigslist applying to any temp/seasonal job in colorado, utah pnw etc. I’m gonna look out east too. But If I don’t find shit work here I’m getting into that Alaskan shit though. I gotta run. Have phone interview with some Utah resort guy tomorrow
I didn’t even go to my family for xmas Didn’t feel like fucing anything up. My mom was like just stop with the suicide threats I just said “if you had any clue, but fine. I’ll just stop talking about it. Askig for help. Then one day I’ll be dead and my note will be “fuck you”
I get that it sucks to hear about, but its cathartic for me If I think and talk about it I don’t do it. That’s why I just kept to myself this year.
Two bands I love just released new albums and they both RULE so stoked on old dude punk rock. New Hot Water Music and Iron Chic are great.
Oh well. Time to go plug 100mg mxe and 50mg2cc cuz maybe it will make me see the sparkle in line again. !
Man Im calling this fishery place In Alaska tomorrow. It’s a shit job of”processing” fish 12-18 hours a day ( there goes my vegetarianism). You basically apply and go to one of the 6-7 cities they interview in. I assume it’s pretty much just “bring your papers and you are hired” I dunno. Who the fuck would want to do that work? Its min wage which is 9.75 or so. With overtime its still not much. I’m just hoping I can do it, and actually make it. Being able to wake up and see the beauty that is Alaska everyday for four months. I buckskin hate the cold. SO much. That will put me out of my comfort zone who knows what I could do when I came back.
Its a good way to save money. Meet people in the industry. Get better jobs. Some dudes clear $50-60k working 6 months a year.
I could be a skydiver instructor in my spare time. Live in Latin Countries. If I can only make it through a few months of hell a year
I have done all the dissociative I have that even remotely resemble mxe (whether because they were made their own drug, or the 2015-2016 shit storm that was “mxe”. Hahaha so many bags I have no clue what they were.
I got so depressed this summer I did my last 5.5g stash cuz…. Well better do it than dead.
Bout at the same point Found ~600mg of the purest crystaly shardishness…. I thinnk I’m going to take 100-120mg by itself.. I kind really wanna add some 2cc or 2cd, and I might. I just want the emptiness of the whole adding some 2cc could color it and guide it in a positive setting tho… hrm.
Its… just like I have plans If I have to, I can get a job in my city But its TIME TO GET THE FUCK OUT for me ya dig? I gotta try shit. I gotta live life. If I end up back here in 5 years well… then good. Cuz this is the closest Ive really felt to killing myself ever and I have to run from it.
Also been on Indeed and Craigslist applying to any temp/seasonal job in colorado, utah pnw etc. I’m gonna look out east too. But If I don’t find shit work here I’m getting into that Alaskan shit though. I gotta run. Have phone interview with some Utah resort guy tomorrow
I didn’t even go to my family for xmas Didn’t feel like fucing anything up. My mom was like just stop with the suicide threats I just said “if you had any clue, but fine. I’ll just stop talking about it. Askig for help. Then one day I’ll be dead and my note will be “fuck you”
I get that it sucks to hear about, but its cathartic for me If I think and talk about it I don’t do it. That’s why I just kept to myself this year.
Two bands I love just released new albums and they both RULE so stoked on old dude punk rock. New Hot Water Music and Iron Chic are great.
Oh well. Time to go plug 100mg mxe and 50mg2cc cuz maybe it will make me see the sparkle in line again. !
Img_9999
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It's better to give up your life and re-start a new one somewhere else, than give up you life and become a corpse.
Keep on keeping on, man !
Keep on keeping on, man !
ShroomySatori
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Does anyone know why there is so much hate on Aleister Crowley?
I read a lovely romance / occult / esoteric/ poetic / lovely written book of his called Diary of a Drug Fiend. Written in amazing old English from the early 1900's. I really like how it is written so intelligently and in that old fashioned style. Perfect example of the idiom "don't judge a book by its cover" as there are subtle references to heroin and cocaine in the book, but it is not central to the plot at all. It is, more than anything, humorous to me. Just had a weird way of writing about that stuff it was funny. There are descriptions of the highs and it was in old Europe before they were illegal and demonized, but it isn't the point of the book. It is an account of his honeymoon, which involved a lot of use of those drugs as they were caught up in the exhilaration of love. Ended up in a dark place, and an old friend helped them find their will.
I hear things like "do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law" implying do whatever the fuck you want. It was very evident in the book that this is not what is being implied - rather the experience of finding one's purpose in life. It had a really benevolent nature; for a book with such a sad / morbid sounding title, it is a total gem. Maybe something like 2c-t-2 you wouldn't think would be that good and have the most profound experience ever from it. It is like the 2c-c of books to me. Just a chill read, but full of powerful meaning.
Seems to me like people demonized him because he liked to indulge in these delicacies of drugs. And in my opinion that bears no meaning on his character. I see myself as a good person, and have used those drugs too. He really didn't seem all that bad in Diary of a Drug Fiend in fact he seemed like an early 1900's dude who was a great pilot in the war and went on to have an inheritance, and was crazy about his wife and his romance, as well as naturally inclined towards drug use and mystical experiences.
Bear in mind I live in a bubble, I read this book as I thought it would be about heroin but it's really not. The sickness is only alluded to through beautiful poetry, for example. It does have a downward spiral to it, but everything turns out okay... better than okay really. It is a story of hope, and the logically sound method used to cure them I am sure could actually be used (but isn't to my knowledge).
I just don't see where the hate could come from. Was this dude just demonized for having a neutral stance on them and writing about hard drugs at the worst possible time (when they were on the verge of becoming illegal)... or did he actually get fucked up and start killing shit. I have no idea but I do not see this in his writing. I see a romantic, a natural inquisitive, a hedonist, someone lost trying to find their way. So it's weird to me... bear in mind I don't pay attention to what is popular cult status and shit like that these days. I just stumbled across his first book and it turned out to be my favourite book ever. It really is wonderfully written, has a linear plot that is somehow non-linear and always goes off on interesting tangents and beautiful descriptions of landscapes or whatever is going on apart from the plot itself.
So why does every hate this baby eater. lol. I'd like to read more of his books, maybe the book of lies next. First I am reading Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace.
I am in withdrawal from oxy's today though I abused for a week. Somehow had two oxy prescriptions in one month for the same thing? Whatever. It always comes from the pharmacy and I have literally told them I am a drug addict and not to sell me but they go by the fucking computer system that's why it pisses me off like I see it coming and can't prevent the access. I'm getting my GP involved as being sick is shit. So before I do my reading today I am getting my new wireless headphones hooked up to my phone and going for a nice walk in the sun and the snow! I refuse to let the physical feelings fuck with my enjoyment of life, it's just too short!
I read a lovely romance / occult / esoteric/ poetic / lovely written book of his called Diary of a Drug Fiend. Written in amazing old English from the early 1900's. I really like how it is written so intelligently and in that old fashioned style. Perfect example of the idiom "don't judge a book by its cover" as there are subtle references to heroin and cocaine in the book, but it is not central to the plot at all. It is, more than anything, humorous to me. Just had a weird way of writing about that stuff it was funny. There are descriptions of the highs and it was in old Europe before they were illegal and demonized, but it isn't the point of the book. It is an account of his honeymoon, which involved a lot of use of those drugs as they were caught up in the exhilaration of love. Ended up in a dark place, and an old friend helped them find their will.
I hear things like "do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law" implying do whatever the fuck you want. It was very evident in the book that this is not what is being implied - rather the experience of finding one's purpose in life. It had a really benevolent nature; for a book with such a sad / morbid sounding title, it is a total gem. Maybe something like 2c-t-2 you wouldn't think would be that good and have the most profound experience ever from it. It is like the 2c-c of books to me. Just a chill read, but full of powerful meaning.
Seems to me like people demonized him because he liked to indulge in these delicacies of drugs. And in my opinion that bears no meaning on his character. I see myself as a good person, and have used those drugs too. He really didn't seem all that bad in Diary of a Drug Fiend in fact he seemed like an early 1900's dude who was a great pilot in the war and went on to have an inheritance, and was crazy about his wife and his romance, as well as naturally inclined towards drug use and mystical experiences.
Bear in mind I live in a bubble, I read this book as I thought it would be about heroin but it's really not. The sickness is only alluded to through beautiful poetry, for example. It does have a downward spiral to it, but everything turns out okay... better than okay really. It is a story of hope, and the logically sound method used to cure them I am sure could actually be used (but isn't to my knowledge).
I just don't see where the hate could come from. Was this dude just demonized for having a neutral stance on them and writing about hard drugs at the worst possible time (when they were on the verge of becoming illegal)... or did he actually get fucked up and start killing shit. I have no idea but I do not see this in his writing. I see a romantic, a natural inquisitive, a hedonist, someone lost trying to find their way. So it's weird to me... bear in mind I don't pay attention to what is popular cult status and shit like that these days. I just stumbled across his first book and it turned out to be my favourite book ever. It really is wonderfully written, has a linear plot that is somehow non-linear and always goes off on interesting tangents and beautiful descriptions of landscapes or whatever is going on apart from the plot itself.
So why does every hate this baby eater. lol. I'd like to read more of his books, maybe the book of lies next. First I am reading Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace.
I am in withdrawal from oxy's today though I abused for a week. Somehow had two oxy prescriptions in one month for the same thing? Whatever. It always comes from the pharmacy and I have literally told them I am a drug addict and not to sell me but they go by the fucking computer system that's why it pisses me off like I see it coming and can't prevent the access. I'm getting my GP involved as being sick is shit. So before I do my reading today I am getting my new wireless headphones hooked up to my phone and going for a nice walk in the sun and the snow! I refuse to let the physical feelings fuck with my enjoyment of life, it's just too short!
tokezu
Bluelighter
IMO Crowleys bad reputation is mostly due to demonization. But what do you expect when you call yourself The Great Beast 666? 
I think when you read him it's pretty clear that all the "satanic" stuff is just him wanting to get a rise out of the church. And the will being more something like your purpose in life is an important point, because a lot of people misunderstand "do what thou wilt" that way.
I think when you read him it's pretty clear that all the "satanic" stuff is just him wanting to get a rise out of the church. And the will being more something like your purpose in life is an important point, because a lot of people misunderstand "do what thou wilt" that way.
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swilow
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I'm quite a fan of Crowley. I used to be quite into Thelema, went to a number OTO ceremonies. I really enjoyed the theater of it but I found some of the beliefs clashed with my own atheistic views, plus I got clean. I haven't had much to do with them in years though my older brother is still into occultism more in the chaos magick side though.
I always liked the way Crowley wrote. The Book of the Law is something of a classic.
I always liked the way Crowley wrote. The Book of the Law is something of a classic.
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
The one I have read is called Diary of a Drug Fiend, and it is a masterpiece. Really, a work of art. I love his writing style, I should check out The Book of Law.
I have read The Book of Lies. That is some trippy stuff.
My cousin's husband is crazy against him, said he was all for human and animal ritualistic sacrifice but how would he know? Crowley was probably stirring up shit for fun.
That book I read makes him out to be a romantic and a hedonist who likes to waste a lot of time and enjoy life, while going off on mystical tangents and is on a journey like any of us trippers are. My friend is just so not convinced, he hates Crowley. I'm like dude... that book was about romance and hedonism. He seems to have been demonized for having a non-chalant outlook on cocaine and heroin use while they were being demonized and made illegal. So of course they make him out to be a baby killer. It was a really positive natured book and I could sense the love he had for his wife on his honeymoon. It overpowered the H and the snow, so that they were only really mentioned in passing until it was time for the cure. And the cure was very unconventional, nothing I had heard of before. Even when he was writing about things that would be considered undesirable or negative, it was somehow always in a positive light. Had no idea he was getting so much hate, I loved the book I read it is my favourite love story and there was nothing to indicate he was messed up in any way. Seemed really intelligent, albeit a bit of a degenerate lol.
I was dumb enough to abuse oxycodone pills to the point that I will be sick for the next few days. I made a pact with myself, that I would not let the physical discomfort inhibit my enjoyment of life. I went for a lovely walk today in the snow, chatted with my cousin's husband all day, and then when things really got bad tonight instead of kicking around in bed I went to the mall and got some tea and walked around for an hour. I think I am dealing with it well considering that the degree of sickness is rather an abomination. I am going to stay up and read Infinite Jest before early morning work in a few hours.
I have read The Book of Lies. That is some trippy stuff.
My cousin's husband is crazy against him, said he was all for human and animal ritualistic sacrifice but how would he know? Crowley was probably stirring up shit for fun.
That book I read makes him out to be a romantic and a hedonist who likes to waste a lot of time and enjoy life, while going off on mystical tangents and is on a journey like any of us trippers are. My friend is just so not convinced, he hates Crowley. I'm like dude... that book was about romance and hedonism. He seems to have been demonized for having a non-chalant outlook on cocaine and heroin use while they were being demonized and made illegal. So of course they make him out to be a baby killer. It was a really positive natured book and I could sense the love he had for his wife on his honeymoon. It overpowered the H and the snow, so that they were only really mentioned in passing until it was time for the cure. And the cure was very unconventional, nothing I had heard of before. Even when he was writing about things that would be considered undesirable or negative, it was somehow always in a positive light. Had no idea he was getting so much hate, I loved the book I read it is my favourite love story and there was nothing to indicate he was messed up in any way. Seemed really intelligent, albeit a bit of a degenerate lol.
I was dumb enough to abuse oxycodone pills to the point that I will be sick for the next few days. I made a pact with myself, that I would not let the physical discomfort inhibit my enjoyment of life. I went for a lovely walk today in the snow, chatted with my cousin's husband all day, and then when things really got bad tonight instead of kicking around in bed I went to the mall and got some tea and walked around for an hour. I think I am dealing with it well considering that the degree of sickness is rather an abomination. I am going to stay up and read Infinite Jest before early morning work in a few hours.
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
Hey friends, I slept through my alarm today... well I didn't sleep through it. I'm just dumb enough to use my phone as an alarm so I plan on getting a nice non-digital clock today with maybe a backup. I mean, if my alarm malfunctions I'm not going to randomly wake up at 3:30am and I've been trying to sleep instead of staying up all night.
My boss was infuriated which really isn't chill, I mean it just wasn't my fault in my view. I feel like I am going to be fired irrationally over this. The other colleagues are away on vacation and I am taking on a lot of hours and this was my first shift. I have been working here for over a month like they know I'm reliable it was just the worst possible time.
I'm so stressed I am almost in tears and I took 20mg etizolam to calm myself down because my boss is simply leaving me hanging for 2 hours and told me not to explain myself. The people we worked with were calling him at like 3:30 or 4am and he was pissed but what the fuck fault is that if a piece of technology malfunctions.
And to make matters worse I am in oxycodone withdrawal this is just the second day. It was not affecting my life I was refusing it to. I had a great day yesterday, went for a 2 hour walk, talked to family, and went out to the mall with a gift card for some healthy detox stuff. I wasn't laying in bed oxycodone sick since I had only been using for 8 days out of 10 after a long time off. Nevertheless, I feel like complete shit but that is not why I missed the shift. I missed the shift due to a random error, I'd compare it to calling in sick. They didn't have anyone to back up for me as everyone is on vacation but that is simply a poor business practice.
Do I really want to work someone who doesn't reassure me when I am extremely stressed over this and sincerely apologizing like I did first thing this morning? Instead, has me hanging to the point that I have to take THAT much etizolam or feel the need to because I'd like to show no emotion if I am fired. This would be devastating to me it's my first job after getting clean. I don't know how much of this is in mine or my manager's control either because I know that he likes me.
Anyways if anyone reads this in the next 50 minutes I could use some protective blessings. I don't know what to do. I am so scared I really like this job and have been doing great. Really bad luck and I am worried I will relapse yet again if I get fired. I could probably get an early release on a script but that's the last thing I should ever do right now. It's just this would be devastating for me. It is the foundation of the structure built on the way I have transferred since stopping abusing heroin and oxycodone all day every day for years What I just had was a holiday high slip, it wasn't going to last long enough to make me not fit to work. I was fine to work a little sick. This totally fucking blows I'm really upset because the entire team seems to be blaming me and I feel like it wasn't my fault at all. I was excited to work! I hadn't in a few days and I love the job.
My boss was infuriated which really isn't chill, I mean it just wasn't my fault in my view. I feel like I am going to be fired irrationally over this. The other colleagues are away on vacation and I am taking on a lot of hours and this was my first shift. I have been working here for over a month like they know I'm reliable it was just the worst possible time.
I'm so stressed I am almost in tears and I took 20mg etizolam to calm myself down because my boss is simply leaving me hanging for 2 hours and told me not to explain myself. The people we worked with were calling him at like 3:30 or 4am and he was pissed but what the fuck fault is that if a piece of technology malfunctions.
And to make matters worse I am in oxycodone withdrawal this is just the second day. It was not affecting my life I was refusing it to. I had a great day yesterday, went for a 2 hour walk, talked to family, and went out to the mall with a gift card for some healthy detox stuff. I wasn't laying in bed oxycodone sick since I had only been using for 8 days out of 10 after a long time off. Nevertheless, I feel like complete shit but that is not why I missed the shift. I missed the shift due to a random error, I'd compare it to calling in sick. They didn't have anyone to back up for me as everyone is on vacation but that is simply a poor business practice.
Do I really want to work someone who doesn't reassure me when I am extremely stressed over this and sincerely apologizing like I did first thing this morning? Instead, has me hanging to the point that I have to take THAT much etizolam or feel the need to because I'd like to show no emotion if I am fired. This would be devastating to me it's my first job after getting clean. I don't know how much of this is in mine or my manager's control either because I know that he likes me.
Anyways if anyone reads this in the next 50 minutes I could use some protective blessings. I don't know what to do. I am so scared I really like this job and have been doing great. Really bad luck and I am worried I will relapse yet again if I get fired. I could probably get an early release on a script but that's the last thing I should ever do right now. It's just this would be devastating for me. It is the foundation of the structure built on the way I have transferred since stopping abusing heroin and oxycodone all day every day for years What I just had was a holiday high slip, it wasn't going to last long enough to make me not fit to work. I was fine to work a little sick. This totally fucking blows I'm really upset because the entire team seems to be blaming me and I feel like it wasn't my fault at all. I was excited to work! I hadn't in a few days and I love the job.
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
Railing some 2c-d for spiritual protection. Smoking a joint to mellow out with my etiz. Me and my family members prayed to my guardian angel medallion on my wrist (I blessed the entity most dear to me to inhabit it and embrace her as my guide and protector).
Anyways, I am tripping out now and really nervous about this. It's my first job after getting "for the most part" clean and it's been going really well and I am proud of myself. To lose it over what I see as an injustice would devastate me. I would feel the desire to escape, and I don't have a proclivity for alcohol or cocaine. I have a tendency to get that oxycodone into me and since I haven't been picking up my scripts pretty sure I could get an early release.
Anyways I can't accept that I am fired yet. I just sense that this is how they feel about me having an alarm function.
"If you ain't got no loyalty, then I ain't got respect"
Anyways, I am tripping out now and really nervous about this. It's my first job after getting "for the most part" clean and it's been going really well and I am proud of myself. To lose it over what I see as an injustice would devastate me. I would feel the desire to escape, and I don't have a proclivity for alcohol or cocaine. I have a tendency to get that oxycodone into me and since I haven't been picking up my scripts pretty sure I could get an early release.
Anyways I can't accept that I am fired yet. I just sense that this is how they feel about me having an alarm function.
"If you ain't got no loyalty, then I ain't got respect"
Runningfox
Bluelighter
I really hope they dont fire you over this alarm malfunction. If they do --- PLEASE don't let that be an excuse to abuse the body that's working so hard for YOU : you said some quote about loyalty. Be loyal to your body even when life screws you over.
Sending good vibes n hope upon hope....
Sending good vibes n hope upon hope....
Bagseed
Bluelighter
happy holidays, PD! I hope you all have a nice time, as I had recently. now I will need to dedicate two days for doing uni work before heading into the mountains to spend new years eve on the farm of a friend. good times ahead. only thing is that my mushrooms grow hasn't been finished yet, like it was supposed to. but well, I will compensate with decent amounts of weed (only was going to eat a small dose anyway)..
Also, are any Bass guitar players here? after a short go with the bass as a teenager, which lasted not for long, I am back at it, because my girlfriend borrowed me her old one she wasn't using anymore. I am looking for rather easy songs to practice, allthough I am not completely new at making music, having experience with electronic music, keyboards (more as a production tool than as an instrument) and more recently learning a bit of ukulele.
right now I am practicing Pink Floyd's Money, which is actually not so hard to learn. anything else out there in that kind of complexity. stoner rock, psychedelic, progressive, whatever... thanks
Also, are any Bass guitar players here? after a short go with the bass as a teenager, which lasted not for long, I am back at it, because my girlfriend borrowed me her old one she wasn't using anymore. I am looking for rather easy songs to practice, allthough I am not completely new at making music, having experience with electronic music, keyboards (more as a production tool than as an instrument) and more recently learning a bit of ukulele.
right now I am practicing Pink Floyd's Money, which is actually not so hard to learn. anything else out there in that kind of complexity. stoner rock, psychedelic, progressive, whatever... thanks
blistersinthedark
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Lemmy era Hawkwind? lol
swilow
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How'd you go?
yepyepwoah
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Ive got a rooomie in colorado but original job is taking too long. he said he could get me a job $14hr w/ OT but they ain't responsding. when you in a hurry a few hours fees like hell
yepyepwoah
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I've been firrsd.from.six jobs.get over yourself. You sound like a needy junkie
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
I have been fired a lot too, but this time would have been inappropriate it wasn't really my fault. It was for the lowest paying / easiest job to get I woulda been fired from but it would have stung the worst.
I didn't get fired (although, many people wanted me to be just not my boss), and I negotiated the keeping of my pink peony hair. I'm not cutting that best thing I ever did to my head
Messed myself up pretty bad with oxy's this was the second day off them and I feel like trash really. Awful. Had a nice day though, spent a lot of time at a health food store learning about nutrition since getting healthy again asap is important. Got responsibilities n shit can't really get away with feeling this awful. This really wasn't worth being high for a week, sometimes she goes sometimes she doesn't.
Been exercising as much as I can, heading to the mall to fly around on a little 2c-d and forget about this shit. I don't know if that was directed at me... lol, if that was directed at me. I got over myself a long time ago. Wouldn't see much difference if I was alive or dead and I am not really a junkie anymore got high as fuck for the holidays stupid mistake.
I didn't get fired (although, many people wanted me to be just not my boss), and I negotiated the keeping of my pink peony hair. I'm not cutting that best thing I ever did to my head
Messed myself up pretty bad with oxy's this was the second day off them and I feel like trash really. Awful. Had a nice day though, spent a lot of time at a health food store learning about nutrition since getting healthy again asap is important. Got responsibilities n shit can't really get away with feeling this awful. This really wasn't worth being high for a week, sometimes she goes sometimes she doesn't.
Been exercising as much as I can, heading to the mall to fly around on a little 2c-d and forget about this shit. I don't know if that was directed at me... lol, if that was directed at me. I got over myself a long time ago. Wouldn't see much difference if I was alive or dead and I am not really a junkie anymore got high as fuck for the holidays stupid mistake.
Runningfox
Bluelighter
I for one would see and feel a Hell of a difference if you were dead, Shroomy.
Take better care of yourself n you'll become a man you're proud to be.
Take better care of yourself n you'll become a man you're proud to be.
ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
I am already proud of who I am. I could die today and feel super accomplished as I feel I have made up for the error of my ways and become a more compassionate person, even if I still have a disaster to clean up. I am aware of the impermanence of existence though. Nice to have friends like you who would care I have lots but everyone dies or there would be no life : )
I have been becoming that person since I stopped abusing that shit perpetually. Just chronically relapsing every month or two now with oxy scripts, never long enough to truly get very sick although I feel like a million little ants are eating away at the bones in my upper arms at the moment. Nothing like heroin withdrawal was though, and not letting this affect my enjoyment of the remaining holiday season. I was very high for the holidays so that is what happens. I already almost got fired as I'm not really myself and can't keep track of shit, it's hard to function sick. Much easier high until the shit is kicked.
Walking is a great comfort, getting outdoors in nature even in -30C weather is essential. I'll rail some 2c-d and go to the mall and roam free like it is a playground. Really fun place to trip and bring a few joints for the parking lot. I learned about fatty and amino acids today since I was sick, and spent hours at the health food store talking with the owner I know well, she was telling me a lot of good stuff about health. Wrote down an extensive list of topics to research but seem to have misplaced it.
I got a plant based omega-3 fatty acid supplant (for EPA and DHA fatty acid chains). Now i just just research ALA, another important omega-3 fatty acid that the body uses to produce EPA and DHA (the 3 has to do with where the carbon double bonds are or something like that). I decided to get it as I am pretty much a vegetarian and figured I'd save some fish and pay more for microalgae (I think). Didn't realize how much better the liquid would taste, there is always that nasty undertone to fish oil and it can be strange to digest. This stuff is rad man, just expensive so I am stocking up on another bottle while it is on sale this month. Just gotta research the other omegas now like Omega 9 (I think flax seed oil has that one, not sure), and 5 and 6 and who knows. There are so many chemical constituents too (DHA, ALA and EPA are not the only omega-3 fatty acids there are a few more that are different chemicals, it is just a category). All this stuff is tripping me out cause I'm like wtf about how I owe it to myself to research all this and treat my body the best way I can. Especially with all that opiate abuse to make up for. and what all these things do in the body and how I can enhance them by coming them with other foods and nutrients. Got nutritional yeast for B vitamins that stuff is great too and a cheap source for that. I can't really eat much in withdrawal so I am trying to be good to myself and I may as well study nutrition as it is fascinating.
Would love to try coca tea sometime.
I have been becoming that person since I stopped abusing that shit perpetually. Just chronically relapsing every month or two now with oxy scripts, never long enough to truly get very sick although I feel like a million little ants are eating away at the bones in my upper arms at the moment. Nothing like heroin withdrawal was though, and not letting this affect my enjoyment of the remaining holiday season. I was very high for the holidays so that is what happens. I already almost got fired as I'm not really myself and can't keep track of shit, it's hard to function sick. Much easier high until the shit is kicked.
Walking is a great comfort, getting outdoors in nature even in -30C weather is essential. I'll rail some 2c-d and go to the mall and roam free like it is a playground. Really fun place to trip and bring a few joints for the parking lot. I learned about fatty and amino acids today since I was sick, and spent hours at the health food store talking with the owner I know well, she was telling me a lot of good stuff about health. Wrote down an extensive list of topics to research but seem to have misplaced it.
I got a plant based omega-3 fatty acid supplant (for EPA and DHA fatty acid chains). Now i just just research ALA, another important omega-3 fatty acid that the body uses to produce EPA and DHA (the 3 has to do with where the carbon double bonds are or something like that). I decided to get it as I am pretty much a vegetarian and figured I'd save some fish and pay more for microalgae (I think). Didn't realize how much better the liquid would taste, there is always that nasty undertone to fish oil and it can be strange to digest. This stuff is rad man, just expensive so I am stocking up on another bottle while it is on sale this month. Just gotta research the other omegas now like Omega 9 (I think flax seed oil has that one, not sure), and 5 and 6 and who knows. There are so many chemical constituents too (DHA, ALA and EPA are not the only omega-3 fatty acids there are a few more that are different chemicals, it is just a category). All this stuff is tripping me out cause I'm like wtf about how I owe it to myself to research all this and treat my body the best way I can. Especially with all that opiate abuse to make up for. and what all these things do in the body and how I can enhance them by coming them with other foods and nutrients. Got nutritional yeast for B vitamins that stuff is great too and a cheap source for that. I can't really eat much in withdrawal so I am trying to be good to myself and I may as well study nutrition as it is fascinating.
Would love to try coca tea sometime.
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