☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: Firly Swolks Discussing Mitillating Tatters Fithout Wilters

[Bagseed]

first lecture of the semester for me this morning... it's 7:45 am and I drink coffee to prepare. condensed matter physics and statistical thermodynamics though x)

 

[Xorkoth]

Ah yes, I remember Swillow being quite pleased with your nipples. I don't disagree with him, they're lovely nips.

You, sir, are a gentleman and a scholar.

 

[psy997]

Honestly I think I just want to feel that I'm spending each day fulfilling my potential to make a positive impact on the people around me. I work for a company that relies on sleazy sales tactics to generate all its revenue, which is the polar opposite of making a positive impact on society.

What would you say is most important to you? Actually I'd like to hear anybody's answer to that question.

I'd say what's most important to me is my spirituality, specifically reaching the point that I can enter into the Samadhi state at any point I wish, which then comes with always residing in it, even if not in meditation. Autobiography of a Yogi has completely changed my expectations for what spirituality is and what my role is in all of this. I want to be at peace and in connection with "God" in every moment, to never need comfort besides it. With that coming being around others with the same goals, living in conscious and aware ways ala environmentally and animal friendly habits, learning healing arts such as massage, sound healing, etc., and just being able to be there for anyone who may need comfort and support at any moment. Always having light to shine into the world and never needing to take any from others, etc etc.

That's not very normal though.

 

[Solipsis]

I figured out that turning any movie into a Woody Allen movie is to play it via your PC and accidentally leave the program F.Lux on, which by the way I highly recommend if you don't want to get insomnia.

Today featuring the - very blackmetal - beer Grolsch, and look at these dope bottles

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so nice for filling with your own stuffs

i can really use it, work was stressful - artists are having open studios, a massive exhibition in the academy, so leading up to it they need all sorts of furniture / object shit built to help make their setup. They apparently like to be last minute to gang up on you later. And i feel much more ignored than I like to be... some of them open-hearted but other apparently need to be won over. Fortunately not really snobbiness.. Skipped lunch and overworked.. well 2 days ago started out after the previous days I drank half a bottle of scotch each..

Just had a pretty bad week after I stopped my dexamph and far too much grinded to a halt.. was in a bad place.. But I got a lot to be thankful for and happy about Am okay now

some work from earlier to get a picture by the way, and after that, a work by my main colleague!

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Also I'm loving this thing Metaphysical Art that I'm reading about, like proto-surrealism and well with the metaphysical element I am just SOLD!!

Carlo Carrà :D

And by the way also have nice art/cartoon and design ideas and projects in the pipeline, some of them pretty psychedelic woooh

OK so maybe i don't have *real* problems now, but I have had enough of them the past 5 or more years...

Ever heard of this material called VantaBlack? It's made from carbon nanotubes and it catches 99,99% of light so it looks so dark that it's like only second to a black hole... mostly for the military, but I wondered today whether it would be very interesting to use in art, but unfortunately someone thought of that 2 years ago, and conspired to get a monopoly on it via a patent, which is a really crazy thing to do for a color (or an art material)..

Imagine if there would also be materials that give off (biologically regulated) colors the same way, that always give off the same light... you could make a theater play look like a cartoon :D

And I thought like: if you would make a wood cabin with two segments with two doors and you divide with this foil the same as I used, the one-way mirror. Those are - i find this very interesting - not a mirror that only works from one side constantly, but a mirror or transparent dependent on which side is the most light on: the effect with a very consistent partial opacity.

So with that cabin split by such a "mirror" with one light on on only one of both sides, which switches every minute or x seconds.... so people would come in and out of these rooms and see someone else, who I might add is 'forced' to sit down on a tiny stool that makes them look ridiculous. With other - sometimes subtle - modifications made to 'appliances' that makes them look weird to the other spectator before the roles turn without them ever seeing each other, or just a glimpse.
That would sound like an exhibition installation to me..

 

[TheAppleCore]

I'd say what's most important to me is my spirituality, specifically reaching the point that I can enter into the Samadhi state at any point I wish, which then comes with always residing in it, even if not in meditation. Autobiography of a Yogi has completely changed my expectations for what spirituality is and what my role is in all of this. I want to be at peace and in connection with "God" in every moment, to never need comfort besides it. With that coming being around others with the same goals, living in conscious and aware ways ala environmentally and animal friendly habits, learning healing arts such as massage, sound healing, etc., and just being able to be there for anyone who may need comfort and support at any moment. Always having light to shine into the world and never needing to take any from others, etc etc.

That's not very normal though.

It's not very normal to be so acutely aware of it, and capable of expressing it so clearly, but actually I think we all want the same thing, really. Great answer. The only amendment I would make for myself is that I'm more concerned with giving others that experience than having it for myself. Enlightenment would feel too lonely if it were self-contained. Although I think you already implied this a bit.

I figured out that turning any movie into a Woody Allen movie is to play it via your PC and accidentally leave the program F.Lux on, which by the way I highly recommend if you don't want to get insomnia.

I'm totally going to try that program.

 

[psy997]

It's not very normal to be so acutely aware of it, and capable of expressing it so clearly, but actually I think we all want the same thing, really. Great answer. The only amendment I would make for myself is that I'm more concerned with giving others that experience than having it for myself. Enlightenment would feel too lonely if it were self-contained. Although I think you already implied this a bit.



I'm totally going to try that program.

Ah yes, completely. I'm a bit too self-centered if I'm being honest, although if that's a bad thing in this context remains to be seen. As said on every airline, "please fasten your own mask before helping those around you"

And if you're on Android there's a similar program for it to, CF.lumen.

 

[Solipsis]

"please fasten your own mask before helping those around you"

Kim-yong Nam

...

 

[swilow]

Ah yes, I remember Swillow being quite pleased with your nipples. I don't disagree with him, they're lovely nips.

Gorgeous.

 

[TheAppleCore]

As said on every airline, "please fasten your own mask before helping those around you"

That's very apt; you can't help others discover themselves before you've discovered yourself. They say the same thing about love. You know the saying.

I would consider myself on the self-centered end of the spectrum too; I don't want to give the impression that I'm a super extroverted or empathic person.

 

[Bagseed]

I just realized that I'm going to see tycho play live this monday. yeeeeeah

 

[Delsyd]

So after 10 years of being together my wife and I are getting divorced. The thought has crossed my mind before and a lot more frequently over the last year or two until it came to a boiling point 1 week ago. I'm kind of surprised by how I feel, I'm feeling a great sense of relief instead the sadness I expected. The hardest part will be leaving my dogs, who are the loves of my life, but I plan to visit them semi often and remain friends with my ex. We still have a lot of mutual friends and frequent the same places around town so it's best to be friends to avoid any sort awkwardness. I can't wait to move out on my own and be independent for the first time ever.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

So after 10 years of being together my wife and I are getting divorced. The thought has crossed my mind before and a lot more frequently over the last year or two until it came to a boiling point 1 week ago. I'm kind of surprised by how I feel, I'm feeling a great sense of relief instead the sadness I expected. The hardest part will be leaving my dogs, who are the loves of my life, but I plan to visit them semi often and remain friends with my ex. We still have a lot of mutual friends and frequent the same places around town so it's best to be friends to avoid any sort awkwardness. I can't wait to move out on my own and be independent for the first time ever.

I'm sorry to hear that man, what was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back?

 

[Solipsis]

Sorry to hear that, delsyd. I can't imagine it has been easy, how long since things went awry?

 

[TheAppleCore]

I'm kind of surprised by how I feel, I'm feeling a great sense of relief instead the sadness I expected.

That's how you know it's the right move.

 

[Xorkoth]

Yeah it's definitely the right move... IMO, as the guy who married them. Delsyd will be just fine, just fine.

He also just drove over to jump my car for me, what a guy.

Unfortunately, right after that it died while I was driving it. Must be that the alternator is fucked. Some nice guys saw right away that I was stranded in the left lane of the road, and came and pushed me into a parking spot and then one of them gave me a ride home. Now I'm not sure how I'm going to get to my car, get it to the shop, and get home again tomorrow. My girl has been out of work for months, ironically, tomorrow is her first day at her new job. Though she might have told me she doesn't start til 2... maybe she can come over tonight and we can do that. I was supposed to go to hang out and play music and stuff tonight, can't now. I hate car troubles. On the other hand I guess I've had this car since 2007 and never had to replace the alternator.

 

[Delsyd]

I'm sorry to hear that man, what was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back?

It was lots of different things built over many years but what made me say it was walking in on her shooting 3meopcp. The problem was her lying to me about it, both using it and using needles. I had asked and accused her of it before catching her on numerous occasions. I'm no fool to this sort of lying because I used to do it to her years ago and it caused problems then so it was easy to spot. I have been cutting down on my use of drugs and dissociatives especially and she agreed to the same without holding up her end of the deal. Besides that over time I grew less attracted to her as she became lazy and gained a good bit of weight, especially since starting to use benzos pretty heavily for the last 3 years. Her lying about other things, me feeling embarrassed by things she would say and do especially when fucked up.
And since my last post, to try to hurt me, she told me she slept with 4 people while we were together and 1 of them being my friend, though she won't tell me who or when. That certainly hurt a lot, I almost felt dissociatived and had to lay down because I felt this weird buzzing energy and was overwhelmed by emotion, I was only high on weed though. But still I bounced back within a few hours and a couple of beers and I'm back to feeling better. Her saying that only reinforces my feelings about breaking up with her being the right move.
End rant, love you PD fam

 

[Xorkoth]

Oh shit... That was a dick move of her. Sorry dude. But yes, it does certainly prove the point that it's better this way.

Times, they are a changin'...

 

[pharmakos]

Best wishes delsyd.

 

[swilow]

So after 10 years of being together my wife and I are getting divorced. The thought has crossed my mind before and a lot more frequently over the last year or two until it came to a boiling point 1 week ago. I'm kind of surprised by how I feel, I'm feeling a great sense of relief instead the sadness I expected. The hardest part will be leaving my dogs, who are the loves of my life, but I plan to visit them semi often and remain friends with my ex. We still have a lot of mutual friends and frequent the same places around town so it's best to be friends to avoid any sort awkwardness. I can't wait to move out on my own and be independent for the first time ever.

Sorry to hear that del but I'm pleased that you feel positive about it. Reason is totally valid.

Onwards/upwards/sideways.

Hope E is okay too.

Yeah it's definitely the right move... IMO, as the guy who married them. Delsyd will be just fine, just fine.

He also just drove over to jump my car for me, what a guy.

Unfortunately, right after that it died while I was driving it. Must be that the alternator is fucked. Some nice guys saw right away that I was stranded in the left lane of the road, and came and pushed me into a parking spot and then one of them gave me a ride home. Now I'm not sure how I'm going to get to my car, get it to the shop, and get home again tomorrow. My girl has been out of work for months, ironically, tomorrow is her first day at her new job. Though she might have told me she doesn't start til 2... maybe she can come over tonight and we can do that. I was supposed to go to hang out and play music and stuff tonight, can't now. I hate car troubles. On the other hand I guess I've had this car since 2007 and never had to replace the alternator.

Weirdly, my car did the same thing yesterday. Had to jump start it which got it going but then it conked out whilst driving.

In my case, I had loosened the battery to clean the terminals and didn't retighten. oops.

But hey, check to see if your battery is still attached! :D vital for car functioning.

 

[psy997]

Funny about car batteries dying today. The battery in my electronic key finally went out today as well, leaving me to take a bike ride to the nearest store with CR1632 batteries. I know compared to an alternator it's nothing but those things were $4.48 each!

Delsyd, we don't know each other really, but I do know lying about usage, and I know the pain associated with both ends. You have my wishes and hopes for the best. And again, not that it's the same as an ending marriage, but I'm really letting go of my last relationship tonight. So here's to bigger and better things, growing past our at one time loves to be limitations.