Fucking great. I took 150ug of AL-LAD and 100ug of ETH-LAD. Went with my girl and her really close college friend who just moved here. Super cool girl. They almost did some LSD, but decided against it. When we got there we went to a costume tent and I found a headdress that was SO AWESOME... it was just strips of clothing hanging from a knotted ring of cloth. At night it was blacklight responsive though. I enjoyed it so much and got so many compliments that I'm gonna make one for music festivals.
The music was great, I felt 100% free and uninhibited, danced my ass off, so did my girl for about half of it. Really good music, it was local so not like as technically high quality as you'd find at an actual music festival but it was great, the last band jammed the fuck out, they played covers of 60s and 70s rock songs but really went to town with jam sections and stuff.
Basically it's an "intentional community" (meaning not an official town and they organize themselves on some shared land in the mountains, but they all have houses and shit, they live pretty "normal" lives) that's been around for a long time, a collection about about 40 families of hippies. So there is tons of love there. My girl has known some of them since she was a child and so she's kind of a part of their community though she's never lived there. I felt so accepted there, it was really beautiful. The kids and some of the adults put on a play with giant puppets that was hilarious, it was basically about becoming the river, meaning consciousness, and you already have what you need.
Man, yeah, it was awesome, loved it.
Ah Yes, the infamous e-mail from the Erowid report "Into the Flood"! :D I still think of that when I need a good chuckle (which I can use lately; I feel so friggin' down sometimes)
That, and the "Into the Rabbit Hole: Beauty and Terror" one ("TOTOTOTOTOTOTO FAR!")
The fact that you are (normally) such an el
Haha, yeah. The ibogaine email is the best (now it is, I was pretty fucking embarrassed).
Back in the day when I wrote the 2C-E report I wasn't as good at writing IMO, but I would often leave my unedited notes there. Man that was a HELL of a trip. So beautiful and terrifying.
finally out of the hospital after my three week stay. won't know for a bit if the chemo worked this time. this high-dose stuff was a doozy tho. lost most of my hearing in my right ear and some of my hearing in my left ear from it. doctors say it might come back or it might not, just gotta wait and see. really glad to be home tho.
the doctors said they want me to do this high-dose treatment twice, even tho the research shows that twice is no more effective than once. i've decided that i'm done with treatments, tho, no matter whether this one worked or not. i'm just too tired of chemotherapy. the side-effects are awful. if it worked this time, then wonderful. if it didn't, then i'm just going to focus on making the rest of my life as comfortable as possible.
hopefully it worked, tho. prayers and whatnot if you guys believe in those.
Jesus man, that's so crazy. I hope so much that it worked. I think of you often. I'll try to send all the best energy to you that I can.
