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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: Firly Swolks Discussing Mitillating Tatters Fithout Wilters

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Yeah, same. Isn't that fucked? When I visited this friend, we smoked meth all night the first night and talked, talked, talked. It was really fucking fun, and I knocked myself out at dawn with some etizolam and didn't do more. I didn't realize for sure he had a problem until every day he was doing it (I only did it the one time even though I wanted to more). But for like 6 months after that I'd have dreams about trying to do meth, even though I haven't since then. Pretty powerful pull there...
 
Whenever I dream about drugs I am always very excited about having them in my posession, but I never end up actually using them.

Looks like I finally have the possibility to give 2C-B another try. =D I did it like 10 years ago or something like that, but it was dosed pretty low and never really developed into anything really, though what little I felt definitely seemed promising, and it had evaded me ever since.
 
Yeah me too! I'm either about to do them and never get to it, or I'm trying to get them and things keep stopping me. It's really annoying!

Except this one time I got "meth" in a dream that was actually these crystals scraped off of the stem of a dried plant, and actually did it and felt this stimulation which then woke me up. And another time I took 7 hits of acid in a dream and things got pretty weird, it wasn't like a real trip but it was sort of like one.
 
Well. 3-MeO-PCE seems to me the drug like God meant a drug to be.

Think Im going to vape next, on the off chance someone has been here before, any recommendations
 
I just noticed something in the past few months that made me very happy.

After years of battling multiple addictions (but only starting to get a handle on it in the past year or so), my drug dreams have suddenly just about disappeared... and when I do have them, they're usually negative.

I used to be plagued by "using" dreams every night, even during periods of sobriety. It made me so angry because I would have a good day, not think about drugs at all, then dream about them all night and wake up jonesin' my balls off. (obviously I still craved them, at least subconsciously)

It was usually a big bag of oxys or some other opioid, and I was always excited beyond belief. Sometimes in the dream, I would look closer and realize that they were really just something like m&m's, skittles or tums!

The last one that I had a few weeks ago, I found a large bag of the old olive green 30mg morphine sulfate tablets under a chair. I looked at it for a second, thought of the consequences, and looked for a bathroom to flush it. I woke up and thought, "Wow, I'm finally starting to get better!" :D

I am so glad that I never tried crystal meth. I was actually watching a documentary on it just last night that explained exactly what it does to the brain. It not only makes you release insane amounts of dopamine, but simultaneously damages the receptors so you that you can't manufacture, release or utilize as much of it in the future. Some long-term users say that even after years of being clean, they just can't "remember" how to feel happy anymore. It's a real shame.

Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer
 
I feel weird in that I can recall only two or three drug related dreams, ever. It's not like I'm not into drugs, I mean... I mod on a drug forum :| maybe it's just because weed has been eradicating most of my dreams for the past seven years :\
 
dreamflyer said:
I just noticed something in the past few months that made me very happy.

After years of battling multiple addictions (but only starting to get a handle on it in the past year or so), my drug dreams have suddenly just about disappeared... and when I do have them, they're usually negative.

I used to be plagued by "using" dreams every night, even during periods of sobriety. It made me so angry because I would have a good day, not think about drugs at all, then dream about them all night and wake up jonesin' my balls off. (obviously I still craved them, at least subconsciously)

It was usually a big bag of oxys or some other opioid, and I was always excited beyond belief. Sometimes in the dream, I would look closer and realize that they were really just something like m&m's, skittles or tums!

The last one that I had a few weeks ago, I found a large bag of the old olive green 30mg morphine sulfate tablets under a chair. I looked at it for a second, thought of the consequences, and looked for a bathroom to flush it. I woke up and thought, "Wow, I'm finally starting to get better!" :D

I am so glad that I never tried crystal meth. I was actually watching a documentary on it just last night that explained exactly what it does to the brain. It not only makes you release insane amounts of dopamine, but simultaneously damages the receptors so you that you can't manufacture, release or utilize as much of it in the future. Some long-term users say that even after years of being clean, they just can't "remember" how to feel happy anymore. It's a real shame.

Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer
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I occasionally still get opiate using dreams (almost 4 years later)... but every single time, they consist of me having used opiates and gotten back into the withdrawal cycle. I spend the whole dream feeling terrible about myself and worrying about how I'm going to get past it. Then I wake up and I'm like, thank god that was a dream! And it makes me feel even less like doing opiates.

It's not that way for other drugs... but fortunately it is for opiates, which were what fucked me up bad.
 
After a couple run-ins with meth through my days, I can easily back up the claim if it releasing way too much dopamine and fucking up receptors in the process. I would call it insidious, but it happens so quickly that it is quite obvious, which has saved me from going down that hole. I like my receptors medium-rare thank you very much.

Drug dreams can be a bitch, used to fuck with me a lot. After claiming some domain over drugs of interest I dontbhave those dreams at all really. I might still day-dream though...
 
I'm ashamed to admit it, but I went through a very short crack phase way back around 2001/2002 and had more than my share of the 2-minute dopamine rush/hellish crash/depression aftermath thing. It would take me two friggin' days to recover from one night of use.

They say that meth is like a hundred times worse. I wouldn't even want to be in the same room with it now, but back then I would have tried it without a doubt. No question about it. I consider myself very lucky that I never came in contact with it.
 
TheAppleCore said:
Hey Headphones, do you live on your grandparents' farm with the rest of your family?
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Missed this way back at the start of the year since I pop in and out of BL. Yea, I live on the family farm. I kept moving away hoping to find a better place but I always end up back here. It's home and the place where I'm at peace, I don't want to ever leave it. I resented it for a long time because I've spent most of my life taking care of everyone on it (siblings, parents, grandparents, everyone really since I'm the oldest sibling). I'm hopeful one day I'll finally meet a girl worth keeping around that can tolerate my bad habits but until then I'm rolling solo and taking care of everyone.

Here are some pictures. Much love. Thinking about taking a day hike around the farm today and maybe popping some MDMA I have laying around. Usually I don't partake of MDMA twice in the same month but it has been so long since I had any and my total life time uses are still below 10-15 so I don't think it'd be much of a problem. I bought a gram about a week ago, shared some with a friend the night I got it, gave some away to another friend, and I've been itching for more. Been almost a week now so it shouldn't be too horrible of a come down assuming I get one.

Anyway, here is my slice of paradise, I have 300 acres of it to tend to.

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My girlfriend is starting an LSD microdosing regimen, she's going to take 10ug every 3 days for 12 cycles and see how it goes. She's been looking for something to help her feel more energetic and snap out of a slump in motivation. I'm hoping she finds some success, sometimes just getting out of a mindset for a short time can give you the motivation to make changes. She took 5ug yesterday because she was really nervous about it (we tripped together once and she had a full tab that was pretty solidly dosed, and liked it a lot but had some significant side effects), and said she didn't really feel anything, so she's looking forward to trying the full 10ug next time.
 
came here just to complain about the wistful depression i always get this time of year. (thanks for always letting me vent guys). maybe i should try something like that^

two weeks until my next PET scan, so we can see how well my high-dose chemotherapy took care of my tumors.

i've barely done anything since getting out of the hospital in the end of August, but somehow September flew by too quickly. feels like i didn't get a summer.
 
stupid winter depression... It makes regular year long depression even worse. Woke up this morning, had a beer, some kratom, etizolam, O PCE and I'm still like "so death right?". Feeling so empty and hopeless why does this shit never end.

I just finished "Dust of Dreams" (Malazan Book of The Fallen). I picked it up with about 30 pages left, thought this book was about over. Then it's like BAM BAM BAM fucking out of nowhere unexpected major action. So bummed I am starting on the last book in the series now.

Took like 100mg total of O PCE the other night and ended up taking 70mg MET as well. Have barely tripped this year, now I am feeling the itch. Can't wait to try some 4 ACO DPT hopefully this week or next. Hopefully some DOC or Escaline in the next few months as well. woooo
 
I'm having summer depression. This shit won't end here. It's fuckin' 90 degrees every day this week. Tired of sweating all day at work. Bring it on winter...
 
'Seasonal Affective Disorder' is definitely a pattern with me, but not necessarily only Winter. In years that I live up north with bitter winters and not a lot of sunny days, yeah, Jan+Feb are always hard. In the Southwest, never lacking sunshine and warm days, the Summer is when I am most likely to have 'SAD' because 115 degrees F is similarly oppressive to 15 degrees F.
 
yepyepwoah said:
I just finished "Dust of Dreams" (Malazan Book of The Fallen). I picked it up with about 30 pages left, thought this book was about over. Then it's like BAM BAM BAM fucking out of nowhere unexpected major action. So bummed I am starting on the last book in the series now.

Took like 100mg total of O PCE the other night and ended up taking 70mg MET as well. Have barely tripped this year, now I am feeling the itch. Can't wait to try some 4 ACO DPT hopefully this week or next. Hopefully some DOC or Escaline in the next few months as well. woooo
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Yeah, sucks when you finish a great series. I was really bummed when I finished Malazan. Now I'm reading the Thomas Covenant books by Stephen Donaldson, I'm on the 5th one (there are 10, he wrote a trilogy and then like 10 years later he wrote another and then like 10 years later he wrote 4 more). The first book is kinda like, ah I'm not sure I'm so into these. The main character is a shitty guy, but over the course of the first 3 there is a lot of character development. But still not the greatest. But the second trilogy has been amazing so far.

I'm planning some trips pretty soon myself, I haven't had more than a museum dose in quite some time. My girl is going out of town for 2 months soon so I'll find myself with a lot of extra free time. I have a ton of things to try... DOB, DOI, a higher dose of DOPr and DOiP, a higher dose of DOM... 3C-P, MiPT, MPT, 2C-E... not even sure where to begin.
 
well I also plan on tripping soon, maybe in the winter holidays... but only on some good old cubensis... I have some mycelium growing on rye right now, like a champ, considering the temperature is not ideal... autumn and all. it might be ready to fruit in maybe ten days :)

allthough I envy your collection (besides 2C-E which I have plenty of but haven't done anything but a few microdoses in years) I think getting my feet wet again with a known substance is best since I haven't taken anything besides low doses of shrooms and dmt in years due to mental health problems.

well just went for a run when the rain stopped. thankfully it only started again ten minutes after returning home. now I drink tea from basil, hops and hemp leaves... mellow blend! add to that decent amounts of vaped bud as well ;)
 
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