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☮ Social ☮ PD Social: swirling into homeostasis

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NO! :( :( :( :( :'(

Love to Shulgin <3 <3 <3


Nearjat, as much as it sucks, just try your best on those last exams. If you've got any sort of psychiatrist/are on any medication, a doctors note can help get some of your previous assignments not-counted. Talk to your teachers, and be honest. They are people, and they have fucked up things too. A lot of mine have been really understanding. If you work with the profs, I bet it could get better. I've been exactly where you've been man, I know how much it sucks, but you can make it work <3


"I'm kind of crazy."
"Yeah, I noticed."
(internal thought: fuck, it's THAT obvious?!)
"But at least I'm not a jackass."

I wish drugs were legal so we could have a PD dating service. For how much I know you're all fucking misfits ;) <3 but it seems like I'd do better with some of ya'll than anyone I've met around my area.
 
i dont know what your experience has been but in my experience the people i have met from BL have not been like i pictured them in my head.
Which is not a bad thing, because in most cases they have become good friends of mine, but just so you know, people from online arent always like their personalities seem to be
 
It's true, I speak my mind so freely here. But if you were to see me on the street or just start some small talk with me, you wouldn't notice anything distinguishing about me besides being a little more friendly than most randoms.
 
:(
shulgin best not die
plz hold on.
anyway doods, heres to quitting abusing amps again. ill be going without any amp for more than a week, and i aint want to start abusing again/get spun to do schoolwork and whatnot. i be srs this time. that, and i wanna roll and i aint having amp fuck over mah molly.
the only thing left to sort out is going without for a little while and pretending to take em and then just putting em back in the bottle so that i can replace all the ones missing. almost every time ive done amps ive said its the last time, but after the comedown has gone away ive always said "naw". but this time, im srs. i cant keep beating the piss out of my body on at least a weekly basis forever.
heres to quitting stims pd, heres to quitting stims. no more sketchiness, no more comedowns, no more paranoia/worrying about stupid shit, less being anti social. i gotta quit so that i can roll and i aint gonna start again, no way.
and i won 6 dorra in the scratchoffs today.
i CAN FINANCE DROOOOOGS.
or a pack of marlboros.
so i took 1mg of lorazepam to hopefully let me sleep easier, 100mg in total was ingested over the last 24 hours so..
chillin' noicely, not feeling like a piece of shit anymore with the fat beats on.
 
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yeah dudes.
im quitting amps for good this time (abusing them).
im sick and tired of all this sketchy shit, the whole lifestyle of doing amphetamines sucks
i think ive changed from amps, ive gone from being a little depressed but still a happy kid to being some judgmental anti social asshole...i can remember once or twice hearing a teacher say "are you ever happy?" and that shouldnt be fucking me.
i just want some friends..i just want to be happy.
fuck speed, fuck benzos, fuck droogs to a degree. molly and tripping can stay but i dont want to get spun or get fucked up. i want the real me back, the real me that has disappeared from amphetamine use. honestly i wish i never started abusing my script. ill just keep telling myself things can and will get better, or at least that amphetamine will just make everything even worse.
fuck amphetamine. i am gonna take back myself, take back control. no more abusing speed, not ever again. no other stims either (other than quasi-stims like MDMA).
i swear, this time i am 100% fucking serious, i AM quitting abusing my pills FOR GOOD. never again.
if i post in here while spun or anything, i want all you to start guilt tripping me and all that.
i shouldnt be beating the shit out of my body like this, its not even worth it.
well guys, it might not be easy to overcome temptations to get high (when they come around, i know i will be tempted during thanksgiving break) but i am not gonna surrender and give up.
if someone could take AMP out of my name, that would be real cool. thats not me anymore.
<3 to you guys, i shoulda listened to all you months ago when you were saying i was an addict and needed to stop. i still dont call myself an addict, but im pretty goddamn close..i have a habit at the least.
and i am gonna kick the fucking habit. and this time i am not gonna try to trick myself into getting spun so i can do work. that will just get me into getting spun often again. i am just gonna fucking man up and do work sober like everyone else and quit cheating myself.
PD, you are watching a life change go down right here. i will NEVER abuse the shit again. NEVER.
and can someone find out if they'd accept mail in donations/and the details about that? id LOVE to donate but i dont have a CC.
<3
 
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^ Awesome! So glad to see that you're taking steps toward a healthier lifestyle, with serious intent. You're definitely making the right decision. Regularly abusing stimulants, or any mind-altering substance for that matter, is not a good idea, ever.

I wouldn't say that there's a need to swear off of stimulants forever, but definitely moving your life away from the stimulant focus will help you out immensely.
 
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