Man ever since I've quit benzos, I've really been enjoying alcohol (And a bit o' GHB, but I finished off my stash about a week ago and I don't plan to buy more).
Lovin' that good beer & good weed. If I need to use an exogenous substance to relax, i rather it be pot & beer than benzos. Kinda but also :D.
Benzos are inferior recreational GABAergics, IMO. I just can't stand those things anymore, they are so seductive and addictive-- yet not even that enjoyable of an actual experience.
I think when you speak of benzos you mean Alprazolam; which I agree; it's just a not really enjoyable sedation but I find a low dose of Diazepam to actually be euphoric without knocking me out.
Yah man, mostly alprazolam (lots of that shit down my hatch-- feels great at first, but turns into mind-robbing stupid pills if used more than occasionally) & also plenty of clonazepam. But also diazepam when used frequently loses it's charm fast, IMO. I think my main problem was my ridiculous delusion that I could use benzos everyday for a while and not end up with a serious fuggen problem.
So guys, I was reading some old threads at the nexus earlier... and I came upon more than a few posts that talked about us like "the heroin addicts at bluelight", "the druggies at bluelight etc". Kinda fucked up, man. I've only ever said good things about the nexus, but now that I think about those people have a nice forum but are a bit ridiculous-- magical thinking lunatics in a lot instances. Kinda put me off reading that site, TBH. It seems like many of their members are less open-minded than they claim to be.
They're not the only forum to say unkind things about bluelight. We're just a bunch of polydrug addicts who hypocritically tell people not to do shit, not to mention being a bunch of closed minded muggles. Or so I hear anyway.
As far as GABAergics of choice, I'm a big GBL/GHB fan. I've been rethinking my intention of trying out more benzos, I'm really not sure anything good will come of it.
And you can't prove fairies are real unless a friend of yours has also seen them, that way your claims will be unassailable by skeptics.
They're not the only forum to say unkind things about bluelight. We're just a bunch of polydrug addicts who hypocritically tell people not to do shit, not to mention being a bunch of closed minded muggles. Or so I hear anyway.
As far as GABAergics of choice, I'm a big GBL/GHB fan. I've been rethinking my intention of trying out more benzos, I'm really not sure anything good will come of it.
And you can't prove fairies are real unless a friend of yours has also seen them, that way your claims will be unassailable by skeptics.
This video is awesome, kind of looks like my dog. Mine wont howl though, maybe I should present her a crying baby? For some reason ever since I got her I have wanted to teach her to "speak" or hear her howl, never got anything out of her.
Yeah, I kinda jumped into that one knowing your preferences and mileages; I just thought that my side of the coin was also common enough to be relevant when advising someone on the effects of potential cocaine substitutes.
I didn't take it like you were insinuating that at all, it was more me trying to convince myself that it was true haha.
You haven't read Vonnegut!? BLASPHEMY! Nah, not really, but he's a pretty tripped out writer with some things worth reading. Another short one is, "God Bless You, Doctor Kevorkian." and I mean SHORT.
Yeah, I don't have any real knowledge of US literature of the last 100 years or so, bar people like Stephen King. Most of my reading comes from my library of a house and it doesn't contain much US lit. tbh... seems to contain everything but actually. Odd. I'm aware of my neglecting and may one day correct it In terms of literature in general I would suggest some work but i'll have to have a think first, i can't be prioritising books blindy, it'll require thought! haha
I thought 1984 was okay, though I read it years ago. Animal farm was interesting, but a little but too stuck in the past (communism and all) to really get my interest. I suspect he has other things worth reading. I kind of want to read happy books though, lol.
I'm totally playing Crash 3! It's kind of sad, I played through the first one with someone who used to be practically my best friend (very sad face), the second one with someone who's no longer my friend, and I'm cruising through the rest solo... but they're still fucking great! And I'm now ridiculously good at Crash Bandicoot. A skill clearly useful for my future.
I heard it's actually one of the most sought after skills in terms of employibility etc. you're onto a winner in crash bandicoot! However you realise completing 3 will not be the end of your journey...Crash Bash and Crash Team Racing are needed to complete the set I'm afraid. haha
I'm studying Evolutionary and Ecological Bio. My essay is actually on how male homosexuality manages to continue on in the human population. To quote one article:
"Many thousands of instances of same-sex courtship, pair bonding, and copulation have been observe in a wide range of species, including mammals, birds, reptiles, amphibians, insects, mollusks, and nematodes (Bailey & Zuk 2009). "
It's a bummer male homosexuality has so much more research than female homosexuality/bisexuality in females, since as a bisexual female, it'd be kind of interesting to look into it. Though honestly, I'm a complex person who's pretty much genderless... so when it comes to people, I don't see gender, I see people. It's all about love, man
Sounds interesting, I have a few friends that are doing bio related courses at uni although I have no idea as to which areas they are covering, I hadn't even thought to ask... The sciences are an area in which I have nothing past basic school knowledge in... perhaps not even that anymore, I never found them inspiring or as interesting as I found the arts and to an extent maths. I think it's because i'm an arrogant cunt that likes to do things my own way, for better or the worse, when it comes to academia and I guess I found sciences too black and white, at least at school level. There were ways to do things, and ways not to do things.
If tripping isn't positive, don't do it. As I think everyone needs to be told sometimes, drugs aren't going anywhere, doll. I suggest running (as the previously tripped out post says), or other sorts of trippy activities that aren't quite tripping. Or at least in my case, it'd be kind of nice just to have someone to trip with.
Honestly, I've done enough drugs to just kind of always be tripping. Ya'll know?
Yeah this was primarily in response to Pepper stating that he'd been consuming a lot recently. I have no inclination to take anything atm, not a bad thing, means I have more for when I particularly want to. In response to the running suggestion... I detest running as an activity by itself haha. In sport it's fine, I would even go as far to say that I enjoy it, but by itself eurrrrrgh so dull!
For 'trippy' activities that don't require drugs, tree climbing/climbing in general, and old fashioned exploring is where it's at. I don't think it would be possible to grow out of those activities, particularly tree climbing, I mean, if you're up in a tree you don't need to do anything else...you're in a tree!
As a note since I'm the PD mom, if you think you have any actual clinical depression I recommend seeing a therapist/doctor. I am not saying you have this. It's just a thing I like to say. There's things people have against that sort of thing, but if making your life happier is possible, why the fuck wouldn't you do it? Again, not judging, whatsoever, I know we all just have hard times.
I'm susceptible to depression but my current state is not of depression at all, it is of boredom and self inflicted, through laziness, amongst other factors, supression of creativity and productivity.
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And hellllllll yeah, PD social! The center of love, light, and trippy good vibes in the universe. Though I've never met any of you in person, I truly care about you and wish you the best.
It'll be okay.
Maynard said this when I saw Tool over the summer. And it meant the universe to me. And it was a weird connection, because I say it to people a lot. And I'm always so desperately waiting for someone to say it to me.
And he's the only one this year who has.
I also liked, "For the next two hours... nothing out there has anything to do with anything in here."
And before "Intolerance": "If you're 21 years old or younger... you weren't alive when we wrote this song. All you people 22-25 get that smug look off your face, you were like four."
whoa, what a ramble.
After the show got out, I met a guy and was talking to him. He said, "It's like going to church, you know?" He mentioned he had seen Tool in New Orleans, and I asked him how it was. He said it was great, but he wasn't going to go, he learned his mom was going to die. But she told him to go.
I told him, "It'll be okay."
And hugged him a lot.
I could tell he was grateful. It might've been one of the most beautiful moments of my life.
In relation to the story at the end, just think, for all the wonderful feeling you gained from the experience, think about the joy you gave him in response to what will be one of the hardest times in the guys life. One of the fantastic things about stranger interaction is that you can help and be helped and really have an effect on someones life, for the positive or negative, in one seized moment that, with 9/10 people, would never have transpired. You have the power to really help someone, in anonymity, making it so much easier for them to just get things off their chest and just be loved, if only for that moment.
Anyway yeah, we've probably stretched this page quite a lot haha. I'll start thinking of my list of suggested reading (I'll try and keep it small )
but also :D.
I've only ever said good things about the nexus, but now that I think about those people have a nice forum but are a bit ridiculous-- magical thinking lunatics in a lot instances. 
Everyone's always up to something. Just suggesting ways to get on the productivity train