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[helium-4]

cloudy
it gets old
no lie

Oh trust me, I know how easily one can get worn out from continually use of amphetamines. Just excited to switch from the adderal formulation to just the isolated dextroamphetamine. Also with out any current local drug connects, having moved 1000 miles, while being addicted to consuming drugs in general, amphetamines help get a little fix even if I'm not abusing them. Not to mention while having AD(H)D, having something that can help make you pursue the things you don't enjoy, and most importantly the things you do enjoy, is a wonderful thing. Much neuroscience and pharmacology gets read while in an amphetamine state, along with many hours of music creation - something that doesn't happen as often as I'd like in a sober state, even when exercising and eating healthy. (if you are referencing me posting about being happy acquiring a dex script then actually getting it from the pharmacy, being a little old, I do understand. Being alone, with out much going on in life besides working, is wearing on me and decreasing the amount of interesting things happening in my life.)

To continue on about some happy drug rants, can't wait for my MXE to arrive. Hopefully sometime by the end of next week. Been wanting a dissociative experience for a good while now other than DXM. I have loved DXM, but it feels a bit dirty, not to mention choking down cough syrup is a bitch. Probably should invest in some DXM powder, but I rather the MXE experience described by many, or some ketamine.

Anyway, long day at work, but starting to talk to some other people there closer to my age (aka outside my department). Some potentially cool people, just didn't get much time to talk on a short cig break. Onward to the next long day tomorrow; maybe I'll find someone who could potentially be someone to chill with around here.

Gonna watch some new always sunny to relax.

 

[yucatanboy2]

Yeah moving a long distance is always hard, especially when you are used to your connections. MXE is an interesting thing. I've tried two doses in the 30-40 range and its got a very interesting feel.


Edit: I'm drinking a free bottle of wine I got, which means that the ethanol/dollar ratio of this is infinity. What a great deal.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Edit: I'm drinking a free bottle of wine I got, which means that the ethanol/dollar ratio of this is infinity. What a great deal.

Don't we generally just say that you cannot divide by zero, or it's undefined, rather than giving infinity as an answer? Also you totally didn't say whether that was $2 before of after tax!

Oh, and I'm goin' back to the iris 'cause I no longer plan on dying in the immediate future. I like irises more than anemones anyway.

P.S. consonant-y-ing words always look wrong to me.

 

[yucatanboy2]

2 bucks before tax.

In terms of dividing by zero, if you consider the limit as the cost approaches zero, then the alcohol/dollar approaches infinity

Edit: just like your brain approaches infinity on psychedelics!

Glad you are not planning on dying anytime soon, we'd miss you.

 

[helium-4]

Yeah moving a long distance is always hard, especially when you are used to your connections. MXE is an interesting thing. I've tried two doses in the 30-40 range and its got a very interesting feel.


Edit: I'm drinking a free bottle of wine I got, which means that the ethanol/dollar ratio of this is infinity. What a great deal.

aye, I went from having connects for opiates, benzos, weed (always really chronic, can't even find mids or shwagg, not that you'd want to), LSD (this year it was around almost every single week, super steady), and other random goodies that would show up from time to time (MDMA in the form of white scalely powder, mushies, muscle relaxants, etc.), to nothing. Well, I still of course have vendors for RCs, and can get k, but its nice to not have to have something mailed to you, especially since I'm currently living with the rents. They know I have a history of drug use, and it has continued through this summer, so they get suspicious easy. Not trying to start shit as I am living in there house for the next year rent free (though they want the money I owe them). I'm sure they wouldn't open up my packages, but they do open up some letters addressed to me, like from doctors offices, or university. Rather just get a PO box if need be. I will say, it is nice to not have to worry about carrying drugs around with you after you do purchase them from a individual, which is what I do love about getting things online. Not to mention better prices.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

2 bucks before tax.

In terms of dividing by zero, if you consider the limit as the cost approaches zero, then the alcohol/dollar approaches infinity

Edit: just like your brain approaches infinity on psychedelics!

Glad you are not planning on dying anytime soon, we'd miss you.

Ah, you have a point, that just goes to show I didn't pay attention in calculus.

And on the second matter, it's not a decision I'm particularly happy with at this point in time, but I decided to rely on my brain rather than my feelings on this matter. The death was quite entwined with my emotional proclivities, and the symbolic and literal return to a previous place in my life was significant to me. By not doing so, it's like I'm letting what I lost/left behind die, and that something is beautiful and precious (I can't exactly say what it is, just that it was sparkling and rose colored. Youthful ideals, hopes and dreams perhaps. Eh, explaining one's personal mythology can be a bit uncomfortable).

I've been thinking, the beauty of youth is like cherry blossoms, dazzling and ephemeral. Maturity is finding equal beauty in the constancy of pine, staying green even through the winter, in a life that lasts for centuries. It is not through pride or defiance that it does so, but through humility.


Also also, fuschias are underrated.

 

[TheAppleCore]

I've been thinking, the beauty of youth is like cherry blossoms, dazzling and ephemeral.

The beauty in youth is something you can only appreciate once it's gone.

I think that beauty in general is only known by its opposite.



Well, I just downed a cup of ayahuasca (*shudders*... hideous stuff). Hopefully this will turn out better than the last time I took it... 8(

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Well, I just downed a cup of ayahuasca (*shudders*... hideous stuff). Hopefully this will turn out better than the last time I took it...

Ooh, exciting, happy tripping! DMT (the mostly in vaped form) remains damn near the top of my drugs to try list.

And I meant more that the things the youthful (and the mature) find beauty in, rather than the beauty of that abstracted period of one's life. I'm not quite ready to call myself an adult just yet, much less a mature one. Then again these things exist in a spectrum, so I may have some fleeting insight into matters beyond my current comprehension.

And since I seem to be in one of my introspective posting moods (they say it's healthy to talk about yourself to people sometimes), more of that (feel free to skip it~):
I do have to say some sizable portion of my renewed, let's call it resolve to face life and an uncertain future has come from my adopting H as my oasis in the desert. I know opiates aren't very good things to live for, but they are effective at keeping you going in otherwise intolerable circumstances. Of course I'm going to make my best attempt to keep it under control (that is, not using every day, rather than trying to avoid dependence). I was also thinking that as far as pyschological addiction goes, dissociatives are definitely worse than opiates for me. Thinking back (y'all can try to think back and reaffirm my recollection), it seems that my periods of worst psychological health coincide with my periods of heavy dissociative use, but I become too obsessed with the experience to care, or perhaps the obsession is the root of the harm. Still, the allure of the hole remains.

 

[TheAppleCore]

wtf... I'm still sober. Might've fucked up the brew.

Ooh, exciting, happy tripping! DMT (the mostly in vaped form) remains damn near the top of my drugs to try list.

Yeah dude, if there's one drug you should try, it's deems!

I'm not quite ready to call myself an adult just yet, much less a mature one.

I'll never be an adult. The whole concept of an "adult" as opposed to a child is just a ridiculous confabulation of Western culture.



Also, I think it's great that you're finding a constructive use for H. There's no such thing as a bad drug, there's only using the right tool for the wrong reasons.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

i wish i had one of those when i was little.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lamZw5TWPSc
lololol

 

[kingme]

(I see instant ramen and balogna sandwiches in my future).

Speaking of which, anyone know of any really cheap healthy food options? My only cooking implement will be a microwave btw. Though maybe I can get my hands on an electric skillet from a garage sale or thrift store or something.

heh made me think of this http://static.fjcdn.com/pictures/Ho...inally+another+comic+Here+s_7f9eba_945576.jpg

but as a healthy food option, since i dont know where you live cant really say precisely, but where im at vegetables and fruit are always on the cheap side, as well as milk and its derivates.... healthy enough? ime, with instant food you re generally worse off both in the health as well as expense departments. ubt i guess it varies, when i visited the states, it was waaay cheaper to eat once a day at a chinese buffe and get stuffed for the day for a few $.

 

[effingcustie]

If your only cooking option is a microwave, raw foods are the only healthy ones

 

[adrian89987]

I'll never be an adult. The whole concept of an "adult" as opposed to a child is just a ridiculous confabulation of Western culture.

Idk man, the concept of the rite of passage have been embedded within human culture for quite some time. In fact the super cool dude Joseph Campbell makes compelling arguments saying that a lot of the bad behaviors and psychological dissonance found in society in this day and age is due to the cheapening and disappearance of a true transition from child -> adult.

As a person goes through life, many psychological challenges will be encountered. Myth may serve as a guide for successful passage through the stages of one's life. For example, most ancient cultures used rites of passage as a youth passed to the adult stage. Later on, a living mythology taught the same person to let go of material possessions and earthly plans as they prepared to die.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joseph_Campbell#Function_of_Myth

His books and the filmed interview "The Power of Myth" are really awesome (with a later published transcript in book form by the same title).

That being said, does not mean you should ever lose that child-like curiosity for the world and life, where would science be without that?

 

[pisspotnrock]

i wish i had one of those when i was little.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lamZw5TWPSc
lololol

hahahahhaha, that is gold!!

thank you so much, made my night considering I'm havin a quiet one tryin to save money (also have work sunday morn.) not to mention, due to indulging in 'non-psychedelic' substances, I'm still goin hard from 36 hours ago.....

lol

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

lol meth right?
aint seen ya since they shut down the au nz thread in PR
how ya been

 

[Roger&Me]

llama have you ever tried peevee? All I hear is crazy shit about it, like CRAZY tweaked out shit. And for some reason the first thing I always think is "man I bet llama would dig that shit". :D Not that I'm recommending it, of course, because I don't wanna be a bad influence.

I'm actually tweaking right now on some dexies, 'bout to hit the library for the afternoon.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

yeah
ive done it
its sketchy by MY standards
and i just last night slept for the first time in 3 days and just ate for the first time this week an hour ago
and its dirty as fuck
and smoking it wasnteven all that fun

 

[Roger&Me]

its sketchy by MY standards

LOL

I love reading peevee trip reports, for some reason they always tend to involve crack whores, seedy motels, and potentially lethal encounters with knife-wielding pimps. Really have no desire to try that stuff myself though, I'll stick to ADHD treatment level doses of dexies and addies, thank ya very much.

And srsly try to eat more often bro... amp isn't that bad for you as long as you eat something and don't stay up half the week. Plus I think that stims are just way more euphoric when your body is properly fueled and rested, you get way more spun out and motivated with less sketchiness.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

ehh it honest to god wasn't sketch at all
normally i would be seeing shit after 2 days
but from last wednesday-this wednesday
well to be more accurate
last wednesday, did more ;ast friday, then just at night sun-wed
new record, killed like 100 of the bastards and the only reason its not a lot moar is cause i just got that bottle last wednesday

 

[pisspotnrock]

lol meth right?
aint seen ya since they shut down the au nz thread in PR
how ya been

yes, I received an infraction for voicing my opinion on that thread and the lack of moderation when the current mods tried to cover their tracks with bullshit excuses..

wait, did that sentence make sense?

I've been good brother.. takin shit easy, tryin to slowly ween my self off the stims and onto psychs.. (although you are right, meth is the reason I have now been up for 2-3 days haahha havnt had a taste in over 36 hours either twas good shardssssssssssssssssssssssZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ (only had two points thursday arvo, I.V, West Australian Time [WST])

hows your MDMA situation???

molly's slowly returning to this mass chunk of land me be livin on %)
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Im off to bed, take it easy man.. its currently 4.20am saturday, got a big party tonight and havnt slept since wednesday night (naughty, naughty)

catch ya's :D