So, last night, funny story (my concerns were nothing, I vaped what I managed to salvage from the floor by attacking my carpet crack head style, and that was enough to push me over the edge to where I wanted to go). I was gonna spend the whole night watching movies, but my first dvd kept on freezing, so I stopped to do something else for a while and my computer went into sleep mode. I then spent the next 4 hours trying to log back in (I think after the first few attempts, it just made it impossible to log back in that day). Hahaha, I don't really remember after that...
It wasn't wasted though, I did have a good time, and what part of the movie I did watch was enough to get me into flashback mode. Ya'know, I think the regular dissociative use was probably as big a factor to my emotional collapse last fall/winter as the GBL and opiate abuse. Which isn't really surprising given I generally use them (well, maybe just 4-meo-pcp is good for this) to reproduce an emotional state/outlook I had before everything formally went to shit. So I guess I have to figure out how to use them to spice up my life, instead of make it revolve entirely around the few hours a week I'm able to spend essentially reliving the past. I'm gonna set my next use date at the 15th and try really hard not to do any before then. (You know, it probably would have been better for me if they really had lost the magic, after all. Hindsight's a bitch, eh?

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Edit: no my laptop is legit broken apparently. I still can't log on. Huh.
PS -threedaybender threedaybinge threedaycrazytiiiiiiime
PPS Does my love of 4-meo-pcp and jwh (let's not count the booze) make me like the RC version of beef/n/brokly? A disturbing thought. Hhahahahaha.