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[Volundr]

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Yeah, I've been recommended CBT a couple of times now, and I almost booked a CBT intro session but it was going to be quite expensive and I decided to just get on with things (obviously that hasn't helped or changed anything ) I'll definitely consider re-looking into it, as apparently my dad did it while at uni and it was extremely helpful.

(Good music recommendation too btw )

Just curious, are continuing to smoke marijuana?

Yes, a lot less than I used to as I can't really afford it so much anymore. Probably maybe on 2-3 days a week, then smoking none at all for the rest of the week.

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Nice, as much as I love camb. I really want to move on from it.. I feel like I'm stagnating here.

 

[Jesusgreen]

dissociatives, nothing trippy

I find dissociatives more "trippy" than psychedelics. Psychedelics to me are colourful, romantic, elegant. Dissociatives are trippy and weird haha.

I'll always have a soft spot for Ketamine.

Edit: Willow I heard of CBT before but never knew exactly what it was, thanks for the explanation. I'm going to try it too

 

[Darksidesam]

still hoping that one day ill get to try some acid or 2cb,

I think id do 2cb before i did acid... Really want to experience it.

 

[PepperSocks]

Volundr, what's up man By the looks of it I'm moving back to around the Cambridge area.

I'm suffering from really bad anxiety myself, and I really don't know what to do about it. My own mum has anxiety disorder and she takes SSRIs for it, she claims they help and yet she never leaves the house due to fear of panic attacks, so I'm not going down that road (especially since I really don't trust SSRIs as it is, and vs placebo studies have shown little use).

I've found alcohol helps more than anything so a benzo script would be nice but it's hard to get one for anxiety, as you usually have to go through a ton of SSRIs and other anti-depressants before they even consider benzos, and if you ask for them, chances are they'll write you off as a recreational drug user looking for a fix.

Most docs will prescribe a small script of benzos for occasional use as needed. I have a small alp. script but I'd run out after 30 weeks if I took 1 pill a week, and I'm only allowed a bottle a year. It's not written in stone but that's the feeling I get. Basically it's just for isolated panic attacks and not daily use.

I don't think you really want to be on a constant benzo script, it's a dull state of mind and withdrawal is savage.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

socks you've yet to try methamphetamine right?
i'll let you know how i think it compares to regular amp if you haznt.

 

[Jesusgreen]

Oh no, not a constant script, definitely not. That'd tax my wallet at the very least. One pill for every week or two would be perfect, ideally something that'd last all day - for those days where I have important things like job interviews etc.

I don't know though, I'm anxious about asking a doc, I mean, long haired hippie looking type walks in and asks for benzos, I'd think they'd offer me something else instead. But hey maybe that's my anxiety itself making me overthink things, I dunno.

 

[PepperSocks]

socks you've yet to try methamphetamine right?
i'll let you know how i think it compares to regular amp if you haznt.

No, I have enough regular amp to keep me going for a while so the drive to find it has been satiated for the time being. I was also considering some shake&bake birching if it came to that, pretty easy stuff.

Oh no, not a constant script, definitely not. That'd tax my wallet at the very least. One pill for every week or two would be perfect, ideally something that'd last all day - for those days where I have important things like job interviews etc.

That's exactly what docs give out small benzo scripts for, you should have no problem getting that. My doc was even going to let me choose which benzo I wanted. I chose alp because it's so directly strong and good for psychedelic freak outs.

As for other things I have managed to acquire a bag of diazepam powder and that is what I use for more frequent/recreational stuff.

Of course you could look into Etizolam; it's a grey market benzo, not too hard to find. Of course there's phenazepam. It has a long half life but about the same as diazepam, so 6 to 1.

And yeah, having long hair and/or a beard is definitely an impediment to lots of things. I have a buzz cut and whenever I go see my doc I make sure I'm well shaven and wearing clean clothes.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

lolololol shake n bake
i wouldnt do the shit you get from shake n bake, that shits fucking nasty.
they dont even wash it or anything and you dont even get crystal you get powder, shits nasty.

 

[PepperSocks]

lolololol shake n bake
i wouldnt do the shit you get from shake n bake, that shits fucking nasty.
they dont even wash it or anything and you dont even get crystal you get powder, shits nasty.

They would be you. Of course what comes out of it is of questionable purity. Perform purification steps as needed.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

me?
wat.
or YOU as in you mistah socks?
i wouldn't shake n bake if i was gonna cook i tell ya h'what.

 

[PepperSocks]

You used the word "they" in terms of other peoples' product. I meant you in terms of however is cooking their own product and cares about purity.

I think our experience would be rather different. You'd like to rail up a 1/4 gram line, whereas as I'd break out my scale, measure out a 100mg, dissolve it in 10mL of vodka, then use an oral syringe to dose 10mg. Like I do with amp sulfate.

I was basically just looking for an amp replacement.

Talking about strong dopaminergics I was wanting to take some MDPV but I have to wait until after my trip. I'm starting to wonder if I should just skip the trip. It feels like more of an inconvenience and impediment to my more recreational pursuits.

 

[Jesusgreen]

I suppose it's worth a shot anyway, if I can't get them prescribed I'm no worse off than I was and I'm sure they'd suggest alternatives at least.

I have looked at Etizolam and Phenazepam as options but I'm not sure where on earth I can get a scale that measures sub-milligram doses accurately that doesn't cost a fortune/end up being inaccurate.

I think my best option would be just to ask a doc, though I think I'd be too nervous to ask about benzos in particular, I'd probably just have to ask for something short term that can stop panic attacks for a few hours when I need it, I'm sure that'd lead them to benzos.

 

[PepperSocks]

I have looked at Etizolam and Phenazepam as options but I'm not sure where on earth I can get a scale that measures sub-milligram doses accurately that doesn't cost a fortune/end up being inaccurate.

Benzos are soluble in ethanol. Measure out 10mg, dissolve in 10mL ethanol. 0.5cc=0.5mg. If you can get pure ethanol use that, if not, you can use isopropanol. The amount of solvent is so small it won't do any harm.

This is what I do with diazepam, but with 100mg in 10mL. I make solutions of all my frequently used chems. It'd be next to impossible to calibrate my scales and carefully weigh my dose every single time I wanted some amp or diaz.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Man, I am so glad the phenazepam I had when I had it was cut or something. I dosed rather recklessly and were it pure I no doubt would have had quite a few days that I wouldn't remember. It was pretty decent for anxiety/insomnia though. I'll have to get some more benzos sometime.

Jesus, can you get GHB/GBL? I found that fairly effective if you just need an hour or two of anxiety mitigation to do an interview or apply somewhere or something. Plus it's not something they test for, or can test for really given its incredibly short half-life.

 

[PepperSocks]

Funny you mention GHB. I just checked the remainder of what I have and it all turned to a moist wax in the bag so I started making a solution from it. It's incredible how soluble the stuff is. I'm dissolving a 2 square inch chunk of wax in about 50mL of vodka and it is going in.

 

[PepperSocks]

Well, I've decided to pass on tripping this week. The last 2 nights I've gotten blissfully hammed on oxy and benzos, but tonight I'm going in the other direction. I took 10mg of amp to get me started, going to do some homework, and then I have a vial of MDPV solution ready to go :D

I love serotonin releasers but they're short lasting and the hangover sucks. I'm not going to do what I did last time with meph (pile on the mirror, railed what I desired), later this week I'm going to revisit that wonderful piracetam/methylone combo that's taken me to some amazing states of ecstasy. I've never done piracetam/MDMA, I might try that one, but my MDMA stash is finite and methylone is easy to re-up, so there's that.

 

[adrian89987]

Yes, a lot less than I used to as I can't really afford it so much anymore. Probably maybe on 2-3 days a week, then smoking none at all for the rest of the week.

You should try cutting it down to zero times a week and see how that helps your anxiety, may help a LOT or not at all. Worth a try though as in the end it saves you money if it works instead of investing in alternative meds.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

You used the word "they" in terms of other peoples' product. I meant you in terms of however is cooking their own product and cares about purity.

I think our experience would be rather different. You'd like to rail up a 1/4 gram line, whereas as I'd break out my scale, measure out a 100mg, dissolve it in 10mL of vodka, then use an oral syringe to dose 10mg. Like I do with amp sulfate.

I was basically just looking for an amp replacement.

Talking about strong dopaminergics I was wanting to take some MDPV but I have to wait until after my trip. I'm starting to wonder if I should just skip the trip. It feels like more of an inconvenience and impediment to my more recreational pursuits.

i'm not even gonna snort.
shards are for smoking, not snorting silly rabbit.
i'm gonna try shooting though as well.
i'm gonna smoke a point-ish the first time, or i might just bang a point ish.

 

[PepperSocks]

Oh dude, I think you know everyone opinion on that. With the way you plow through your d-amp script via the crush/snort til it's gone method, I don't see a quicker ROA with a stronger drug ending well. Not only that, but unlike the script where you have a monthly limit, a meth dealer would be very happy to drain you of your money and replace it with damaged dopaminergic neurons, among other things.

MDPV isn't quite like I remembered it. Perhaps it's because my last two days of downers. I took a few mg of oxy to take away lingering w/d type feelings. So far 2- 10mg PV doses and yeah, euphoric but I'm not zinging. I'll see where this goes.

BTW, LMA you should try MDPV, last time I did it with a clean system it was off the hook. Some BL folks people claim it to be even better than methamp.

And man there's a lot of funky shit coming out on RC vendor sites. Crazyness.

 

[Delsyd]

Lama said he wasn't to impressed with MDPV.
IMO it's great for a wank fest and not much more, but then I leave with a sore penis.