LOL i really need to drink less though. It seems I can go without alcohol no problem, just recently went about 7 days with no alcohol, but I always end up getting wasted sooner or later. I don't think of alcohol as a depressant, personally: for me its something that lifts you up out of daily life, a bit like psychedelics. Drinking actually mirrors the archetypal hero's journey in many ways: it lifts you up into the divine realm in your drunkenness, and then throws you into the depths of hell in the midst of the hangover, only for you to eventually return to sober reality unscathed. As Bukowski said, drinking is a type of suicide where you're able to wake up again the next day. It's a very emotional, basically human process-- poisoning oneself in an effort to rid the mind of the cruel realities of everyday life. Its a poetic process, really. It can be very profound.