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If you donty smoke much, smoking a full bowl will definitely do that to ya. Again, smoke slow ;)

and AppleCore - fuck yes, Tipper is a god!!!!! I got his discography from a friend and have been binging all day. So good.
 
Tip Hop kicks ass. The continuous mix of it is fantastic. his Downtempo work is out of this world.
The Seamless Unspeakable Something is one of my favorite albums of all time, and his downtempo mixes are amazing.

Relish The Trough is amazing as well.

David Tipper is just such an amazing artist.
Ive had his downtempo set from Shambhala playing almost all day, and loving every second of it. His scratching is out of this world as well, definitely some of the best ive ever heard.
 
I'm not really sure how much longer I can keep this sobriety up. I knew it was a mistake to take benzos last night but I did. :\

No joke this is killing me. I've got all these numbers of various dealers in my cell phone just fucking itching to be dialed. FUUUUCK

I need to spend some serious time by myself these next few days and get into some serious introspection or else.....well I don't even wanna think about that right now :(

Love to all guys I know I could sure use some right now <3
 
Much love Delta <3
If you're serious about getting sober, maybe you should delete those numbers?
Or, write 'em down somewhere, delete it from your phone, and then put the list of numbers deep in some files where you still know where they are but would have to really dig to get 'em out. Maybe that'll help cut back on the urgers. I know how hard it is to fight drug urges.

Stay strong dude, I know you can do it :)
 
I would just delete the numbers man. I personally don't think it's helpful to "challenge yourself" by keeping them, like how some people quit smoking with a pack on the coffee table and shit haha.
 
Bomboclat said:
Much love Delta <3
If you're serious about getting sober, maybe you should delete those numbers?
Or, write 'em down somewhere, delete it from your phone, and then put the list of numbers deep in some files where you still know where they are but would have to really dig to get 'em out.
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Fuck I wish it were that simple, but I've got literally a dozen or so numbers fucking BURNED into my skull. It's like they haunt me to no fucking end :(
It's driving me nuts. There is little I can do, I've exhausted many options already. I still have a few up my sleeve though, so yes I do think I can make it though this it's just FUCKING HELL until I do.

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Stay strong dude, I know you can do it :)
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Thank you for the kind words Bombo. They are much appreciated. Nothing but Love, Respect, and Prāna to you as well friend :D

And to all of PD you guys at Bluelight are my second family <3
 
^ The best way I have found to make difficult decisions is to change your perspective a little bit: it's difficult because it's inseparable from pain, BUT if it's ultimately a healthy decision, then the pain is simply a part of a healthy process.

So don't look at pain as a drawback. LOVE the pain.
 
i cant really offer you much advice delta cause i cant quit amphetamines myself, but i do know when i did quit that one time, it was after one night where i had just like...got it in my head that speed=bad depression and shit, and IME if i think about amphetamines or pleasure it makes me want to do them, so fi i were you, try honestly to have a bad experience on benzos or something or whatever's troubling you. Taste-aversion learning, animals will avoid foods that in the past have made them sick, so maybe (this could be TERRIBLE advice) do whatever drug but make sure you do way too much (within the range of safety or whatever tho) so that you get sick, and whenever you want that drug try to associate that with being sick? I just know the time i did actually quit amphetamines legitimately for a good period of time it was because i kept reminding myself about the comedown. I think like if youre trying to quit drugs, trying to convince yourself that whatever drug isnt pleasurable is stupid (i dunno if anyone else has done that, but i have tried to convince myself amphetamine isnt fun). deleting the numbers would probably help lots tho..what drug/drugs are you quitting?

much <3, wish i could help
llama
 
LSDMDMA&9317233 said:
what drug/drugs are you quitting?

much <3, wish i could help
llama
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Benzos....lots of benzos.
I also quit cannabis (which has been my crutch for some time) almost 2 months ago and at this point it may have been a mistake. In my 8year+ love affair with cannabis I have never wanted it more than I do know. And I've taken way longer breaks before, but I always had some other drug to use in the meantime.

I don't drink or do anything else(hell I don't even have access to much of anything which is a blessing I suppose), so that won't help.

I've basically been drinking lots of good, strong, quality powdered green tea in hopes of maybe giving my GABA something to do. I have to piss like every 40 minutes this is rediculous. I have theanine but can be bothered to capsule it also I bought it in 09 so it may not be so pure anymore.

I just need to stop being a pussy and deal with it. Stop posting my petty bullshit problems here no one cares it's not like they're your problems anyway.

In any event thanks again for the kind words and the support fellas. You guys are truly good people. All the best <3

Edit - I'll probably log off soon. There's nothing here for me tonight.
 
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I just need to stop being a pussy and deal with it. Stop posting my petty bullshit problems here no one cares it's not like they're your problems anyway.
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I reckon people do care :)

Seriously. If its benzo's that you're being lured to, tread carefully. Are you addicted? Beyond the mental- like physically? (When I say tread carefully I mean...) DO NOT quit cold turkey. I've been tapering for literally several years now, and am still having seizures; though none for the last 6 weeks. And am now on 10mg's of diazepam a day...but I've woken up the latent epilepsy that plagued me as a child. And badly too....Be cautious, but be without fear <3

Namaste....:)<3:)
 
Yes. Benzos. Physical. Heavy.

Thank you Sam but I'm familiar with taper schedules I know all too well how bad cold turkey is.

I'm just in a poor mental state right now. I'm gonna get off before I start raging at you guys. Like I said you're my second family you don't need this bullshit this is my problem and I'll deal with it alone.

I don't want or need help right now or ever with the way I feel. Fuck everything just fuck it.

Love to all just don't expect to see me around these parts for a while <3

Thanks again to all for the support.
 
Bomboclat said:
I hate skrillex. He sucked in FFTL and he sucks as Skrillex. I hate him almost as much as Deadmau5.

Now here's some good music: Tipper - Relish The Trough



You've never been "too high"? Anxious, unable to form a correct sentence, have trouble walking, "head full of fuck"? Its awful. Ive been there plenty times, where I smoke way too much for my own good, or eat just one too many edibles. Ive never gotten so high that I puked, but ive been too high to the point where I constantly have to check myself to make sure I didnt accidentally pee my pants.

For someone who doesnt really eat a lot of edibles, eating an entire one at once could lead to a very negative experience.
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Love tipper, I prefer his more out there stuff though
 
Hell of a weekend.

I found a love for k + alcohol. I honestly don't know why I'd ever want to drink alcohol with out k honestly. It makes the alcohol feel a bit more intelligent and then you add a bit of the euphoric psychedelic aspect into the mix. Real nice.

Anyway, in other news. Ended up getting a 93 on this quant test. Hell yeah. I'm a little disappointed because all the points I had taken off were just stupid mistakes I made, but I can live with an A.

Hope all is well. I got a busy day a head of me, but I'll feel good once I get everything done.
 
It are my birthday! Don't feel obligated to give me gifts of drugs, though. Sexual favors are also acceptable.
 
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