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Delta-9-THC said:
I also worry that I'm going to break up with her and mess around with other girls and then realize I made a mistake and that she really is the girl for me. The truth is I just don't really know what I want in a woman yet so it's all very confusing.
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if you are saying this then its clear to me that you like her more than you realize.
think about it. do you want a stable, beautiful relationship with an amazing girl,
or a couple of quick fucks with some floozies?

trust me man, the sex is so much better with someone u love. give it time bro.
then again, if u really dont wanna be with her, you need to let her know, but do it gently.
explain to her that you need some space away from her to think about what you want.

i bet after a few days of no contact you will miss her like crazy.
:P

just dont string her along cos u feel u owe it to her to stay with her due to her tough time.
it will only make her heartbreak worse if u string hr along for longer and then dump her.
 
Sega420 said:
if you are saying this then its clear to me that you like her more than you realize.
think about it. do you want a stable, beautiful relationship with an amazing girl,
or a couple of quick fucks with some floozies?

trust me man, the sex is so much better with someone u love. give it time bro.
then again, if u really dont wanna be with her, you need to let her know, but do it gently.
explain to her that you need some space away from her to think about what you want.

i bet after a few days of no contact you will miss her like crazy.
:P

just dont string her along cos u feel u owe it to her to stay with her due to her tough time.
it will only make her heartbreak worse if u string hr along for longer and then dump her.
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Thanks for the advice friend. My head has just been all twisted up because my girlfriend is away right now going on a month (she is from Maine, I'm in NY, but she goes to the same school as me in NYC), and I recently have been hanging out with a girl that I used to have a big thing for but never got to hook up with and there is a lot of chemistry still, which gave me some damn strong temptations.

She made it clear that she was totally into me and wants me to make a move - she was also looking very sexy which didn't help. She is admittedly more beautiful than my girlfriend now, and I get along with her very well, but I have no way of knowing whether it has the potential to be anything long term or meaningful it could easily turn into just a quick fling. Everyone is shallow to an extent but I have such a quirky personality and have lived such a strange life with such esoteric interests that the girl's personality is always much more important for me. Plus it's not like my girlfriend isn't still very attractive to me.

I know the woman I'm with now is someone that I feel extremely comfortable with, which has always been difficult with me for girls in the past and is the most important thing. Hell she's practically been living with me the past 6 weeks. Less than 6 months ago I would never have thought it possible for me to be so comfortable and happy with a girl (I've had difficult issues with social anxiety). She's extremely understanding and always surprises me with how non-judgemental and accepting she is of what flaws I have.

I can see now that I would be stupid to throw away what I've built with this girl in the past several months. What is happening I think is that I'm just having second thoughts about committing to a serious partnership with someone (I've always been very indecisive) as it has really come to that point where I have to make a strong decision to go all in or not so to speak.

Having a strong relationship with a woman is and has been a very positive and productive thing in my life and is enriching me as a person by giving me invaluable life experience and I would be stupid to risk losing that because I can't keep it in my pants. This other girl is cool but she isn't gonna disappear or anything anyway as she is the sister of a childhood friend and lives 2 towns away.

I really appreciate the advice, it's honestly been very therapeutic to write this all out and work out my feelings. I am very new to this, as I'm 21 and I've only had completely casual relationships and one night stands before I met this girl, so it's all very exciting but also stressful and confusing at times.

I need to commit to directing my energy toward enriching this relationship as best i can I think.

Sorry if this has been a bit disorganized; I've been drinking a bit tonight while writing this post :)

I <3 People :D Especially you PDers
 
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eh man dont worry about it.
sometimes we just need to sit and think about what we really want.

you should maybe try writing therapy.
ie write all ur confused and scared etc thoughts n feelings. keep it to urself if u like, u dont have to show anyone.
ull be surprised just how easy the thoughts flow out once you get going.
when you feel youve written enough, read over it and see how u feel about what youve wrote.
keep in mind u dont need to proof read it, its just for u to see.

this helped me immensely with all my bottled up emotions and pain.
it still hurts everyday that im not with her, and she is the first thing i think about when i wake and the last thing on my mind when i sleep.
i love this girl and cant get her out of my heart and head.
unfortunately at the moment there's fuck all i can do.

best of luck to you and nearjat and anyone else who's having lady problems.
also, trust your gut if something ever feels wrong or off about a situation with a girl.
over the course of human history we have evolved with instinct, a powerful survival tool.
 
tBirdee said:
the melody at the end i am quite proud of :) damn elusive those good melodys are...
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Awesome song, brother :) Really nice, clear production and good sounds; and yeah, thats a sweet melody.

For what its worth, try making melodies using harmonic minor scales, with root notes like A--G--F, each root note for a bar. You can vary the order of those notes a fair bit, but you could write a one bar melody with the same notes, only varying the root notes and make something that sounds really cool :):)

nearjat said:
Alright you guys might not think much of this..

So my gf lives like an hour south of me, I don't have my liscense still so I can only see her like once every two weeks. I'm on the way to get her for her to spend the night with me and she says she's having a couple drinks with her friends. I said I didn't mind but to just take it easy because we were gonna be seeing my parents later. I was nervous,she's one of those people who don't drink ALL the time but when they do they have trouble stopping. So when I get there she's completely smashed, like totally annihilated.

I tried to make the best of it, said fuck it and just had some drinks with her so it wasn't so awkward.

After she satisfied her drunk sexual desires she asks me how I'd feel about her kissing another girl (she's bisexual, not the attention kind lol) and I said no different than her kissing another dude. Well she was asking because she already fucking did , but really didn't seem to feel too bad about it even though I was clearly hurt. "It was just for fun", ok? As opposed to what other motive? The other chick was naked, and they were making out not "smoochin'"...

I'm pissed and hurt. Fuck this dude. I hate who she becomes when she drinks..
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Thats not good man...Sorry to hear it. Just tell her that its cheating, which it is, and if she wants to be in a relationship, she needs to be faithful. Some girls think its a turn on (for guys) to kiss another chick, like we're just gonna go wow how hot, but if there is a sexual element then its very different.

I mean, I consider myself bisexual, and have been with quite a few guys, though I am in a commited heterosxual relationship, and simply would never act on attraction. That said, I have done so while with Miss Willow, and she was upset, and I understood...(Miss Willow is bisexual too, I was her first male-partner in crime).

People can act like fuckheads when they're drunk, but I dont see it as an excuse. People don't 'become' something when they drink, they already are that way. The drink can really hihglight negative qualities in people, which we all have. The main thing I did when In was a heavy drinker was either cry, do dangerous and self-destructive things or get into punch ups; I know there is a slightly violent, very destructive part of myself which I can control; just not when inebriated.

Neajat, you need to be saying what you've written to her.

Peace guys <3 :) <3 :)
 
AT THE LEFT HAND OV GOD
o, Serpent and Lion!
I invoke Thee!
inside the shrine called life
by the seven wonders
by myriad mortals
that gone
and are to come
outside!
outside desert ov restriction
in act ov rebellion
on the sea ov motion
stability ov matter
by serenity, strength and beauty
by the mighty chant ov every breath
in serpentine dance ov blood cells
in simplicity ov spells
divine names, meta-games
I greet Thy presence
oh Snake! Thou art God!
coiled underneath my throne
with Thee I reunite
with blood we make this covenant
myself I redefine
look in and above:
there is more than the flesh
look careful and Thou may see
the unextinguished flame
the nectar ov Thy rage
I taste from the cup ov fornication
and woman by my side
and scarlet is her skin
she's eager to rise
and so eager to please
another day
another eternity gone
and on the stairway to salvation
I walk alone among the falling stars
looking for company
where art Thou?
oh, lacerate ones!
Arise! my sweetest friend
or be forever fallen
we have finally arrived
from prison ov this life
to Kali's womb
down to the earth
as angels ov almighty god-
Chaos!
'tis our last fall
to touch our mother whore
the harlot ov the saints
that spits on the rotten cross
incinerate the icon
the symbol ov all loss
to stand straight
at the left hand ov god
Samael! be Thou my ally!
join me among the bright hosts
wondering neither way ov light
nor darkness
ov which seed
sprouts dispassionately
in the summer ov my life​
 
nearjat, have you guys had "the talk" yet? You know the talk where you say you wont fuck or even kiss other people? You really cant blame her if you havent talked it out...these things should be talked out imo...because sometimes people can have different ideas about whats going on than their partner...words will get you on the right page.

peace
 
Thanks Willow that means a lot coming from you, as a "nice, clear production" is what I was going for, and I know you know your music.
 
willow11 said:
Neajat, you need to be saying what you've written to her.
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That's the plan, thanks man :) You always have great relationships advice

Matsuo Munefusa. said:
nearjat, have you guys had "the talk" yet? You know the talk where you say you wont fuck or even kiss other people? You really cant blame her if you havent talked it out...these things should be talked out imo...because sometimes people can have different ideas about whats going on than their partner...words will get you on the right page.

peace
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Yes definitely, there's nothing ambiguous about this relationship. It's totally 100% monogomous unless we bring another into bed with the two of us. Trust me I've been trying to think of reasons not to be upset with her but there are none, it's hard to feel this way she's never wronged me before.
 
what a weekend! got to eat some good clean lsd and try out DPT while bands played until 6 in the morning with crazy ravers and fire poi all over the place! =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
 
The lady at the store gave me some new product they're selling called "Lazy Cakes."
I read the ingredients and some stuff online. It seems its just melatonin and valerian and few other herbs. I asked her if it had the same stuff inside as the "incense" and she said it didnt.
Anyway, it really works, im feeling very very relaxed. I think ill eat a benadryl and nod out.

And i noticed they had new blends in so i asked her about it and she showed me a couple packages, they now say that they dont contain JWH 018, 073 etc.
She gave me a gram bag of "Mr.Nice Guy" to try out.
It got me pretty high. Not 018 high, but still pretty high. I guess you can say less anxiety inducing, but i never got anxiety from 018. Its a bit less trippy, more of a relaxed head buzz (or maybe thats the brownie.)

Oh well, sweet legal highs. I dont even feel like drinking my beer now.
:)
 
Ever get one of those smacks in the face that just tells you things are getting too real?
I just had one of those moments, its scary as hell to realize.
 
Hey guys :)

Eric man, I finally got around to watching that survivorman - off the grid show you mentioned a long time ago. Pretty cool stuff. He's definitely bit off more than he could chew at the wrong time of the year though. Also other things in life made it kinda hard having young kids and all; they need a social life. I also looked into it more, him and his wife separated, so I think the way he did it with his life situations was a bit extreme. Nonetheless it was a very cool show and shows how one can make a very humble abode.

In the next couple days I'm going to be migrating to our cabin (more of a large shack with stove) out back for as long as I can (if I can make it out there with ATV and trailer; tons of snow here). I'm going to bring out some food, kerosene for light, some of the woodpile, and my freshly sharpened axe. My main thing though is bringing the rifle and eating what I catch (only small game; deer is illegal to hunt at this time of the year).

In my spare time I'm going to try fabricating hunting tools such as spears and bow and arrows and gaining skills with using them.

Lots of spare time I will have indeed; I'll be bringing a stockpile of books. I'm specifically leaving the car battery/inverter/laptop at home; need to emancipate myself from that. I'm just going to bring a small radio and cell phone for safety purposes.

I wonder how long I'll make it, the only thing in my way is if I'm unable to get enough food.

We sure do have tons of snow this year though; I wish I was able to get out snowboarding but alas that costs money and I have to drive a couple hours to do it. Good thing about being unemployed; don't have to answer to anyone, do what you want, live for free if you've got land, but no income for the modern life (which includes snowboarding).

I sure have changed a lot in the last month. I have completely quit marijuana and psychedelics and have no desire to return to them anytime soon. My mind is on the up and up most of the time. I do have to say ditching psychs has been a great move for me.

Ha, funny how ideologies change so much. I think of all the money I've spent on such an extensive drug collection and I look at how much survival supplies, rifles and ammunition I could have bought with that. I'm even going to be voting conservative in the next election. The only thing I disagree with them on is drug policy and how they keep pushing the oil sands crap. It just seems funny because for my whole young life I've been an out and out liberal but things change so much.

And what the heck? Still the same social thread as when I left. This thing really does reflect what season it is in the northern hemisphere.
 
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