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Cool, yeah I hear that from a variety of people. I did quit drinking after a lot of self-control issues in high school/college (not like everyday drinking, but whenever I did drink, I would black out, much of the time). I did some shit while blacked out that I'm incredibly lucky to have escaped from unscathed (basically my high school friend convinced me to drive him to a girl's house while I was unable to formulate sentences and entirely blacked out, went into a ditch, through a crazy stroke of fate the cops knew my family and let my dad come pick me up). I just got disgusted with it (and the week of alcohol poisoning), and didn't drink except a few times for a long time, like 10 years. Of course I got addicted to opiates instead.
I've been drinking again since a few months after I did ibogaine and got off opiates. Basically it started because I was hanging out with my friends/the band house (before I actually started playing music again, but they were my friends already), and everyone was always drinking beer. I started bumming beers and then I felt like an asshole after a few weeks so I started buying my own and bringing it over. I remembered why I liked alcohol, it tickles a lot of fun buttons and is great for socializing... I also find a little bit of alcohol to be good for facilitating a relaxed and focused music playing experience. It started with drinking 1 40 oz for the night. In the course of around 3 years, to now, I've been slowly needing to drink more to get to the place I want to be. I also notice the place I tend to want to get to is pretty drunk by the end of the night, ticking off all the different stages (just lightly buzzed for playing music, then getting increasingly so as we listen to the recordings and hang out, and then a little bit more before bed). I don't have issues knowing my limit anymore, but my limit has gotten kind of intense. Like if starting early I can knock off a 12 case of cheap domestic beer by myself by the time I go to sleep (I usually do more like 8 or 9 but sometimes it can be the whole 12). Way too much. I don't drink on the off-days of socializing/music, the ones I spend with my girlfriend, well sometimes we'll go out to get dinner and I'll get a beer but that's it. We also basically spend the whole weekend hiking and camping these days and I'm not thinking about drinking then. But yeah, I notice how fuzzy and dull I feel the next morning, and really the whole next day. Also I don't want to get a beer belly either and it's just starting (like I've always had little body fat but there is some definite belly fat now, a lot of people would be like shut up, that's not fat, but for me it is and I don't like it). I can see how it would keep growing, since it has already been doing so. My tolerance too, the me from 3 years ago wouldn't have been able to drink half as much in a sitting.
I don't dislike the person I am on it, I'm the same on alcohol except inebriated and smiley and with less inhibitions. I just think it's way excessive and I want to be healthier.
Exercise, gotta exercise... maybe today I'll go back and hit the gym for the first time in... fuck probably a year. I've lost a lot of muscle and tone. Seems like a pretty light work day, I should do that.
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I've been drinking again since a few months after I did ibogaine and got off opiates. Basically it started because I was hanging out with my friends/the band house (before I actually started playing music again, but they were my friends already), and everyone was always drinking beer. I started bumming beers and then I felt like an asshole after a few weeks so I started buying my own and bringing it over. I remembered why I liked alcohol, it tickles a lot of fun buttons and is great for socializing... I also find a little bit of alcohol to be good for facilitating a relaxed and focused music playing experience. It started with drinking 1 40 oz for the night. In the course of around 3 years, to now, I've been slowly needing to drink more to get to the place I want to be. I also notice the place I tend to want to get to is pretty drunk by the end of the night, ticking off all the different stages (just lightly buzzed for playing music, then getting increasingly so as we listen to the recordings and hang out, and then a little bit more before bed). I don't have issues knowing my limit anymore, but my limit has gotten kind of intense. Like if starting early I can knock off a 12 case of cheap domestic beer by myself by the time I go to sleep (I usually do more like 8 or 9 but sometimes it can be the whole 12). Way too much. I don't drink on the off-days of socializing/music, the ones I spend with my girlfriend, well sometimes we'll go out to get dinner and I'll get a beer but that's it. We also basically spend the whole weekend hiking and camping these days and I'm not thinking about drinking then. But yeah, I notice how fuzzy and dull I feel the next morning, and really the whole next day. Also I don't want to get a beer belly either and it's just starting (like I've always had little body fat but there is some definite belly fat now, a lot of people would be like shut up, that's not fat, but for me it is and I don't like it). I can see how it would keep growing, since it has already been doing so. My tolerance too, the me from 3 years ago wouldn't have been able to drink half as much in a sitting.
I don't dislike the person I am on it, I'm the same on alcohol except inebriated and smiley and with less inhibitions. I just think it's way excessive and I want to be healthier.
Exercise, gotta exercise... maybe today I'll go back and hit the gym for the first time in... fuck probably a year. I've lost a lot of muscle and tone. Seems like a pretty light work day, I should do that.
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