Bad news. after the 3rd day binging Dissos and Tryptamines and went catatonic and my ex had to call the ambulance. Had this vision that the lives we live are in actuality part of a massive simulation created by higher beings. The all are immortal and the architects I the multi-verse which there are many with other lifeforms.
They explained that they do this all for there amusement and to witness emotions like love and sadness. I was shocked when they killed me with some. Then to only realize after spending time in the aether my soul was outside my body. I was the reborn into another animals like humans, Tigers or whatever they choice i had become a tree and felt my leaves blowing in the wind and the tactile sensation was incredible.
Interesting, my worst mushroom trip was when I took 5 grams, layed in a dark room. The 100 times I did that were bliss. One time though as I was watching the visuals they became the giant black eye of one of those insectisoid grey aliens, it backed up and told me everything I did was because it wanted me too and wow was it serious and convincing. God damn scary as shit. But I learned something from those 1985 Twilight Zones (the ones the Grateful Dead did the music too, the teacher told the devil this command). I got very stern and told the thing to GET LOST as a command since it said everything I do it told me too. LOL And it did but I was disturbed the rest of the trip and was hesitant on the next trip. The next one I touched something Angelic so all was well. Yeah, but those hyperspace rascals that try and screw with your mind. Just don’t let them.
Had a few weeks of drama, loss of internet, work duties, and general craziness.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Just read Vastness post and I had to go back a few pages. I am going to say this with Love Charlie, if you die I am going to kill you myself! I see the talent in art, kindness, and being generally a good dude. But we (we being BL brothers, girlfriend, mother, and everyone else in your life) are asking you to care for yourself more. If you don’t care for yourself you have NOTHING to give to anyone. And I know you do and are just going through a tough time. I visualize a happy, healthy centered Charlie and I will keep that place for you until you get there. (now I say that and my life is also up and down but just life stuff, not drugs this time although I still do them. lol)
We all have issues, so I almost feel like I can’t talk. But at any given moment we are either being born or dying (thanks Bob Dylan). Stay on the side of being born everyday. You know you have to take a break from all drugs. Except maybe your subs and if you can take it a little weed again. But I see that is even causing you problems. But man, I can feel some of the members here concerned when you are in the 3-meo-pcp thread after you just had issues. I told you, you outed yourself here so now the LOVE comes in the form of us telling you to LOVE yourself a little more.
And the girlfriend, man you guys are so connected forget about saying we “are together” or “not together”. We are one big happy family. She is not going anywhere but concerned for your health. But caring is still there so forget titles. Please, put in some effort to care for your well being. I admit I did not have a good feeling when I just went back a few pages. You are not ready for the shrine. You have more good deeds and duties to do or you would have passed on. Take that chance and use it wisely.
That is my rant, stay well everyone.
