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☮ Social ☮ PD Social: Cross-dimensional chatter. Now featuring mesphereomeantoliopeme.

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Cyanoide said:
Do you use amp for functional or recreational purposes? Or both?

I long for psychedelics. Next week is fortunately Easter and there's plenty of time for some major tripping :)
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Both. Mostly for studying though, and getting my hungover ass in gear; like today.

I long for a trip as well. I'm wondering if I should wait till after finals though. I won't have anything (or as much) to worry about and I'll have a better setting.

About 10mg of amp today, I need to read a couple lectures I've missed, do some grocery shopping and write up a lab.
 
I'm into my 9th hour snorting EPH. This madness has to stop. There's one certain way for me not touching stims while having them; taking beta blockers. It's extremely dangerous to mix them and I'm going to take a beta blocker tomorrow morning and one in the afternoon.

Then I'm going to consider whether to throw this stuff away. It has already given me small panic attacks that last a few seconds.

I really don't know how to keep myself from bying more stims. Soon I have to start writing in the dark side. Fuck me.
 
^ BTW dude, beware of using EPH to potentiate or extend and amphetamine high. It's a hell of a hit at first but the tachycardia is really bad, as well as insomnia, and emotional distress that lasts a couple days.

I've found beta blockers to actually work really well for tachycardia and physical side effects. I've read of the dangers too but they also use beta-blockers clinically for tachycardia. As a leap of faith I took 25mg atenolol during some tachycardia and tension and it worked great.

I've been having a dark day as well. I've spent the last few hours pining hard and scouring the internet and reading old posts from someone I used to know. It's still with me after all these years. No doubt it's the root of my deepening depression and drug use. Ugh, I'm such a mess, I'm not learning shit, I feel like shit, and worst of all it'd be easy to leave behind if it weren't for the one fact that I know we still have and forever will have an unspeakable bond.

Not take things so seriously? Commitment and casuality at the same time? I try to keep my thoughts going in that direction.

Diazepam, zopiclone, trypophan, melatonin, watching The Simpsons and saying fuck 8:30 lecture.
 
^Sorry psox, old feelings can weigh heavily on a man. Hang in there...

I don't even remember getting home last night, I was walking back, still a couple blocks away then next thing I know it's morning and I'm in a vomity bed fully clothed. Spent the day in bed hungover. I am emotionally refreshed, though the physical state isn't the best.
 
If you need to move on Psox, force yourself. I'm in a similar boat at the moment, and sometimes there's not much that can be helped.. but moving forward and finding new can certainly make things a whole lot better very quickly. Just because those bonds are still there doesn't mean there has to be any form of a relationship with the person, find strength in them, learn from them, and keep walking on. :) <3

In the last two weeks I've tried MDMA, 2C-B and Methylone all for the first time. Three magical chemicals, what's with my luck eh? :D

I also finally renewed my registration of residence yesterday, so I'm free to go job hunting, and can hopefully get myself working in the near future :)
 
^^ good luck with the job hunt

i sure would like to be able to try 2c-b

or some legit mdma, me n my girlfriend have been talking bout having a mdma night, but any time i hear people talk about tabs or molly its always someone im super sketch about trusting its legit, i know one dude who tests everything he gets, lsd included but he hasnt gotten any mdma recently, but i do think im going to try to trade him some 4 aco for some L. he really liked it the last time i gave him some for letting me borrow his scale, so we'll see

i just ordered from a new vendor cuz my old vendor stopped selling what i wanted (4 aco dmt)

but hopefully they're legit i also decided to order 4 ho mipt cuz i had to ordered a minimum $ amount so i said fuck it

also should be getting some 4 ho met and mxe (old vendor) and mimosa root bark soon, actually my mom txt me today and said the root bark is in so wish me luck on my future extraction, probably gonna go with the lazy man tek, im not looking for pure i just want something n this will be my first go around attempting it soo we'll see how it goes
 
drug companies should market 2C-B or something as an antidepressant.... but not like a typical antidepressant that one would take daily... it'd be like "are your weekend getaways to the resort just not as enjoyable as they used to be? does the sunset over acapulco not sparkle the way it did in your youth? liven up your vacations with 2C-B!"

a prescription drug for people that have a type of depression where they can't enjoy leisure time or some shiat.

maybe not 2C-B but some of the drugs us PD'ers enjoy could be used for such a thing, and i don't think it would be THAT outlandish of a thing for the drug companies to do.
 
I'm watching this badass film called I Am Cuba. It's like porn for cinematography freaks, it has some of the greatest shots in movie history. I highly recommend locating a copy of this movie and burning down a fat doob to it. :D
 
SOOO exhausted from a week-long meeting. On the flipside its been very amazing and informative and good for networking and getting my name out there.

excited to have tix to both burningman (haven't been since 2009) and lightning in a bottle (only two days, not the full time).

Now to drink some bailey's and go to sleep (gotta wake up early and get back to the meeting tomorrow)
 
25I has got so overwhelmingly much positive response I'm split between what my next major trip will be; 25I or DPT + DMT. I could obviously combine a tryptamine with 25I but I would want to experience 25I without anything else and explore its full potential. It would be wonderful If I'd find another phen than 2C-C/25C to enjoy.

DPT + DMT would be an extreme trip with two very powerful compounds, far into hyperspace. And that's kind of what I would want. I actually consider DPT to the most "extreme" and powerful tryptamine, the one I'm most vary of taking, and I really have to be in the right mindset for it. It's the most spiritual compound for me, and while not being a religious person, it is like a religious experience. I have met "God" on it, not "God" as in a Judeo-Christian sense, but as an eminating life-force. DMT have some (maybe even more) of the same properties but is so short-acting (while more immersive), while DPT lasts for hours. Then again as I have 25I HcL I can measure a quite large dose which would be a powerful experience too.

Dunno. My last trips have been on various 4-subs (4-AcO-DMT, 4-HO-MET, 4-HO-MiPT) and while the last one on 4-AcO-DMT was one of the most blissful and spiritual ever, I want something more powerful next. I need something that shakes me, "cleanses" me, from all shit I've done lately. Those kinds of extreme trips often have the impact of me keeping me away from everything psychoactive for some time (weeks to months). I sure as hell wouldn't do any shitty stims for quite awhile. It's a feeling of being spiritually purified, that lasts long after the trip.

Damn, I'm not allowed to ask what I should take :D Somehow I still think DPT + DMT would be more powerful.
 
So I've been feeling really sick, cannabinoids and every medicine under the sun don't seem to do anything to relieve it, but I popped 3 pills an hour or two ago and all my symptoms are magically gone. APAP + Pseudo + DXM == good medicine.

I'm also quite surprised by the fact that this is my first time taking anything containing pseudo (90mg total) and it's a very pleasant stimulation, like downing a few cups of coffee at once but without all the nasty side-effects like palpitations etc. Might have to keep some pseudo around for a little boost to my morning coffee :) Shame I don't know a way to separate the APAP and Pseudo from the DXM, as I've yet to try it and I have like 5000mg of DXM just in all these boxes of this stuff sitting right by me haha. I might go buy some pure DXM tomorrow if the pharmacies will actually sell to me. Only really want to try it for the sake of being able to compare to MXE and K, even if it's only 150mg, but that'd mean 15 of these, which without extraction is 4.8g of APAP and 450mg Pseudo - do NOT want.

Planning on buying some rolls this weekend to hang on to for a couple months time, just so I don't have to worry about finding any since I have a good source now. Might also take some 4-AcO-DMT with a new friend :)
 
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I've never tried ephedrine but the stimulant way is a bad way. Few of us are stronger than them. They're just so damn addictive. Next time I order psychs I'll tell the vendor not to put any stimulant sample in the order. (Pseudo)Ephedrine and d-amp are great for a stuffy nose though, just about everything you snort tend to clog your nose, but d-amp and meth-amp will clear your nose (after they've taken effect). I once got prescriped a drug that was taken orally for a stuffy nose when I had flu, it contained pseudoephedrine and it didn't take long before my nostrils were totally "clear". What causes this effect in these compounds?

I've never tried DXM. Actually MXE is the only dissociative I've ever used. Ketamine would be interesting but after I hopefully will regain the magic of MXE after my break I'll doubt I have any need for other dissociatives. MXE alone messed up my mind quite badly.

I absolutely hate this constant freezing I've had on escitalopram now for over a year (I used mirtazapine a couple of months too and had the same constant freezing feeling). Never had this freezing feeling before while I've been on SSRI's/SNRI's the last 7 years. My psychiatric can't explain it, nor have I read about anyone else having this symptom. It's certainly from escitalopram but I don't know what's causing it.

I decided to go for the DPT + DMT combination. I'll be inside probably the whole trip anyway. 25I is better suited when it's warmer and lighter and I can trip outside
 
i've tried MXE, 4-MeO-PCP, and DXM. never K. DXM is still really interesting to me after going through quite a bit of MXE.

the best OTC way to take DXM, imo, is Robitussion Gel Caps. 20x 15mg pills per bottle... DXM is the only active ingredient.

DXM is pretty similar to MXE, but DXM is more lively and a bit more visual with shut eyes. DXM has more of a body load during the experience, but the afterglow from DXM is the strongest afterglow of any drug i've ever taken. so pros and cons. =p
 
Ahh, I've returned to a somewhat manageable state of homeostasis.

Thanks for the kind words and advice Jesus but it just doesn't apply outside of the standard breakup. What I did take notice of is actually looking at the paths and asking if a path has a heart? All paths lead nowhere, we all end up old and dead, it's about whether the path is a worthwhile one to live on.

I got to thinking about the origins and dynamics of this bad path (obsessive pining, scaring her by being too emotionally available/dependent; these are the reasons things went awry, the wire got frayed beyond making any connection, but not completely severed). Anyways I got to thinking about the obsessive thoughts and pining objectively and realized they're no good for me and they're especially no good for her. The path I was on was one of consistent misery.

I figure if I can change paths; to one of casuality, light hearted independence, things may work out after a period of time. I have a lot of well rooted cognitive processes to switch around.

I also got a batch of goodies. I'm 'detoxing' off the amp by substitution; 2-FMA is vastly superior. It's 1/4 the potency but it's the smoothest, most focused stimulant I've ever touched. There's little euphoria and energy increase but it's sorta there. It also has a marked anxiolytic effect; I even nearly fell asleep in class after taking it. I checked tonight and one difference I see between an equipotent amphetamine dose is dilated pupils. Not totally MDMA/psych saucer dilated, but definitely bigger than normal. It's odd because compared to amphetamine it is nearly devoid of peripheral effects.

It's a nice change from edge to plush while maintaining productivity.

I also got phenazepam. I prefer it over diazepam (go figure), it lasts so long, into the next day that there's no rebound and craving for more. I like the rate of metabolization. Effect profile isn't too shaby either.

One thing I've got get some discipline in, is not boshing myself on opiates every weekend. I think my last escapade of going through 80mg oxy, along with etiz, alp, diaz this past weekend contributed to my breakdown this week.

Sure learned something useful though. My most profound and useful revelations always seem to come without psychedelics at all.
 
Cyanoide said:
I would want to experience 25I without anything else and explore its full potential.
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It has amazing potential at 2mg. Full of crazy introspective thought patterns, complete with mind blowing visuals (as always), and brought on a strong bond between me and a friend that I would never have expected. 25i gets real deep.
 
psox said:
Thanks for the kind words and advice Jesus but it just doesn't apply outside of the standard breakup. What I did take notice of is actually looking at the paths and asking if a path has a heart? All paths lead nowhere, we all end up old and dead, it's about whether the path is a worthwhile one to live on.
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As the other Jesus put it, "provide yourselves bags which wax not old, a treasure in the heavens that faileth not, where no thief approacheth, neither moth corrupteth." Or as the Buddhists might put it, if you're attached to worldly things and illusions like persons as social constructions you're setting yourself up for misery.
 
Seyer said:
It has amazing potential at 2mg. Full of crazy introspective thought patterns, complete with mind blowing visuals (as always), and brought on a strong bond between me and a friend that I would never have expected. 25i gets real deep.
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Sounds good. I'll definitely try it in the coming months. Got complexed 500ucg blotters, never tried complexed NBOMe blotters but I have HcL too.
 
I have it in HCl as well, never tried the blotters. 1mg, followed by 1mg 75min later was a nice experience as well just not as overwhelming as the single 2mg dose. I was floored for the first 3 hours of that followed by some great energy that allowed me and my friend to embark on a walk in the fresh night air. Airplanes multiplying and bursting into flames, color changing houses, words forming from the patterns on the walls, hexagonal water ripples while it was raining. The hotel room we stayed at had a strip of fleur de lis at the top of the wall going across all the walls of the room, it ended up becoming a conveyer belt and shifting clockwise around the room. Wild visuals, my favorite feature of this substance.
 
How is everyone this evening?

I'm just enjoying a totally nonproductive, purely hedonistic but highly euphoric evening with EPH, Lyrica, beer and snus. When my EPH is gone I'm going to focus on more serious, introspective tripping. I'm not going to buy any stims anymore. When I don't have them, I can't use them. Hopefully I'll just forget them. But I'll allow myself to just be a hedonist this weekend.
 
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