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PCP--Semi Exp--Waking up from a bloody nightmare... to a bigger bloody nightmare

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Psychubus

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Regarding a lucid dream I had when I was in hardcore PCP psychosis. This experience was terrifying to say the least, so do not expect anything remotely positive to come out of this report. (Remember, trip reports are supposed to include negative experiences too). This is something that happened between 6 months to 1 year ago, and I am writing about it now for two reasons: 1)This experience has particularly stuck with me even after all this time and I have no idea why, 2)Not many PCP reports out there.

I believe strongly in dream interpretation, and in this one, I was a movie actor. Though I was doing primarily children's movies, I had to be involved in two or three kiss scenes with older men. I made sure to keep my mouth closed throughout the entire set.

A man that I know sees this, except in my dream his face is hidden; I can only see a rough outline of his body all throughout the dream. Upon seeing him, I make it my next mission to hunt an orangutan.

I failed searching, but it took me on a long journey, which ended with me torturing animals and my own self, especially rodents.

In the last scene, my dad and I were sitting in a white car that was parked in front of the library (I was in the passenger seat). He was holding a piece of wood stained with my blood, that I had been using to cut off the tips of my fingers. I lied and told him I was trying to cut out the heart of a horse.

I then forcefully woke myself up, expecting to rid myself of this nightmare, only to wake up to an even bigger nightmare: In a pile of used syringes, bloody swabs, AND--WTF?!?!?!!??!--BONDAGE GEAR EVERYWHERE!

Fuck PCP, NEVER touch that shit, it can easily turn into a living nightmare! Psychosis on PCP is very emotional, it's been almost one year and this dream has stuck with me ever since. I haven’t touched this one since December 05 and I’m keeping it that way.
 
That's some disturbing shit. You should add to this report by telling dosages and maybe more about how often you used PCP.

My question is where did the bondage gear come from?
 
^^ I was using pretty heavy doses for about a month straight. The effects didn't even feel good, yet for some reason I just couldn't stop using... I didn't know why. I hated the peak, yet something inside of me kept telling me to reach for it.

It was really fucked up. I've read a lot about pcp addiction, and many users describe similar things: that they only felt like shit on the drug, yet they couldn't stop using. Almost as if a demon is possessing you... and I saw plenty after me on it...

The bondage gear? Oh I have some in my room, I probably tore it apart and trampled my room in the daze that I was in.
 
How did you ingest it? I recently tried a "Sherman Stick" which was a newport freshly soaked to the filter and it smelled like paint thinner....That's some intense shit..first time I ever tried it..I'm going to write a huge report on it soon in this forum
 
PARooolller said:
How did you ingest it? I recently tried a "Sherman Stick" which was a newport freshly soaked to the filter and it smelled like paint thinner....That's some intense shit..first time I ever tried it..I'm going to write a huge report on it soon in this forum[/Q

its a sherm stick lol, and to the threadstarter that was interesting i have also had some strange dreams on dust and woke up to surprising situations. I think it's strange what you said tho about people addicted to dust, i know some people who smoke it daily and are for real wet heads, and they are always telling me how its the best feeling ever, and i can't ever understand how good they feel. I also don't see how you "come up" like you said, whenever i smoke it it perpetuates me into a dissociative state immediately as soon as i start feeling it, and while i can smoke more and get higher it doesnt seem like acid or anything that you feel coming on and rising, its more like a slap in the face. good report tho, i love wet and feel that in the right vibe smoking dust i can really see the whole circumfrence of all reality
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there IS a euphoria. that can easily turn into psychosis... hardcore.


I smoked it. mixed it with oil, and then some vinegar or alcohol with a THICK STURDY MICRON FILTER ONLY for iv. and thats definitely not recommended.
 
yeah well, all the other shit is improper ingestion that definitely does not promote harm minimization so that was CUT OUT
 
Reports like this just make me want to try PCP even more, lol. Why didn't you just stick to small dosages ?
 
[/QUOTE]its a sherm stick lol, and to the threadstarter that was interesting i have also had some strange dreams on dust and woke up to surprising situations. I think it's strange what you said tho about people addicted to dust, i know some people who smoke it daily and are for real wet heads, and they are always telling me how its the best feeling ever, and i can't ever understand how good they feel. I also don't see how you "come up" like you said, whenever i smoke it it perpetuates me into a dissociative state immediately as soon as i start feeling it, and while i can smoke more and get higher it doesnt seem like acid or anything that you feel coming on and rising, its more like a slap in the face. good report tho, i love wet and feel that in the right vibe smoking dust i can really see the whole circumfrence of all reality[/QUOTE]


I definately found PCP to be a substance with no enlightenment or any spiritual, emotional, etc..benefits....I really compare it to a strong K-HOLE though..It's funny because when I try to describe the high from PCP to my mates I always tell them " It's exactly what you think PCP is" it just really fucks you up...I could barely walk up steps...Like I stated before, my report is coming soon...I couldn't imagine habitually using PCP daily though...I felt fucking retarded on it, but the black girl who I acquired it from claims that "wet, sherm, gangster gas, PCP" is a big problem for her and her family...sad really...it is definately like a "slap in the face though"
 
WTF?! PCP is by far my favourite drug. It is along with dxm the most spiritual drug I have come across in my entire life. Far more spiritual and life changing than DMT or other tryptamines, at least it was for me.

Besides that though, I've been using it daily for 3-4 months and NEVER had any bad trips whatsoever. It would put me into a very comfy and dreamy state in higher doses until I just pass out.

You should mention how you used the pcp, did you smoke it or snort it or eat it or what? Was it base or salt?

I usually smoked the salt, I love the taste, I love the comeup, I love the full blown dose, maybe along with a psychedelic PEA. I call the point of no return, when you are basically completely cut off from your surroundings the wall of dust, heard that somewhere on bluelight. It's a great description, similar to the k hole on ketamine.

I have once or twice eaten pcp though and have also insufflated it, I have actually once had a very very unpleasant experience on 20 (15? 10?)mg that way. It lasted WAY too long (18 hours) and I felt restless and couldn't relax. Add to that the nightmarish quality that my surroundings were perceived with while I was on the drug and the extreme dizziness I experienced. This was my second pcp experience. When I later started using it on a regular basis (pcp came from the same private lab) I never experienced ANY effects like thsi again, ever.

crOOk
 
I think it was. Well actually, dissociatives in general made this whole letting go thing a lot easier. It's like they relieved me from all my desires and fears temporarily. It's usually nothing that'd happen while heavily dissociated, but rather when the main effects have subsided.

The afterglow of DXM and PCP is insane, at least for me it is. It's the most natural feeling of perfection, like I said, no desires, no fears, no inhibitions. I feel ready and up for everything.
What happened before I decided throwing the stuff away was a heavy k hole though. Everytime I have tried to quit drugs it happened after heavy ketamine trips that were often inappropriate for that time and place. The next day I'd just feel so guilty and weak and worthless that I'd be wondering what the fuck I'm doing to myself.

PCP seemed to have made me ready for making that step somehow in giving me lots of (temporary) inner strength (the afterglow which lasts for days and even over a week after long term use, just my experience) and the ketamine experience was the final thing that triggered the decision. I felt so bad the next day (I injected myself with 70mg a isomer at 1am because I couldn't sleep, eventhough I had to get up for my first day in school at 5am)... And on top of feeling bad, my ex gf (she's never done any drugs whatsoever) was said to me "Let's hope you get out of this alive". Well, death is basically where the addiction would lead me sooner or later or that's how I perceive it anyway - a downward spiral. So all these worries adding up made me quit. The decision to throw it all away came spontaneous when someone offered me lots of money for it.

crOOk
 
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wow CRook you have a really different view on this drug...I've only ever smoked it in liquid form dipped in a newport though..no other methods of administration...instead of "Sherm Sticks" they should call them "Retard Sticks" because PCP is HORRIFYING to your brain cells...if you've been doing it daily, you're out of your mind...all the power to you though...just remember to be safe
 
^ cr00k: I agree with you about the afterglow of disocciatives.They are quite nice and similar for me to opiate highs. However, I tend to have problems with disocciatves now, and I don't really feel like putting myself through a night of hell to experience a dandy afterglow :\
 
Hell? Lol, it's so weird how many people discribe the dissociative experiences as unpleasant...

crOOk
 
^If you read some of my reports, I actually have had some of the most pleasant evening of my life with the aid of disocciatives, but the fact is that anytime I have an experience with them now, I end up in terror most of the evening. Just odd I suppose, but no, I would not think that a night of hell is a good way to describe a disocciative drug in general, quite the contrare, but for me it is.
 
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