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PCP - Inexperienced - W.T.F.

paranormality: just take breaks and make them long. I know what you mean exactly and if you take extended breaks I mean 2 - 3 months between trips and use nothing in between (not even weed / little caffiene is OK) you should be fine (at least this is how it works for me).
 
Yeah, life can get kinda chaotic when you start tripping multiple times per week. But I guess it's ok if you have long breaks in between as subdefy says. I personally have neevr had long breaks though. :D
I am definitely getting some sort of emotional instability from tripping. Mood swings, frequent crying, suicidal thoughts, none of this must necessarily be related to tripping though... Who knows. Also I feel I am becoming more open minded to spiritual things, more thoughtful, helpful, it becomes easier to let go I think and I also feel a much deeper connection to my environment.
In the past two days I tripped three times and I am feeling good today.

crOOk
 
/I think psychedelics can definitely make one more unstable, and dealing with "everyday life" and its pressures can become overwhelming... but many of the emotional issues and stuff are definitely there before the drug ... I believe the drugs are merely a catalyst.
 
psychetool said:
You need to give your brain a break. Just send the rest of that PCP my way. ;)
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Lol, there's none left, sorry. I agree though. I definitely do need a break. I amde it for one month, but I had my comeback like ten days ago. COnsumed 20 different psychoactive substances already in that time interval. :(

EDIT: Actually 18, but I will add at least 2 tonight. Probably Mescaline and something else that's tasty.

crOOk
 
fuck sake man!! thats to many, like arnt you completely insane?! or hasn't your whole reality perseption benn so completely snapped soooo fatr away from the original way it used to be? and don't you find that horrably unnerving, i mean i did, i went crazy for a bit, like litteraly, i had as i'v mentioned before either psychosis or a skitzo eppisode which i'm still over coming the mental scaring from, the epp involved derealisation, depersonalization, sevear anxiaty, quite sevear delusions, fucked up mental hallucinations (like images in your mind) visual, auditory and touch distortions, audio halucinations, sinking very far away from real;ity and the real world, splitt mental persona (as in another side of 'me' inside my own mind out side of my own conscience talking to me) strange cumpulsions, fear of death, fear of contracting some kind of degenerative nervous condition, and many more very VERY strange things to do with perseption, reality understanding, and literal space time kinda shit i can't go any where near to explaining.

was this just me or don't any of you get fucked up eppisodes like this after doing to many drugs?

i suppose the fact that i had to go through my dad dying and my mum getting run over and allot of other stuff last year along with literaly ENTIRELY to many druggs and the fact i think to deeply into shit anyway, for instance i'm reading two books on quantum physics at the moment, one to do with the paralel between such and eastern mystisism, and the fact i ate loads of mushrooms when i was two which probably gave rise to my somewhat unique perspective and thirst for knowledge, maybe all of this including the recent family crisis, pushed me over the edge...

but has any of you lot experianced anything similar to me? or is it just me?....

peace.
 
paranormality said:
fuck sake man!! thats to many, like arnt you completely insane?! or hasn't your whole reality perseption benn so completely snapped soooo fatr away from the original way it used to be? and don't you find that horrably unnerving, i mean i did, i went crazy for a bit, like litteraly, i had as i'v mentioned before either psychosis or a skitzo eppisode which i'm still over coming the mental scaring from, the epp involved derealisation, depersonalization, sevear anxiaty, quite sevear delusions, fucked up mental hallucinations (like images in your mind) visual, auditory and touch distortions, audio halucinations, sinking very far away from real;ity and the real world, splitt mental persona (as in another side of 'me' inside my own mind out side of my own conscience talking to me) strange cumpulsions, fear of death, fear of contracting some kind of degenerative nervous condition, and many more very VERY strange things to do with perseption, reality understanding, and literal space time kinda shit i can't go any where near to explaining.

was this just me or don't any of you get fucked up eppisodes like this after doing to many drugs?

i suppose the fact that i had to go through my dad dying and my mum getting run over and allot of other stuff last year along with literaly ENTIRELY to many druggs and the fact i think to deeply into shit anyway, for instance i'm reading two books on quantum physics at the moment, one to do with the paralel between such and eastern mystisism, and the fact i ate loads of mushrooms when i was two which probably gave rise to my somewhat unique perspective and thirst for knowledge, maybe all of this including the recent family crisis, pushed me over the edge...

but has any of you lot experianced anything similar to me? or is it just me?....

peace.
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That's rough man, I've never experienced anything like it, no. I am suicidal and shit, but nothing besides that. I'm sane. ;)
I mean I'm definitely an extreme character that will suprise you again and again with his twisted ideas (like this new thing where I sell myself via webcam, its good money!!)...
But besides that, nah. No reality crashes.
Btw, I didn't have any other substances besides the other 18, only DOC tonight. 6mg to be exact after 350ml Jägermeister and two beers. I kinda puked at first, but then it went all gentle, I wish I would've tripped harder, I hardly had visuals at all. Not because I did a lot of psychedelics these past days, but there seems to be some other thing going on in my brain. The only thing that will really make me get visuals is DMT and even then its like the visuals arent really there aynmore, unless I'm in hyperspace of course, after that... Hard to describe - They're there, but they don't blind me, the magic is gone, you know?
And trust me, you dont even wanna hear more of this fucked up shit, it probably sounds like nonsense anyway. lol


crOOk
 
no dude it don't sound like nonsense and i would like to here about what you think i wouldn't b/t/w....

randomly i'v come to a decision, that what i went through was a mixture of:

drugg/ sevear crisis induced psychosis, which gave rise to quite a big mental breakdown, which probably triggered some latent skitzophrenia which i then went through the eppisode of, getting it out of my system/ mind, as it were, which i'm now really only just properly getting over.

But i'm a changed man from it, like fucking 'really' shit like that changes you in ways you know, i'm stronger from it but i'd say still a 'little' mentaly wobbly, i have learned though, druggs are a thing of the past for me for a LONG time... basicly because the psychological/mental side effects hit me to the extream and as i'v mentioned above it aint fucking nice, like by FAR 'the' most fucked up scariest motherfucking bitch of a fucked up thing i'v experianced in my life... it's like in your own head, so you can' escape from it, you can relate if i say, it's like a bad trip you can't escape from, that goes on for fucking ages (well, for me it was about 5 months, for it to gradualy manifest, peak, and me slowly fight my way back to reality) imagine that, a fuckin 5 month bad trip... but i'm just ramblin about me now......

still.. glad to hear you don't get so fucked up off shit...

peace.

x
 
Yeah basically what did happen to me... All those psychedelics really just seemed to have one major effect. I was trying to find out more and more about myself, my past, why I act the way I do and why I am who I am. Instead each experience lead to more questions. I started off with one question and came out of the trip with two questions. Slowly but surely I lost all sense of who I really am. By now I don't know if I'm weak or strong, straight or bi, greedy or generous, big or small, whether I wanna become a physical therapist, an unemployed bodybuilder, a moneymaker or a development aid volunteer, a singer or painter, whether I wanna live or die.
One second I say one thing about myself, the next second I catch myself claiming the exact opposite is the case. It's not because I lie though, it's because I don't know any better.
I so rely on the opinions of others now. All I know about myself is what others happen to tell me. I beg people who don't even know me to tell me who they think I am and what I should do. Someone could tell me, be yourself and I'd believe him and I'd start being myself when I meet new people, then someone else would tell me to play em and I'd start playing.
It's all so godamn confusing, I'm just a confused young man, but I'm sure it'll all sort out in the next few years. :)

crOOk
 
yeah my best advice would be to give yourself a break...theres not to many other solutions to the problem
 
Ya, you're right. I'm trying and trying and trying... Started therapy, quit it, have to start again. :(

crOOk
 
Once on 450mg DXM (I know its not that crazy or anything) from robo gels I collapsed in bed, barfed all over myself, and was totally dizzy, nauseas, unable to walk for nine hours or so. It was perhaps the shittiest I have ever felt. Sadly I had to go on a plane in the morning and thought I was gonna vomit everywhere again until some guy sitting next to me on the plane gave me pepside gum that seemed to cure everything.
 
GreenBarts said:
well me and you crook have based K and i think we will both agree how terrible it tastes. not to mention the high is about 1/10 of what it is if you snort it. but it does fuck you up pretty hard.
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Has anyone noticed that if you smoke it with weed, it seems like one half of your body feels more high than the other?
 
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