Part 20 Am I a Gold Digger who is going to marry a rich French woman for green card?

Part 20 Am I a Gold Digger who is going to marry a rich French woman for the French equivalent of a Green Card and an easy life of luxory?

I like it here. It’s like living in Disneyland. I want to stay. To stay here, I must keep renewing my visa. I have a job which takes care of that for me. But the problem is that I’m burned out. I’m sick of working in a
hierarchical structure beneath people who have agendas and who are nearly always significantly less educated and obviously less intelligence. I don’t like ignorant people who have poor judgement, who lack the knowledge to make good decisions, and who lack the insight to know they lack the knowledge and telling me what to do.

I went into medical research field because I wanted to be part of something bigger and to help people. Trying to solve a disease in an academic setting is altruistic. I don’t mind that the pay is low. In fact, during the last two years, I made more money spending a few hours per year clicking “buy” or “sell” in my brokerage account than I have slaving in the lab 80 hours a week each year for an idiot boss. The work conditions (working for somebody who is both incompetent and micromanaging) stifle the ability to work. Medical research is no longer valued in any Western country, at least not by the people who control the funding. Society’s funding priorities have shifted maintaining the war in Eurasia.

With Bill Clinton’s wife sure to be in the Whitehouse, the fighting is guaranteed to escalate to the point of a full scale conflict. She makes the Bushes look like Pacifists. She voted to invade Iraq, and then she single-handedly talked Obama into conducting military operations in Libya and Syria. Even Bush’s warmongering former advisors admonished her not to go into those regions on the grounds that it was too unstable. The entire region is much worse than it was before she began her meddling. It must be emphasized that the destruction she unleashed in the Middle East only the beginning of her scheme. It is her grand ambition to entrench the neoliberal New World Order of Reagan and George Bush the Elder into the region. She is working against her own old age. She knows she does not have many years left during which she will have the energy to act. That has made her impulsive and grandiose. My prediction is that after the region melts down into Gulf War 3, the economy will collapse so badly that the last eight years of economic malaise will look like the Good Old Days. While the rest of us suffer, she, her family, and her co-conspirators will profit immensely.

Not only is her politics degenerate, but her character is so low that she has launched a campaign to viciously attack and discredit the women her husband raped, groped, sexually harassed, and exploited.

I’m finished with America, and I never want to go back, not even to visit. I don’t have any friends or family there. My property in storage is just stuff. Most of it can be replaced. Even the things that are valuable like my sack of money, gold and jewels, artwork I have collected, high end bicycles and classic motorcycles, and irreplaceable things like the few childhood photos and souvenirs that exist, I can’t take them with me when I die.

My two cats were all I really wanted to bring here, but my last American girlfriend who said she loved them and promised to care for them locked them out of her flat and made them have to try to survive on the the streets of San Francisco. They got hit by cars. So fsck it.

In the US, marrying for a Green Card is a cottage industry. An American offers to marry a foreigner who wants to live in America for a fee.

Also in the US possibly the majority of women want to marry a millionaire. They write how-to books, produce TV shows, and make websites that offer to make the Gold Digger’s dream come true. These women will go to extremes and humiliate themselves if they think it will secure them a wedding ring. Whether or not the admit it, for these women, marriage is a form of prostitution, and they are the greedy whores. I despise Gold Diggers, and sometimes I hate hypocrites more than I hate Gold Diggers.

A solution fell into my lap. I have been seeing a French girl seriously for the last two months. She knows about my work and visa situation. She offered to marry me. She said I could quit my job and stay home and write.

She’s pretty, educated, kind, and rich. We share a lot of interests. I’m looking for a long term relationship and so is she. No big problems have come up. We haven’t tried living together yet to find out for sure. She says she’s in love with me. I love her, and it is about as intense as you can love somebody you have only known for two months. I told her I would think about it. What could possibly go wrong? I don’t know, but why would somebody make such an offer? Since when does an unobtainable rich Parisien woman propose marriage to a poor foreigner? It sounds too good to be true.
 
I don't think your post has any misogyny in it. I agree with gold diggers being sex workers on a higher pay scale.:\

In your situation, the only red flag for me is the length of time you have been together and the fact that you might be confusing the merits of the relationship (which sound great) and your desperation not to continue working in a job you hate. After all, what happens if you quit the job based on her financial support and then the relationship changes? I think if you divorce those two things you will get a better idea of how you really feel about the relationship and maybe even marriage in general. I find that people enter into the historical institution of marriage with very little questioning of what it actually means to them. This means that for a lot of couples, the most important legal contract of their lives is never even discussed as such. All the emphasis is put on romantic love which, as 90% of people in long term marriages can tell you, is a pretty shaky foundation for what amounts to a property contract on its most basic level.

I'm happy to hear you say that you love this woman. I know life didn't give you many, if any, reasons to trust as a young child. Love cannot exist without trust and so I think it is heroic on your part that you have been able to overcome the damage inflicted on you as a child.

You are a survivor and more. You are both creative and courageous concerning your own life. I think that this could be a wonderful opportunity for you to both grow in love and grow as a writer if you clear any misconceptions or future pitfalls out of the way . My counsel (not that you asked for it!=D) is to have a lengthy engagement and communicate very openly about what you both expect long-term--things like how long will she be OK with you not making an income. There is a very well known children's author whose wife (a nurse) told him she would support him for one year to dedicate his time to writing. He said knowing there was an end-date was a big motivator. His first book won the Caldecott Medal for children's literature. I'm sure that helped! Speaking as an artist that has had only poverty level commercial success (under 13k a year) I can tell you that it is not an easy path for couples. But then again your knowledge of the stock market could alleviate some stress.
 
Thanks for the kind words and suggestions, Herbavore. Although what happened is a couple of months old now, the situation hasn’t changed, and I’m still trying to decide what to do

Maybe misogyny is the wrong word. Maybe it’s frustration and confusion. I was reading some radical feminist articles and websites and many love to use that word as a label for people they hate. I use the tag word in most of these twenty something entries because the theme is bad relationships. Maybe I can use some of it as material for stories to publish.Sometimes I’ve felt hateful because of some of them, but since hate drags you down, i try to work it out of my system by writing about it.

I’m trying to work through a lot, both past and present. I keep the past isolated to my journal for the most part and don’t talk about much of it. It could jar people. The past affects how i experience and deal with the present.

I’ve never fallen for somebody like this since I was in college. And then it went horribly wrong.

I would like to find somebody to stay with for the rest of my life. I can be happy alone, but I believe that life can be better if it is with the right person. Alone, I won’t sink into a depression as long as I never have to live in an emotional toxic wasteland like the US again. Europe is the first place where I’ve made real friends since college.

There is no hope of finding anybody in the US, but in Europe, it has been better. I have looked but it still never lasted more than a few months. Even so, I’ve done better here in 2 years than I did in the last 20 years in the US. Thinking back on it, most of the girlfriends I had in the USA were foreigners. They were all positive experiences. I haven’t written about any of them. If there’s a chance with this working with the new girl, it’s worth it.

With the other girls, i loved them as friends and loved them as much as i was able, but the romance thing never happened. They sensed this, that it was one-sided and were hurt by it. In the present case, the feelings seem mutual. I think the attraction has to go both ways, or one of us would resent the other. Ive never met anybody before that i ever even thought about marrying. Foreign women are different

A lengthy engagement is a good idea. Is one year reasonable? If i quit the job, I can support myself for a couple of years without damaging myself. I fear the stock market is not reliable enough to live on year after year given that I only started with a hundred dollar deposit and a credit card. Also won’t be able to easily renew my visa without being sponsored by a job. I would have to marry her if i quit the job to stay legally.

Setting a deadline for writing full time is a good idea too. she says a one year deadline is reasonable. Maybe i should write about the squirrels and cats and sell them as children’s stories like Beatrix Potter or something. Or write about wicked cats and naughty squirrels with the personalities of my parents and Xs and make storeis like Roald Dahl.

Some psychologists write about a quality called resilience in children. It refers to the ability to quickly recover from and adapt to trafedy and change. I've adapted to and recoverd form some things but not so much to other things. I will be spednign the rest of my life dealing with it.

These are some life-changing decisions that I have to think about. Thanks again for your feedback, encouragement, and suggestions.
 
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