rebelmania
Bluelighter
I am 31 and a parent to a daughter who's 13 this year, a sensitive age. The last year my addiction became obvious, it has been totally under the radar before and I only took small amounts of opiates, what I was prescribed. I was getting ill in depression again in November -16 and started taking benzos cause I just wanted to last a while longer. It did not work and I came to my job after 10 tablets of midazolam. Been on sick leave since. My daughter has lived with my sister since then while I have been in and out from treatment facilities and psych wards, last time I spent two months at psych for a drug psychosis.
As would be expected we have lost that natural connection we used to have and when we meet it's a bit forced. If my sister is with us she only talks with my sister and doesn't even look at me, doesn't know how to behave. I have been home since christmas now and have besides some psychedelics not taken any benzos which is a record. I don't want to let her down, I love her so much, it's like the drugs become more important. I want her to come home again.
Are there any other parents who would like to share their experience? I feel so lonely with this.
Rebel
As would be expected we have lost that natural connection we used to have and when we meet it's a bit forced. If my sister is with us she only talks with my sister and doesn't even look at me, doesn't know how to behave. I have been home since christmas now and have besides some psychedelics not taken any benzos which is a record. I don't want to let her down, I love her so much, it's like the drugs become more important. I want her to come home again.
Are there any other parents who would like to share their experience? I feel so lonely with this.
Rebel
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